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Ever wondered what depression feels like? If you’re depressed, ever wondered what everyone else thinks?

Why can't you just stop being sad? Watch a funny movie; that will help. How about reading a book - that will get your mind off of things. Come hang out so you don't feel so sad. You could try exercising, I've heard it helps. You wouldn't be so sad if you would just get yourself up off of the couch. The reason you're so sad is because you don't have friends, because you don't ever get out. You just need to be around people more, then you'll feel better. The problem is just that you need Jesus; oh, you're already a believer? Well, you're just not enough of a believer. If you grow closer to God, your depression will just go away on its own. Everyone has their own plan - their own way to fix you. They think you can just turn it off or on like a switch. Sometimes, the switch trips and it turns on, but you should just be able to flip it back off. A funny movie or a joke will do it; maybe a book, or a day out with the friends. Maybe you don't have that many friends. Maybe you can't get yourself off of the couch to go exercise - or even to do anything at all. But what happens when all of these "fix-it" plans fail? What happens when you don't know where to find happiness? What happens when you have tried everything you can think of, but you have forgotten how to feel happy; you've forgotten how to feel, and you're numb? "I love you." He says. I know I love him too - I know that I do. I know that, when I look at him, my heart flutters. I know that, when I see his name on my phone's caller ID, I can't suppress the girlish grin that automatically arises. I know that, when he hugs me, I feel safe. I know that I love him. So why is it so hard to say it back? "I love you too." But it's empty. I love you; I do! Please, please believe me. I know that I do. I know it in my head. I know that when I can feel things again, I'll look at you and my heart will jump. I'll hear your voice and the tension in my chest will begin to melt away. I know I love you. I just can't feel it right now. I'm sorry that right now, I'm hugging you back, but I know you feel like you're holding a shell. I wish I could fix it. I do. I'm lying on the couch in my living room. One of my best friends just got married - I had the honor of being a bridesmaid. I was happy for them - I knew I was, somewhere deep inside of me. I smiled in the pictures, and I laughed at the jokes, and I congratulated my best friend. But I felt nothing. I went home that night, and crawled into bed. I faced the wall, and silent tears streamed down my cheeks. I didn't feel sad - on the contrary, my best friend just married the love of her life. I am so happy for her. So why am I crying? All of my friends have left for the summer - all but one. That one friend just had a baby. I was there at the hospital on the day that this precious little girl came into the world. I saw her, and I held her before the world had a chance to taint her. She was the purest, most innocent thing I have ever seen, and I love her. I love her, because her mother is practically my sister, making this little girl practically my niece. I am so happy for her parents. She is a beautiful, healthy little girl, and her mom came through perfectly well. I smile at the hospital. I smile as I hold this darling gift that now blesses my friend's life. And I leave the hospital in tears. I am crying. I don't remember what it was like to feel the joy that I felt just moments ago, holding this sweet girl in my arms. I am crying because when I go home, I am alone. I will be alone. Alone and lonely are two entirely different things. You can be in a room filled with people, and still feel very, very lonely. You can be alone, but know that there are good things, and good people out in the world, and you'll see them soon. You aren't always lonely when you're alone; and you aren't always alone when you're lonely. But I know that, when I go home, I will be alone, and I will be lonely. I used to be very close with a girl at my university. She would come over often, and we would stay up late drinking coffee and studying, or eating Doritos and watching TV shows that would make us scared to walk down the halls when they were dark. We've grown apart, and I miss her. She just got engaged. I am very happy for her... somewhere inside of me. I can't find that place yet, though. I know she will be marrying the man she loves, but I don't know how to be happy for her. I remember the last time I was happy - truly, truly happy. It was just a random day of the week, and I woke up in an excellent mood. I stopped on my way to classes and picked up tea with lemon, and beef jerky to eat during my break. I didn't know why I was in such a good mood, but I couldn't stop smiling. I was okay with it. It felt like everything was going to be right with the world. People noticed, too. They noticed my smile, and told me I should smile more often; that it looked good on me. And just like that, my day of happiness started spiraling downward. I should smile more often. I try. I try my very best to smile more often. I try to smile as often as I can. But so often, I catch myself sitting with tears in my eyes, or with a blank expression on my face as if nothing is going on inside of my head. Really, it's quite the contrary. I think so much. I think that I should smile more. I think that I am broken because I can't smile more. Maybe a smile looks good on me, but does it look good when I'm forcing it onto my face, and I feel like I'm dying inside? Every day - every single day, I tell a huge lie to the world and those who see me. "How are you?" They ask. "I'm fine; how are you?" I return. What do I really want to say? "I'm not okay. I feel like someone has placed a heavy weight on my chest. I feel like the world wouldn't care if I died. I feel like nothing will ever be okay. I feel like every person I come into contact with is judging me. I feel like I am dirty, and used, and no good at all, because I had some horrible things happen to me when I was a child. I feel like I can never be loved by someone outside of my family, because what do I have to offer? I'm not the top of my class. I'm not the prettiest, or the skinniest, or the most athletic. I can't even run around a softball diamond without needing my inhaler. I have no outstanding skills. I cry myself to sleep every night. I have trust issues. I have abandonment issues. I don't want to make friends, because I believe that either they will leave me, or I will be forced to leave them. I am not good enough, or smart enough. I'm not okay because I am alone, and I am lonely. I am not okay, because I just want someone to understand what it feels like to live in my world: a world of depression and anxiety. I am not okay. Help me. I need help." "What does it feel like to be depressed and anxious?" Some people ask. It feels like all of the goodness has been drained from the world. There is no reason to get out of bed in the morning. There is no reason to try to put on makeup or put an effort into what you wear, because you'll look horrible anyway. Why would you bother trying to make friends? Nobody will like you anyway - and if they do, they only will for a time. They will soon cease to acknowledge your existence, or they will grow tired of your constant sadness. It feels like not being able to go out in public because then you forget how to breathe. There are too many people - I'm going to be in the way, and I don't want to be an inconvenience to anyone. Anything I say will be the wrong thing. Anything I do will be the wrong thing. If someone is upset, it must be my fault. If something goes wrong, I have to apologize because surely, I had something to do with it even if I didn't mean to. It feels like there is a weight on my chest, and I can't breathe. I can't breathe, or move, or sit up. It feels like being too sad to cry, and hating myself for every emotion I feel, because I should be stronger than that. When you text someone and they don't text back, you're afraid that you've inconvenienced them. You think they're tired of you, and they don't want to talk to you. You back off, and you start pushing them away before they can do the same to you... but really, they were never going to. When people ask "what's wrong?" you can't tell them, because you don't trust that they really care. You don't know that they actually want you to explain what's going on, and what you're feeling. It feels like drowning while everyone else can breathe underwater. It feels like screaming, but no one can hear you. It feels like the dream you have in which you try to run, but you're only running as fast as a wasp can fly through jello. It feels like nights without sleep wondering what you could have done differently, and critiquing every single thing that you did today. Mostly, it feels like you are watching everyone experience something wonderful - this thing that they call joy. They all look at you funny because you keep wondering what it is, or how you can find it, but they don't understand because they can find theirs so easily. It feels like everyone speaks the same language, but you don't understand it. Social contexts make no sense, and you don't know how to deal with them. Someone asks you a question, and in your mind, you know the answer, but you can't articulate it because you take too long to translate it in your mind from your language to theirs. It feels like swimming through peanut butter, ten feet under with no snorkel or oxygen. You're choking. You're gasping for breath, but every time you inhale, you choke even more. You want to give up. You want to stop trying to breathe. You want to just let yourself sink to the bottom of the seemingly uncharted water that is the world, and just slowly, quietly disappear. But while you're sinking, you're screaming. You're screaming for someone to help you, because you don't want to sink - your legs and arms are just too tired to keep carrying you on, and you don't have the energy left in you to keep fighting. So you scream. You scream for someone to hold you up, or give you something to rest on for just a moment. And sometimes, you get something to rest on. When you do, though, you get pushed off very soon, and you have to swim again, before you've caught your breath. And when you don't, you watch the bubbles that carry your screams. You watch them rise to the surface, unnoticed. You watch as everyone above you is playing Marco Polo, and you are sinking slowly and quietly to your death. Nobody hears you. Nobody sees you. There isn't the relief of giving up, though. Because when you finally stop trying to swim, and you reach the bottom, all of a sudden, you find yourself thrown back up and once again, you get caught in the undertow. Right when you come to the top of the water, it is dragging you under again. You don't know if you'll make it this time. You almost don't want to, but you know that you have to. You know that you will, no matter what. And you don't remember the last time you had a respite for longer than a few moments. It feels like a constant battle. Every day, you have to find a reason to get up - just one thing that will encourage you to leave your bed in the morning. And every time you get in the bath, you have to hold on to one precious thing that will keep you from leaving your head underwater for just long enough. It feels like it wouldn't be such a bad thing if that semi truck ran into you, because maybe then it would all be over. Rebuttal - I know nothing helps, that I can’t make it better. I know it’s not a switch you can flip to make you feel better. It’s not “all in your head”, you’re not making it up. You’re sad and you don’t know why, but what makes it hard it that I don’t know why either. It’s hard for me to understand that you’re just sad for no reason, even though maybe I’ve been there before. You’re down and there’s nothing I can do to pick you back up. You’re sad and you can’t make it better. You’re sad and I can’t make it better. There’s nothing more I’d like to do than make it better. I know I can’t. You don’t even know what’s wrong, how can I? Your sadness makes me sad but I like you to know that I’m here. Sure, you know I’m here for you, but do you understand what I really mean when I say that? It’s not empty words or an empty promise. It’s not just something for you to know when you’re sad. “They’ll be here for me if I need them.” No. It means I am here. Let me know, let me see, and I’ll be here. I can’t make it better, you’ll still be sad. But it makes me feel better to know I’m doing everything I can – just being here beside you, waiting for it to pass. I’ll be here when it’s better. I know we’re miles apart and there’s nothing either of us can do about it. I know you’re alone and you’re lonely and I wish more than anything in the world that I could physically be there. But I can’t. So I’ll sit here, on the other side of the phone, or the computer, or the camera. I’m not physically there but I am there. I’m sitting with you in complete silence, miles apart but together all the same. I feel what you feel because we’re both alone. The few words you say reflect more than you could know. The silence says even more. You can’t find the words. You’re so sad, so far gone that you don’t even know how to form the words to tell me. That’s what the silence tells me. Even if I can’t see your face, I can see you. You’ve explained what it feels like, what you think when you’re that way. You’re buried, you’re suffocating, and the world would turn without you. You think you’re not pretty, or smart, or anyone special. You think everyone will leave you and you will end up alone. You think you’re an inconvenience or that any pause in communication means suddenly I don’t care. When you’re buried, so am I. When you’re suffocating, I can’t breathe. Without you, my world wouldn’t turn. You are pretty – you’re gorgeous (really though) and to me you’re one of the most beautiful people in the entire world. You are smart – you know how many times you’ve taught me things? You are more special than you will ever know – you’re my best friend. You think if you were gone, if I left you, I’d hurt for a while and then feel better. I’d get over you. But that’s not true. If you were gone, there might be times when I’d forget the hole in my life, but no one could replace you. I’ll make a joke and no one will laugh, because it was an inside joke with you. Something will happen and I’d look for you, because that would have been hilarious to us, even if it wasn’t to anyone else. I’d see a movie or a picture that I love and know that no one else appreciates it except for you. I’ll have a day when all I want to do is complain to someone about all my problems and my life – gah life! – and no one will be there. I’ll comment on a passing hot guy (remember that waiter) and there will be no one to tell me “Hello? There’s no way he’d work, he’s sooo not your type,” because no one knows “my type” like you do. There is no substitute for you. Only you. I know there’s no feeling like it, you feel hopeless and defenseless and you feel like you’re drowning. I’ve been there a time or two and it would suck to be stuck there. You’re screaming for help and I’m screaming an answer right back. You beg to be heard, I’m begging you to hear me. You’re breathing in water and I’m trying to pump you full of air. You can’t get out, there’s no switch, there’s nothing I can do. But that won’t stop me from trying. I’ll try to pull you out and make you smile. Not force a smile, but a real smile (like that time with the haha monsters). You might not be able to hear me, but I wonder if it might help to know that I’m trying? Every time you’re drowning or screaming for help, I’m trying to help you or answer you. You feel like you’re not being heard, I know I’m not. And that’s ok. Because it won’t stop me from screaming, “I’ve got a water buoy! Grab a hold and we’ll battle this storm together!” It might seem like no one cares or no one will fight for you. You might believe “no one is there” some days more than anything else. There will be nothing I can say to help you but that doesn’t mean I will stop trying. Because I won’t give up on you. When you want to give up, I won’t. You want to drown or have it all be over, but I will never stop fighting. The enemy is it. The enemy is depression. And I will fight it kicking and screaming until you break the surface. Author Credit: Original - Kathlien Riverside. Rebuttal - Nichole Grahm

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Hate - despise, loathe, detest, abhor, disfavor, dislike, disapprove, abominate

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Help - aid, assist, support, encourage, back, wait on, attend, serve, relieve, succor, benefit, befriend, abet

Hide - conceal, cover, mask, cloak, camouflage, screen, shroud, veil

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Hurt - damage, harm, injure, wound, distress, afflict, pain

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Kill - slay, execute, assassinate, murder, destroy, cancel, abolish

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Mark - label, tag, price, ticket, impress, effect, trace, imprint, stamp, brand, sign, note, heed, notice, designate

Mischievous - prankish, playful, naughty, roguish, waggish, impish, sportive

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Neat - clean, orderly, tidy, trim, dapper, natty, smart, elegant, well-organized, super, desirable, spruce, shipshape, well-kept, shapely

New - fresh, unique, original, unusual, novel, modern, current, recent

Old - feeble, frail, ancient, weak, aged, used, worn, dilapidated, ragged, faded, broken-down, former, old-fashioned, outmoded, passe, veteran, mature, venerable, primitive, traditional, archaic, conventional, customary, stale, musty, obsolete, extinct

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Plan - plot, scheme, design, draw, map, diagram, procedure, arrangement, intention, device, contrivance, method, way, blueprint

Popular - well-liked, approved, accepted, favorite, celebrated, common, current

Predicament - quandary, dilemma, pickle, problem, plight, spot, scrape, jam

Put - place, set, attach, establish, assign, keep, save, set aside, effect, achieve, do, build

Quiet - silent, still, soundless, mute, tranquil, peaceful, calm, restful

Right - correct, accurate, factual, true, good, just, honest, upright, lawful, moral, proper, suitable, apt, legal, fair

Run - race, speed, hurry, hasten, sprint, dash, rush, escape, elope, flee

Say/Tell - inform, notify, advise, relate, recount, narrate, explain, reveal, disclose, divulge, declare, command, order, bid, enlighten, instruct, insist, teach, train, direct, issue, remark, converse, speak, affirm, suppose, utter, negate, express, verbalize, voice, articulate, pronounce, deliver, convey, impart, assert, state, allege, mutter, mumble, whisper, sigh, exclaim, yell, sing, yelp, snarl, hiss, grunt, snort, roar, bellow, thunder, boom, scream, shriek, screech, squawk, whine, philosophize, stammer, stutter, lisp, drawl, jabber, protest, announce, swear, vow, content, assure, deny, dispute

Scared - afraid, frightened, alarmed, terrified, panicked, fearful, unnerved, insecure, timid, shy, skittish, jumpy, disquieted, worried, vexed, troubled, disturbed, horrified, terrorized, shocked, petrified, haunted, timorous, shrinking, tremulous, stupefied, paralyzed, stunned, apprehensive

Show - display, exhibit, present, note, point to, indicate, explain, reveal, prove, demonstrate, expose

Slow - unhurried, gradual, leisurely, late, behind, tedious, slack

Stop - cease, halt, stay, pause, discontinue, conclude, end, finish, quit

Story - tale, myth, legend, fable, yarn, account, narrative, chronicle, epic, sage, anecdote, record, memoir

Strange - odd, peculiar, unusual, unfamiliar, uncommon, queer, weird, outlandish, curious, unique, exclusive, irregular

Take - hold, catch, seize, grasp, win, capture, acquire, pick, choose, select, prefer, remove, steal, lift, rob, engage, bewitch, purchase, buy, retract, recall, assume, occupy, consume

Tell - disclose, reveal, show, expose, uncover, relate, narrate, inform, advise, explain, divulge, declare, command, order, bid, recount, repeat

Think - judge, deem, assume, believe, consider, contemplate, reflect, mediate

Trouble - distress, anguish, anxiety, worry, wretchedness, pain, danger, peril, disaster, grief, misfortune, difficulty, concern, pains, inconvenience, exertion, effort

True - accurate, right, proper, precise, exact, valid, genuine, real, actual, trusty, steady, loyal, dependable, sincere, staunch

Ugly - hideous, frightful, frightening, shocking, horrible, unpleasant, monstrous, terrifying, gross, grisly, ghastly, horrid, unsightly, plain, homely, evil, repulsive, repugnant, gruesome

Unhappy - miserable, uncomfortable, wretched, heart-broken, unfortunate, poor, downhearted, sorrowful, depressed, dejected, melancholy, glum, gloomy, dismal, discouraged, sad

Use - employ, utilize, exhaust, spend, expend, consume, exercise

Wrong - incorrect, inaccurate, mistaken, erroneous, improper, unsuitable

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