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I have so much love to give. ... not only does no one seem to want it, but everyone seems to abuse it. I'm so sad, being unloved. I don't know what love is like. I only know being used, and discarded. Nothing I offer is enough, no matter the difficulty.

I was just treated like an option. The man didn't know who he wanted, but is actively with another female. He wanted to pick between her and i.... his history with me is a bad one. No trust. Never once has he proven his words true with actions. To find out he contacted me, because he wanted to see what chance he had left with me before committing to her.

I found out all of this a week after he messaged me. He said he loved me, I told him I knew better. My gut will never steer me wrong.

I think it off everyone in life, and everything- my gut is the only thing that sometimes truly does love me.

Other than that, I believe I am too damaged to be loved, correctly if ever at all. At best I'll be a temporary character in their chapter books.

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I miss him.

It sucks. The silence. But if you can't respect boundaries... where's the relationship? If you only text me, and see me one day a week and a few hours at best... how is anyone to believe you're serious about the relationship? Words from anger and frustration were said, I admit and accept my wrongs. But never did I once aak for social media to be deleted. It was the girls who's pics you liked. Not hard. It was the fact that I told you in june... and September you're still liking thirst traps. The lack of concern for my feelings.the lack of care for the relationship. You sure were about the fun things tho. That's why when I said I missed you, you returned with I miss Saturday funday. You didn't miss me then, you don't miss me now... and that's why after I said these are some things I want back, you gave me the complete opposite. Responded with ah, more complaints. Why are my feelings bad? Because they're accurate and you feel bad for how you treat me? Because it's bare minimum? Would it be fair to admit the reason you changed toward me was because you aren't physically attracted to me? Is it because I don't have a perfect body? I wasn't for the gym, and suddenly I changed my mind? I miss you, but I deserve better than to be treated like I'm just a friend, to be told I text too much, to find out you don't care that's why you don't ask. Not because I tell you every detail because I think you deserve to know.... that's fine. I'll take the L.

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If I disassociate anymore, I'm going to die.

I can't keep up with this. Something has to give. Only allowed so much happy before it's all destroyed. Happiness is a fleeting feeling.

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