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You know you're down bad when you've seen a show for *counting fingers* 6... 7 times? I could argue that the number should be much more because it basically lives rent free in my head, but I digress.

Anyway, all of that to say: anyone wanna talk Till the End of the Moon with me? :D my ask box is always open.

But also there's a whole analysis essay I'm cooking about Ji Ze and Ming Ye and Chu Mo, and it's looking to be, uh, quite long... Does anyone actually wanna read this lol

#till the end of the moon #tteotm

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Ah yes, my two blorbos, Dick Grayson and Tantai Jin.

#my art #my drawing #dick grayson #tantai jin #Nightwing #till the end of the moon #tteotm

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#till the end of the moon #tteotm #qq happy family

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(Sorry, I hope it's okay to reblog your post. Originally, I just wanted to do a short reply, but I don't think that's plausible. Below is just my really long rant about this, but it's purely just my own opinions on the matter.)

First of all, to clarify, the (rough) literal translation of what Nian Baiyu told Tantai Jin when they were both on that cliff is, "Your Majesty, you clearly know what Second Young Miss want to do. Why did you still let her and Xiao Lin go to reunite with Sheng Kingdom's remnants before acting?" It's not too different from the free translation they offered, but this renders the overall sentence more vague, which lends more room to interpret and understand the overall situation.

In my opinion, there are a few reasons why Tantai Jin genuinely thought Ye Xiwu wanted to run away/elope with Xiao Lin, despite what he might or might not have overheard (we don't know the full extent of what he actually did hear).

He had previously witnessed Ye Xiwu lie/downplay things and scheme before, both as her original self and after Li Susu had transmigrated into her body.

He reasonably understood who both Xiao Lin and Ye Xiwu were as people.

His own mistrust in Ye Xiwu and the feelings that she might or might not hold for him.

(3) is self-explanatory, so I won't be going into details about that.

(1) and (2) are compounded reasons, I believe. Tantai Jin, despite his previous lack of emotions, had always been rather (relatively) perceptive in his understanding of people. He observed a lot and analyzed a lot. ("I understand. I understand all of it. I just can't feel it.") Which is understandable because being able to read a person used to be one of his only tools of survival. Such a skill allowed him to mimic Xiao Lin and reach quite a decent understanding of who Xiao Lin was as a person: upstanding, righteous, and considerate—a textbook 君子 (roughly, gentleman), one can say. Xiao Lin, by nature, was not someone who would tolerate anyone doing anything he considered to be "evil" or "unjust." This was the main reason why Xiao Lin used to despise the original Ye Xiwu, because she had been someone vicious and vindictive to a fault in his eyes, on top of also taking pleasure in the suffering of others. (This is not to say that Tantai Jin's understanding of these people had no flaws, but it would not be amiss either to say that he had a pretty good grasp on their baselines, so to speak.)

Tantai Jin used to be able to understand Ye Xiwu as well, up until everything had gotten messed up due to Li Susu's arrival. Li Susu and Ye Xiwu's contrasting personalities had thrown him into a loop, as manifested through his many moments of confusion over her behavior, but later, he most likely had chalked this up to her having changed/grown up as a person and had turned over a new leaf (something which her own family members also had believed to have been the case) and had considered both of these versions to be one and the same (this is important). However, they had three fights with escalating levels during this time as well, with the third one being the poisoning/stabbing incident, and each one of them ultimately served their intended purpose for Tantai Jin (aside from outlining the problems in this relationship).

The first, beginner level one had been their interaction leading up to, during, and after the ship scene, especially the fight they had when she'd rescued him from the riverbank and they'd been squabbling over the death of Jin Lan'an in that hut. This whole thing had informed him that not only was Ye Xiwu extremely reckless, but she also hadn't gotten over the ill-will she had harbored for him and had not forgotten her words about wanting to kill him either. The second, intermediate level one had been their subsequent fight after Ye Xiwu had gone to Xiao Lin's camp behind his back, which had signaled to him that she might yet still be in contact with Xiao Lin, ultimately reminding him of the intense feelings she had once had for the Sixth Prince of Sheng Kingdom. This was something that they never addressed fully, even after they had resolved this fight. But afterward, things had been good for a while—better than ever, even—and it had given him hopes that even if he hadn't asked about it, Ye Xiwu herself must've moved on from it... Until Congee Gate happened, our very own S-level couple fighting of epic proportion. Congee Gate really compounded both previous problems that neither of them had actually worked out that well because they had no proper couple-counseling RIP and turned that shit to the max. The existence of Congee Gate alone had reminded Tantai Jin that: one, Ye Xiwu had literally stated (to Xiao Lin, no less) that she, out of everyone, had hated Tantai Jin the most and had even wanted to kill him even in her dream; and two, Ye Xiwu had once been deeply, obsessively in love with Xiao Lin as well, just barely a year ago.

This, then, rounds back to Xiao Lin and Tantai Jin's understanding of Xiao Lin. Xiao Lin was a good and moral person. Their battle in Tantai Jin's palace had confirmed to Tantai Jin that, really, Xiao Lin had long since accepted the reality that Tantai Jin had become the one true ruling monarch, even over the no-longer existing Sheng Kingdom. For this reason, and for the sake of hard-earned peace, Xiao Lin had silently admitted that, despite the "assassination" attempt, he had no intention of killing Tantai Jin whatsoever, lest everything is plunged into chaos once more. Therefore, it might have made sense to Tantai Jin, in a way, that Ye Xiwu would lie and downplay the severity of Congee Gate to Xiao Lin for the time being. They had previously met in prison where Nian Baiyu had run back to inform Tantai Jin that, during Ye Xiwu and Xiao Lin's little discussion, Xiao Lin had turn away from Ye Xiwu, prompting her to yank him back, before Xiao Lin had eventually put his hand on her face, for some reason. Tantai Jin had no way to know or verify what they had actually talked to one another, but it wouldn't be a stretch for him to presume that they might have tried talking out their plan of escape. Xiao Lin might have disapproved of any plan of actually harming Tantai Jin, but because Ye Xiwu had always been cruel and vindictive (the original version) and had said that she had always hated him the most out of everyone and had wanted to kill him (the Li Susu version). And so she might have gotten reckless and chosen the strongest thing she could get her hands on: mylabris. This, in my opinion, isn't too unreasonable of a line of thought for him, considering that the whole reason why he and Ye Xiwu had been married in Sheng Kingdom at all had been due to the fact that Ye Xiwu had been very reckless and had chosen to poison her own half sister with aphrodisiac—just to get back at her sister and to be closer to Xiao Lin. The only difference now would be that Ye Xiwu now wanted to get back at Tantai Jin instead, while also fulfilling her ultimate goal of getting closer to Xiao Lin.

But, unfortunately for her (he must've thought), Tantai Jin hadn't actually fallen for it. So, to him, it hadn't mattered that Ye Xiwu had kept repeating that she had wanted to return to his side to Xiao Lin, because she might have been downplaying/outright lying about the situation so that Xiao Lin wouldn't have been upset at her for doing such a thing. It wasn't as if she hadn't downplayed or lied about something before to make the situation appear more tolerable to whomever she had been lying to. The most prominent one that Tantai Jin himself had witnessed had been when she had lied to Ye Qingyu about having been there with Tantai Jin throughout the whole wedding procession at Xiao Lin's manor, thus exonerating him from Ye Qingyu's suspicion. On top of this, at the time, she had also downplayed the fact that Tantai Jin himself had been the one who had demanded to learn talisman drawing from her, making it seem like she had dragged him into this instead, just so that Ye Qingyu would stop his line of questioning.

So yes, this is just a round about way of saying that: Tantai Jin thought Ye Xiwu was running away with Xiao Lin because he had assumed that she must've been lying to Xiao Lin about what she had actually done to Tantai Jin. He'd assumed that she'd opted to omit some key facts now so that, by the time they had reunited with the remnants of Sheng and the news about Tantai Jin's death had broken out, Xiao Lin wouldn't have time to be mad at her anyway because, by then, he would've been busy with fighting to become the ruling power over both Sheng and Jing Kingdom. Then, once all had been said and done, and Xiao Lin had become king, it would even seem like Ye Xiwu had made a great contribution to her country and to Xiao Lin's cause.

This, in a way, explains why Nian Baiyu had asked that question up on the cliff: they were operating under the assumption that Ye Xiwu had tried to lethally poison Tantai Jin in an attempt to give Xiao Lin a real chance at uprising and usurping the throne. Hence why Nian Baiyu had been confused about why Tantai Jin had waited until Ye Xiwu and Xiao Lin had reunited with the opposition to make his move, when he could've easily saved himself the trouble and apprehended them on their way to the rendezvous point to quickly thwart a potential revolt in the making.

Well, in my opinion anyway lol Nearly 20 episodes were cut, and we would never know what they originally intended to do with it, or if this line of writing is purely just questionable anyway and I'm just out here mental cartwheeling too hard XD But then I love this show too much, and so I'm willing to give it a pass with this one, considering that, once you line everything up, it does make sense, even if it feels convoluted. But then again, since when has anything ever been simple with Tantai Jin anyway lol

Okay, wait. When Li Susu is escaping with Xiao Lin, she says, "I have to go back. I haven't accomplished my mission. I have to return to his side. But you're right. Tantai Jin will be infuriated if I return now. I will lay low for a while. I'll head back once he cools off. So, where are we heading now?" And Xiao Lin answers, "The south."

And then it cuts to Tantai Jin in his palace, and he repeats, "The south? Do you two intend to leave the Jing Kingdom together?"

But, like, he started doing his voodoo doll thing before that whole conversation between Li Susu and Xiao Lin took place. So he must have heard the whole thing, right? So he must have heard Li Susu say three times that she was going to go back to Tantai Jin's side. So why did he think she was running away with Xiao Lin???

(Later, Nian Baiyu says, "Your majesty, you clearly knew what Miss Xiwu's goal was. Why did you make her stab Xiao Lin?" Tantai Jin then explains that he wants Ye Xiwu to be so hated that she'll have nowhere to go but under his protection. That makes sense. He's so insecure about her feelings for him that he needs to have absolute control over her because he doesn't trust that she'll come back a few days later every time she leaves, so he can't ever let her leave for a few days again, even though she's planning to come back this time. But it still doesn't explain his line from earlier!)

#tteotm #Till the End of the Moon

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Love is not pie. You won’t run out. Love is Pi. Real, irrational, and never-ending. Happy Pi Day, Love Rebels!

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yall reblog this with the most disappointing game u have ever played

like the one that was either a sequel or overhyped and then turned out to be trash?? mine was bioshock infinite

#bg3

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Out of Touch

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If youre being tortured you might as well get turned on by it

#tantai jin #till the end of the moon #TTEOTM

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What a year this week has been.

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#till the end of the moon #tteotm #qq happy family

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imagining your otp doing the forehead touch is literally the most important thing in the whole world. everybody take a second and stop scrolling and imagine your otp doing the forehead touch. okay. you can move on now.

#till the end of the moon #tteotm #when you're about to go berserk but your boo says 'not today bitch' and forehead boops you

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I was looking for prompt lists from your tumblr only to stumble upon the newest ask game lol Anyway "Don't trust me" for anything/any pairing you want <3

It's kind of funny that for all we talk about Steve n' Eddie, this is the only prompt so far I've filled that doesn't involve any romance between them. Anyway, SEE WHAT ANGST YOU HAVE HELPED ME WREAK. Or something <3

[No major warnings, but you'd probably call this one hurt/no comfort]

Angsty-ish Prompt List

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Eddie blinks at Steve, apparently startled to find him on his doorstep at seven o’clock on a Tuesday evening.

“…hey,” Steve says after a long moment of awkward silence.

“Hey,” Eddie replies automatically, then scrunches his eyes shut and shakes his head; when he opens them again, he grins at Steve. “Yeah, hey, sorry. To what do I owe the honor of this unexpected royal visit?”

Eddie still hasn’t stopped making references to Steve’s stupid high school nickname, despite Steve’s admission that he no longer cares for it. It’s starting to feel a bit pointed, but Steve reminds himself that it’s also possible that he’s just being sensitive. Eddie’s a hard guy to get a read on, but Steve knows that he likes to tease, so he shoulders past the comment and carries on.

“I brought food,” Steve says, holding up the foil-covered pan in his hands, as if there’s any way to have missed it.

And now Eddie’s back to staring at Steve like he’s never seen him before. “O-kay,” he says slowly. “Well, I’ll never turn my nose up at free food, but, uh – why?”

Steve quirks an eyebrow at Eddie. “I promised Wayne I would, remember? Like, last week.”

Eddie still seems confused. “Wayne’s not even here.”

“What?” Steve frowns. “It’s Tuesday, isn’t it? He said Tuesdays were his nights off.”

“It is, indeed, Tuesday,” Eddie says slowly, like he’s trying to explain the concept of a calendar week to Steve. “But Thursdays are Wayne’s nights off.”

“Shit.” Steve’s heart sinks a little; he knew he should have written that down. “Well – shit, I mixed that up. But I’m not just gonna sit on this until Thursday, so you should still take it. I mean, it’s for you guys, either way, so…”

“Uh… I guess, sure.” Eddie shrugs before stepping back from the doorway and beckoning Steve over the threshold. “Come on in.”

Steve follows Eddie through to the kitchen, placing the pan on the counter when directed. He’s still a little disappointed that it won’t be eaten immediately, but guesses it’ll still be pretty good as leftovers.

When Wayne had heard Dustin pestering Steve about his chicken parmesan recipe last week (his mom has been sideways asking for Steve to bring it to dinner soon), he’d mentioned that it was a dish he enjoyed, and Steve had been happy to offer to bring some. Of course, he’d hoped Wayne and Eddie would both get to try it fresh, but as long as it gets eaten, it’s fine.

“So, you said you talked to Wayne about this last week, but I really can’t say I recall this conversation,” Eddie says.

“Dude, you were standing right there,” Steve tells him. “It was when he invited me in after I dropped the kids off for your game.”

Wayne is always the one to invite Steve in, if he happens to be around; Eddie tends to wave briefly from the doorstep, or only invite Steve in if it can’t be avoided.

Honestly, Steve has the feeling that Wayne likes him more than Eddie does.

Eddie blinks at him. “Wait, you were being serious?”

“Uh, yeah?”

“Shit, I thought you were being sarcastic, or that it was a joke or something!”

“Why would I sarcastically offer to bring you and your uncle dinner?” Steve asks, baffled.

“Because you,” Eddie emphasizes with a little laugh, “do not cook.”

“O-kay, except clearly,” Steve pointedly taps the foil cover of the pan, “I do.”

“Since when?” Eddie scoffs.

“Since whe– I don’t know, a while!” Steve shrugs, throwing his hands up. “Since I was twelve or thirteen, I don’t know.”

“Uh huh,” Eddie says flatly.

“What,” Steve says back, just as flat.

“Just, I dunno. In my experience, guys like you don’t really cook.” Eddie shrugs.

Steve crosses his arms over his chest, cocking an eyebrow at Eddie. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

“I mean, y’know, you play sports, you chase skirts, you don’t cook. Like, you’re rich, what do you even need to cook for?” Eddie insists, as if all of this should be perfectly clear.

Steve clenches his jaw, trying to keep a hold of his desire to snap right back. “I need to cook because I didn’t want to keep living off of boxed mac and cheese and takeout pizza when I was a kid,” he grits out. “Since I was kind of fending for myself–”

“Oh, yeah, I’m sure that was real hard, up in that big house,” Eddie cuts in, rolling his eyes.

Steve loses his hold. “Okay, what the hell is your problem with me, Eddie?” he barks.

“Well right now, my problem is that you’re standing in my own kitchen, yelling at me,” Eddie snarks back.

“I brought you dinner! That’s literally all I came here to do!” Steve gestures sharply to the pan sitting on the counter. “And you’re basically throwing it in my face, man, so again: what the hell?”

“I didn’t ask you to bring me dinner. It isn’t my fault you can’t keep your days straight,” Eddie huffs.

“Okay, fuck you,” Steve snaps. “I’ve been trying and fucking trying to be nice, to be your friend–”

“And it’s been fucking weird! I didn’t ask you to be my friend, either!” Eddie says, his volume rising to match Steve’s.

“But I still don’t get what the hell I did to you!” Steve insists. “You’re acting like you’re waiting for me to snap and threaten you with a swirlie or some shit.”

“You know what? Kind of, yeah!” Eddie tosses his arms up.

The premise is so ridiculous that Steve actually lets out a laugh. Eddie doesn’t even crack a smile.

“You’re… serious,” Steve says slowly.

“Not about the swirlie specifically, but the basic concept, yeah.” Eddie crosses his arms over his chest, chin jutting forward defiantly.

“Are you fucking kidding me?” Steve asks. “You think I’m still like that. You think I’d still– what happened to ‘actually a pretty good dude,’ huh?”

Eddie shrugs, looking for a moment satisfyingly uncomfortable. “Under certain circumstances, sure. And it’s nothing, like, personal, okay?” he says, and Steve wants to laugh again. “I just don’t really trust that anyone can really change that much.”

The admission—the verbalization of one of the ideas that Steve worries about the most—douses Steve like cold water, and he can’t help the venom that seeps into his tone as the chill sinks in.

“Jesus Christ, what the fuck more could I possibly do to convince you? You think I stopped hanging out with all my old friends because – what, I got bored of them? Couldn’t possibly have been because I realized they were all turning into people that I didn’t want to be. Definitely not,” he sneers.

Eddie scoffs. “Bare minimum, congrats for not hanging out with douchebags anymore.”

“And you think I got the shit beat out of me more than once, why? Because I thought it was a cool thing to do? Because memory problems and migraines are all the fucking rage right now?” Steve presses. “Or do you think maybe it was because I got my priorities in order and put the safety of the people I care about at the goddamn top?”

That does give Eddie a moment of pause. “Okay, I didn’t know you had, like, memory shit–”

“Because I don’t talk about it,” Steve cuts in. “Because I don’t want the kids to feel bad if they get it into their heads that it happened because of them! Because, you know what? I like having them around! They’re huge pains in the ass, every single one of them, and I would actually fucking die for them. Does that sound very King Steve to you, Eddie?”

Eddie sets his jaw, arms still crossed in front of his chest. “Fine, but it’s not like you have a monopoly on getting yourself injured for their sake.”

“You’re right,” Steve says quietly. “You’re right, I don’t. And while you were in the hospital, and they were all worried about you, I drove them up there any time they asked. I had other shit to do, I had my own injuries, but I made sure they got there and they got to stay as long as they wanted.” It feels shitty, laying it out like that, like he’s trying to make himself sound good – it’ll probably only prove Eddie’s point, but Steve can’t think of any other way to make him see that Steve really has been trying. “I even got to talk to your uncle while you were unconscious, too, y’know? I mean, why do you think he keeps inviting me inside when you clearly don’t want me here?”

Eddie shrugs, silent in his frustrated uncertainty.

“I seriously don’t know what would convince you at this point. I’ve been trying to do better, I’ve been trying to be better. You told me that you care about Dustin’s opinion, and you told me what he thinks of me; your own uncle seems to like me just fine, but–” Steve sighs, running out of steam. “But fine. Don’t trust me. Don’t trust that I’ve changed, whatever, man. I can’t give a shit about this anymore.”

“Why did you decide to give a shit in the first place?” Eddie demands, looking a little lost. “Last I knew you, you wouldn’t have wanted to hang out with the likes of me, so what the hell changed your mind?”

“I fucking met you!” Steve snaps, finding some extra well of irritation to tap into. “Dustin and Mike and even Lucas have spent the last year talking about how goddamn cool you are, and how you stick up for them, and honestly? I hated it at first, but then I met you and I thought– maybe they know something I don’t, maybe they’re right about you being cool, because yeah, circumstances were shit, but… I thought the guy I got to know over those fucked up few days seemed kinda great. And then, talking to Wayne, listening to him talk about you, I thought – yeah, this guy seems cool. Like a genuinely good person, or something. Like someone I’d want to be friends with.”

It doesn’t seem like Eddie has anything to say to that, staring at Steve in quiet startlement, but Steve has no problem filling the silence.

“My mistake. Apparently, people really don’t change,” he says, and then he turns to leave.

He hears one low call of his name from behind him as he reaches the door, but he doesn’t turn back. He’s wasted enough energy over the years on people who don’t want him; he likes to think he’s finally learned when enough is enough.

#steve harrington #eddie munson #THANK YOU FOR THIS SOLAR #IT'S AMAZING #i could really feel Steve's frustration. my boy's got it really bad :( #when you're trying your best but it's still not enough bc the goal post keeps moving #hurt no comfort my precious #AND I'M ALWAYS HAPPY TO ASSIST YOU IN WREAKING ANGST AND HAVOC MY LIEGE

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still true

#this is exactly what I've been telling everybody i know #tantai jin #till the end of the moon #tteotm

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#hostage prince/king/cultivator/demon god #yeah... i think i can do it if i try really really hard lol rip #tantai jin #till the end of the moon #tteotm

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One of the funniest things about enemies-to-lovers ships is how they’re almost always obsessed with each other. Like if a character actively chooses to interact with another character over and over again instead of simply ignoring them? Throw darts at it all you want, but you still printed out a picture of them to hang on your wall

#till the end of the moon #and she did end up throwing six (6) 'darts' at him :) #tantai jin #li susu #tteotm #qq happy family

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of course i fell in love with him. he is sopping wet and miserable

#tantai jin #ethan hunt #till the end of the moon #tteotm #mission impossible #qq happy family

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Do you ever think about how Li Susu was always supposed to be Tantai Jin's Hou Yi, the one to shoot him down? That everything was already set up all the way from their lives as Sang Jiu and Ming Ye?

Like, I'm pretty sure a lot of people have heard of the story of Hou Yi shooting down nine suns, leaving behind the singular remaining one in the sky. But there's a slightly different iteration to that tale.

According to Classic of Mountains and Seas (山海经), off in the Eastern Sea, there was a divine tree Fu Sang where ten three-legged crows perched. These crows were children of the Eastern Sky God, Di Jun, and every day, each one of them would take turn flying over the sky, and the light that shone from them represented the sun. One day, disobeying their father, all ten crows flew out to play, and their combined light scorched through the earth, leaving a catastrophe in their wake. In an attempt to punish them, Di Jun bestowed upon Hou Yi, known for his skills in archery, a red bow and white arrows so Hou Yi could go and teach his children a lesson. However, these crows refused to listen and dismissed Hou Yi's words, and in a fit of anger, Hou Yi drew his bow and shot down nine crows, sparing just the one that is the Sun everyone sees today.

So yeah.

The three-legged crow being Jing Kingdom's royal totem; Tantai Jin prominently using crows more so than anything else in the show; nine white soul-slaying arrows spikes anyone? :,)

Also, guess who had a red bow, and who else came from the East (Eastern Sea) and also used a bow as a gift?

Miscellaneous:

That last three-legged crow, in some instances, was later known as the Vermilion Bird (朱雀). According to some sources, in Classic of Mountains and Seas, the Vermilion Bird was also referred to as the Mysterious Bird/Black Bird (玄鸟), which is the name to one of the main theme songs of the show.

In the aftermath of that tale, upset by Hou Yi's action, Di Jun exiled both Hou Yi and his wife Heng'e (or Chang'e) from the Heavenly Realm to live as humans in the Mortal Realm. Heng'e is the Goddess of the Moon, and Tantai Jin is also associated with the moon. (Once again, I would like to repeat that Tantai Jin is literally Li Susu's wife.)

The name of divine tree Fu Sang (扶桑) shares the same 'Sang' as the one in Sang Jiu's name: 桑酒. Fu Sang is said to be a tree of life that grows somewhere in the Eastern Sea where the sun rises (flashbacks to Tantai Jin's developing love thread always being depicted as a tree growing out from under a seabed.)

Personal rambling:

It is said that, sometimes, the Phoenix and the Vermilion Bird are mistaken for one another because they both have red feathers and are engulfed in flames. There are also debates about which one of these mythical birds is the superior one, but going off on depictions in the show alone, the Phoenix once belonged in the original line up of the twelve Gods in Shangqing Realm, so the hierarchy is already set there. And idk, it's just another factor that ultimately serves the angle of "she's my better half" from Tantai Jin, because I don't doubt that this will always be his thought process when it comes to Li Susu.

Another thing about people sometimes mixing up the Phoenix and the Vermilion Bird is that it makes me think about the saying of how people in an intimate relationship will eventually start to resemble one another. And also how Tantai Jin did his best to mold the image of Cang Jiumin into what he thought would best fit what Susu must've had in mind for him when she'd switched his Evil Bone for her Immortal Marrow. Because while, yes, it was his own wish to become a better person for her, it was a decision that was deeply rooted in her own wish for him as well.

To that end, Tantai Jin is the mirror that reflects what Li Susu thinks about him. In her life as Ye Xiwu, Li Susu was never able to put down her prejudices against him and the trauma that she had had to go through because of him as the Devil God, so her thoughts about him tended to always go for the worst first and foremost whenever she thought he'd done something bad, and Tantai Jin reflected this. When they spent their time later on as Li Susu and Cang Jiumin together, no matter how short-lived this was, she finally was able to put genuine trust in him and his capacity for goodness, and so he reflected this as well. Like how moonlight is actually the Moon reflecting back the light it's receiving from the Sun, Tantai Jin was also able to burn so brightly toward the end because of Susu, you know? :,)

#till the end of the moon #tteotm #come talk to me about this show it's driving me nuts #i can't believe i actually still have more analyses jfc