aspiringexmormon

[aspiringexmormon]

Exmo Reminder #5

(this goes along with reminder #4)

Toxic people exist on both sides of the Mormon/non-Mormon coin. But the opposite is also true.

There are many people both in and out of the church who will treat you with respect and love you unconditionally (yes! Actually unconditionally!), don't burn yourself out trying to maintain emotionally draining relationships.

You deserve to have healthy relationships, don't let the brainwashing convince you otherwise.

#apostake #exmo #exmormon #ex mormon #ex mo

[aspiringexmormon]

Exmo Reminder #4

Although it might be hard to let go of some close relationships with members, prioritizing your mental health by reducing contact with members who contribute to feelings of unhappiness and dissatisfaction may be a good idea.

#apostake #exmo #exmormon #ex mormon #ex mo

[aspiringexmormon]

So, I don't think I ever mentioned it on here (guess I spaced), but my sibling came home from their mission early in December. They never even made it to Vietnam. It was mainly due to severe depression, insomnia, and suicidal thoughts. They've been doing a bit better now, and we've had a lot of talks about church stuff and how the pressure is suffocating. They said they have acknowledged the many issues within the church, but they still believe in the gospel. Although they aren't a full blown exmo, it's been very comforting to feel like I have someone who kind of gets it.

Anyway remember to take care of yourself, and look out for those who you notice are struggling within the church (assuming you're still somewhat involved in church things for whatever reason). We all got this. Love y'all~

[aspiringexmormon]

On another note... I'm finally moving out in August!!!! Gonna be a long road to complete independence but at least I don't have to live with my parents and endure all the Mormon BS that makes me cry inside (and outside too tbh)

[aspiringexmormon]

Y'ALL Y'ALL Y'ALL

I have returned!!!!! Been having a bit of a rough time for the past few months, so I haven't even opened Tumblr since probably April. But I am back and I'm tryna think of some ideas for specific posts instead of my usual disorganized ranting. I still need to finish my post about the church and its many billions of dollars, but I haven't forgotten, and I will get around to it.

Anyway, I hope you're all doing at least okay if not well. DM's are open as always. Discord Server is alive and well (DM for an invite, I'm not gonna hold a worthiness interview, so don't stress). Look forward to me trying to process all my emotional baggage. Love y'all :)

#apostake #exmo #exmormon #ex mormon #ex mo

[aspiringexmormon]

So much mormon-related bullshit happens every day but posting about it all is really draining. Just wanted to let you all know that there have been countless infuriating church things going on in my life and I'm super bitter about it. Hopefully soon I can get the motivation to make posts again. Have a lovely day everyone

#exmormon #ex-mormon #ex mormon #exmo #ex-mo #ex mo #apostake

[aspiringexmormon]

I'm desperate

This is not an exmormon post I'm sorry but please don't stop reading. (Date: November 2nd 2019)

So due to how my parents run things I just had three weeks worth of gas bills thrown at me totalling $72

I currently have $101 in my bank account. This would make that gas bill not a problem if it wasn't for I also have therapy this week which adds up another $60 totalling the amount I have to pay to various things before Friday (the day I get paid) to be $132 making me $31 short.

I just got a new job and my paychecks got fucked up which is the reason I'm stuck in this position and both payments are due before the day I finally get paid which is Friday my parents despite me being a minor and living in their house refuse to help out at all.

I wouldn't be asking for help if I wasn't utterly desperate and didn't see any other way out of this situation. I'd be totally willing to draw a little drawing in return and literally anything will help so if you can please please considering giving a dollar or two it would mean the world to me. If you don't have the money to help out at all please consider sharing this.

PayPal: paypal.me/rainbowghosts

Venmo: @rainbowandghosts

#please help them out if you can #we've been friends for a while now so I know that this is really a last resort #if you can't give any money please at least boost this

[aspiringexmormon]

I'm so sorry that you can relate. I hope things work out better than you fear :)

Not really liking that my sibling (towards whom I feel a great deal of closeness) is going to go devote their life to a cult for 1.5 years. At least they’re serving in Vietnam, so it won’t be very much proselytizing and they’ll get to meet with some amazing people. 

[aspiringexmormon]

Not really liking that my sibling (towards whom I feel a great deal of closeness) is going to go devote their life to a cult for 1.5 years. At least they’re serving in Vietnam, so it won’t be very much proselytizing and they’ll get to meet with some amazing people. 

#exmo #ex mo #exmormon #ex mormon #apostake

[aspiringexmormon]

Some Living with TBMs Bullshit:

Okay, so for context, my sibling is going to enter the MTC on Wednesday (don’t ask me why a queer enby person would want to go on a mission, because they don’t really have any valid reasons and I as a fellow queer enby have no fucking idea). I was expressing concern to my sibling about the really strict rules (especially entertainment-wise), and worrying about their mental health. Unfortunately, our father was also in the room and he started preaching to me about how beneficial and freeing the rules are. Then, he topped it off with the statement that every single person who has committed themselves 100% to their mission hasn’t regretted it. Which is such blatant blame-shifting. Just like “if you had a bad experience on your mission, you must not have been fully committed.” Then, he’s trying to compare the mission rules to having a job at disneyland and I’m just like “THOSE ARE TWO VERY DIFFERENT THINGS.” My father then continues to preach about the importance of missionary work and then sprinkles in that he knows that I wouldn’t be able to handle a full-time mission. I’m not really offended, because I think all this stuff is a load of shit, but I gotta say, I find it very irritating to listen to people who have control over my life spewing such obvious bullshit with such burning conviction. 

#sorry that this was kinda disorganized #I'm really tired #exmormon #exmo #ex mo #ex mormon #apostake

[aspiringexmormon]

[aspiringexmormon]

Me bustin open the Church doors during service and running towards the Baptism pool:

[aspiringexmormon]

no don't leave the church you're so loved despite your sins aha

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❤️❤️❤️

It's so hard to be active in the Tumblr exmo community nowadays. I don't ever know what to say, and #exmormon is almost devoid of posts. I've been meaning to make so many posts but then I never get around to it. I should be more diligent in posting stuff, but man is mental illness making it hard. Anyway, hopefully I'll actually start posting again soon.

[aspiringexmormon]

Fun Fact!

Separation of church and state does not exist in Utah, as it is essentially a theocracy!

#i love fun facts #aren't they the best????? #i may or may not be in the process of making a post about this #exmo #exmormon #ex mo #ex mormon #apostake

[aspiringexmormon]

It's so hard to be active in the Tumblr exmo community nowadays. I don't ever know what to say, and #exmormon is almost devoid of posts. I've been meaning to make so many posts but then I never get around to it. I should be more diligent in posting stuff, but man is mental illness making it hard. Anyway, hopefully I'll actually start posting again soon.

[aspiringexmormon]

he’s !!! fucking. Teaching how to not leave the church, how if someone tells u to take off a seatbelt do u listen and shamefully take it off? he’s making this comparison as if they’re anywhere neAR similar, i am!!! pissed!!!