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OK to make a font out of your own writing

go here

http://www.myscriptfont.com/

instead of printing it off just use this blank thing that way you dont have to scan it or anything

so fill that out by pasting it in any art program and whatnot

then save it and upload it to that site

and itll give you an option to download it

so do that and then install it BAM

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three internet trends i will (regrettably) probably never grow out of:

• typing in a cresCENDO TO EXPRESS EXCITEMENT • …………..unnecessarily……. long……….. ellipsis’ • puttinfh a typo in eveyr other word to shwo u dont really give a fukc but u actually do

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What is the worst thing you think John Winchester ever did to his sons? Canonly speaking.

Woo boy. Buckle up, kids.

Off the top of my head, whatever it was that John did to put this look on Dean’s face.

But if you want to talk canon specifics, let’s take a spin through my fuck john winchester tag. 

Okay, John was a child abuser. He was legally a child abuser for leaving his children alone the way the he did, when Dean was only 9 if not younger. He left his children alone in hotel rooms to fend for themselves for days at a time, sometimes without enough money for food.  This is child abuse. You cannot leave a 9 year old in charge of a 5 year old and expect him to take care of the boy like he was an adult.  Putting this kind of responsibility on a child is going to incur lifelong psychological damage.

I personally believe that John was physically abusive, especially to Dean, but I can’t prove that canonically beyond Sam calling John a mean drunk and the fact that violence is completely normalized between the brothers.  John was patently verbally and emotionally abusive to both Sam and Dean and I’m not even going to go find gifs of that because it’s in literally all their interactions.  Strong, brave Dean becomes passive and terrified in his father’s presence, and sweet, loving Sam becomes seething and full of rage.

Bottom line, the worst thing John ever did was putting the responsibility for Sam on Dean’s shoulders when he was too young to even take care of himself.  This is neglect, this is abuse, this is shirking all of his own duty to his children and then laying blame on Dean when he cannot live up to impossible standards.  But let’s go through some specifics.

How about when Dean was 16 and he lost their food money gambling (probably trying to get more food money), and so he ended up stealing peanut butter and bread - to survive and feed his little brother - and he got arrested?

Can we just talk about how the only real chance at happiness and a normal life that Dean actually got was at a home for juvenile delinquents? I mean can we just talk about how fucked up that is?

How about what John was out doing while he was leaving the boys alone in motel rooms?

How about when Dean was dying and John literally wouldn’t pick up the phone much less show up?

Or the other time Dean was dying and he didn’t care?

I could also throw in the fact that one of the biggest demons in hell actually made a better father than John.

This is all absolutely canon, indisputable. But what I find incredibly revealing is the episode It’s a Terrible Life.  Here, Dean was raised by Bobby and Ellen, with Jo for a sister.  Dean Smith is basically a photo negative of Dean Winchester.

He eats salads, he does the Master Cleanse, he has an espresso machine, he drives a fucking Prius.  He’s a business man with fashionable clothes and an upscale apartment.  I mean, can you say metrosexual?

This Dean doesn’t overcompensate, he’s not macho or butch, he’s not one step away from alcoholism, he’s not a broke high school dropout.  He went to Stanford, and considering that Bobby and Ellen probably would not have had the money for that, we can hypothesize that he got in on scholarship.  He doesn’t drive his dad’s old car because it’s not the only home and security he’s known since he was four.  He also doesn’t appear to be a “ladies man”, as we never actually see him talking to a woman.  The only person he seems to be flirting with appears to be his assistant, whom he talks to about Project Runway.

This Dean could easily be openly bisexual, because he grew up in a loving and safe family.  This Dean embraced his education as well as his love of fashion, this Dean is successful and stylish.  We don’t know what’s going on in his personal life or if he’s happy, but he is plainly a normal, functional, stable human being.  This is who Dean would be if John wasn’t his father.

This is who Dean would be if John wasn’t his father. This is who Dean could have been if John had not turned him into Sam’s parent while depriving Dean of a parent himself, dragging him from place to place, isolating him, while turning him into a child soldier and a tool to further his quest for vengeance - and using him as an emotional if not physical punching bag.

He didn’t “try his best”.  Trying his best would be not chasing down the demon, would be giving his sons a home and a childhood.  Would have been at fucking least putting them in foster care instead of dragging them across the country with him.  He didn’t love them.  What he did is not love, it just fucking isn’t.  Whatever ‘love’ he had, it was twisted and selfish and damaging.  John did not love his sons, not the way I define love.

I literally, honestly don’t care that John traded his life for Dean’s in the end.  I mean, to say “too little too late” is a vivid understatement.  I don’t care what he said, I seriously, seriously don’t care what he said in that hospital scene.  I’ve never been physically abused, but my father did fuck up my head and my life pretty well, and he says all kinds of nice things trying to get me back on his side, and I don’t care about any of it.  All the “I’m proud of you”s in the world can’t change what you’ve done.  And really all John did then was heap more responsibility and guilt on Dean’s shoulders.

So basically - everything.  Everything John did to his sons was the worst.

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🌹 Sexy French Phrases – Part Two 🌹

Sault, it’s Anaïs again! Seeing as though my last post was so popular, I decided to do another one, but maybe a little more nsfw. These are a mix of things to use in your relationship, along with a few that can be used as chat-up lines. I hope you get some use out of these (but remember to be respectful and only use these when you know it is appropriate. Do not use these if you think it would make the other person uncomfortable. It shouldn’t need to be said, but sadly…) 

NB: I have used ‘tu’ in all of these, but if you are not in a relationship/of a young age/know the person well, you should swap these with ‘vous’ and its appropriate conjugation. I am also aware that I might seem like I’m erasing non-binary people here and I apologise, but I am unsure as to how nb address works in French which is why it is not included, but if you are unsure I would use the masculine or ask the person for their pronouns. 

You look amazing tonight. Tu es magnifique ce soir.

Are you into women or men? (Or both?) Aimes-tu les hommes ou les femmes ? (Ou les deux ?)

Would you like to go catch a drink somewhere? Veux-tu aller boire un coup quelque-part ?

Your lips… Damn/fuck Tes lèvres… Putain

Can I kiss you? Je peux te donner un bisou ? (more of a peck) Je peux t'embrasser ? (making out)

I think you’re (so) beautiful. [m] Je te trouve (vraiment) beau.

I think you’re (so) beautiful. [f] Je te trouve (vraiment) belle.

Would you like to dance with me? Veux-tu danser avec moi ?

Excuse me, would you mind if I joined you/sit by you? Excuses-moi, ça te gène si je me mets à côté de toi ?

May I buy you a drink? Je peux t'offrir un verre ?

You’re crazy sexy/hot. T'es grave sexy/beau/belle.

I really want to have sex with you. J’ai vraiment envie de coucher avec toi.

Have we met before? I feel like I know you… On s'est déjà rencontrés ? J'ai l'impression qu'on se connait…

Give me your hand. Donne-moi ta main.

I want to stay with you for the rest of my life. Je veux rester avec toi pour toujours.

Hold me. Prends-moi dans tes bras.

Whew, I’m feeling warm… Oh là là, j'ai chaud…

Your body is perfect. Ta silhouette est parfaite.

I’m falling in love with you. Je suis en train de tomber amoureux/amoureuse de toi. [m. and f. here depends on the speaker’s gender, not the other person’s gender]

Touch me. Touche-moi.

I have a double bed… ;) J'ai un lit double… ;)

Do you want to stay the night? Veux-tu passer la nuit ici ? Veux-tu rester ici ce soir ?

Red wine, white wine or rosé? Du vin rouge, du blanc, ou du rosé ?

Do you want to come over? T'as envie de venir chez moi ?

Goodnight, I love you. Bonne nuit, je t'aime.

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@awkward-gogol hey look it's you bro

clown worm!!clown worm!!!clown worm!!

(he’s transparent!)

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you're the biscuit to my tea

literally you're so cute I could eat you *munch munch*

Ily ❤️ @awkward-tecchou

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Hug! ヾ(*´▽｀*)ﾉ - Jun

Now, that I can understand perfectly. HUGS!

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Am just teasin' , don't feel bad- // Jun

‘This day has been rough on me... I am sorry for being petty. I love you too. Hug?’

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I don't think it can get any worse but- :) ily - Jun

Hmph. If you say so. 

@awkward-tanizaki , am I really that bad of a presence in your life? Is this my lack of dating skills...? 

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It does sound alluring. Maybe bundling up together once in a while with you isn't that bad after all. - Jun

‘Isn’t that bad?’

‘Well then, I will go get us some tea and will see how not that bad it can get.’

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Coffee, gif version with cups~

#just suehiro things

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The broad effects which can be obtained by punishment in man and beast are the increase of fear, the sharpening of the sense of cunning, the mastery of the desires; so it is that punishment tames man, but does not make him “better.”

Friedrich Nietzsche, On the Genealogy of Morality (via philosophybits)

#just suehiro things

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O-okay, maybe not in 'that' way. A little cuddle would do. Just for tonight.. The stars are beautiful, no? Let's just take this moment and gaze, without interference. Just golden silence. - Jun

‘I-... I also didn’t mean it that way...’?

(What could he perhaps mean by ‘that way’...? I have to google it later for future reference...) 

‘Shall I prepare some tea with honey and blankets to keep us warm? Sitting in silence sounds relaxing, but stargazing with a warm beverage seems even more endearing, doesn’t it?’

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That-.. That was supposed to be a song- but ok.

My apologies. I am not the best with modern technologies. I will try better next time. 

((admin loves the song tho))

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It's cold. "It's raining heavily out." I said. I turned toward you. Arms out and red faced, but not making any advances. "Is a hug ok? I wanna keep warm with you tonight. " - Jun

For a moment, I just gape at you, startled. It’s the first time you’ve ever made such a bold move on me, so it leaves me awestruck. My heart might’ve sped up...just a little? “Of course... of course, a hug is more than okay! Hugs are the best! Let’s hug all night long!”

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Hold me tight and not let go~

Sorry. My heart and mouth are already taken. 

But you know who can hold you tight? Dragonfly. They tend to grab their partner tight by the neck with their butt and not let go for the entire summer. Pretty cool.

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How do you like tanizaki in a dress 👀

Stunning. Gorgeous. Deserves the entire universe and more. Prettiest boi in existence.

(that dress would look great on my floor~)