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What hurts to talk about…(Amaru: The Self-care Virtual Pet edition)⚠️WARNINGS FOR THIS FIC:⚠️ OC X CANON, ABUSE MENTION, NIGHTMARE, TRAUMA, SLIGHT SELF HARM (Hitting head)

Credit goes to @Cyrostarfire

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Amaru: The Self-care Virtual Pet-Brown

Crystal-Pink

It was late into the night, probably around 11 PM or 12 AM. Crystal had been put in charge in taking care of Amaru, despite Kamahli and Puffball being reluctant in letting her. The others knew Crystal was strong enough to protect Amaru if any danger were to come into the house. Amaru was sleeping on their bed while Crystal slept on the floor, the winged cat had insisted that Crystal should sleep on their bed but she declined, she was worried that with her weight she’d crush the bed, besides their rug wasn’t too bad to sleep on, it was soft and fuzzy like her!

Amaru had been very reluctant on letting Crystal sleep on the floor because it just didn’t feel all to right but they really couldn’t say no to her, so they let her sleep on their rug anyway. Despite it being the floor, Crystal was catching some good Z’s, having a pretty good dream! Amaru on the other hand…was having the opposite experience…

The poor winged cat was having terrible nightmares for the past week…and they were all about HIM…Amaru’s abusive ex owner, Sam. It had been over 3 years since Amaru had ran away from him, but the scars from his abuse still remained within Amaru’s mind…the horrible things he would say to them…the horrible things he would do to them…it would give Amaru horrible visions and make them go into a traumatic episode if they ever saw anything that reminded them of Sam…

The winged cat whimpered and whined softly, until those whimpers got louder…and louder, their body was shaking madly, tears formed in their shut eyes, they could feel his disgusting hands on their body despite him not being there…they could hear his terrible voice, mocking them, laughing at them. Reminding them that they were nothing but a pathetic little winged cat…

“n-no…no…no no no no no…NONONONOO!!!” They screamed in horror and agony as they choked on tears and awoke from their horror filled dream…panting heavily as they looked around the room. They took a moment to let the cool night air fill their burning, aching lungs…their body was covered in sweat, and tears filled their eyes…they held their pillow tightly and sobbed into it. “Wh-Why…why c-can’t y-y-you just leave m-me alone…p-please…g-get out of m-my head…” They whimpered, they wanted to forget Sam and the hell he put Amaru through whilst in the ownership with him…

Amaru took their paws off of their pillow and started to hit their temples with their paws. “G-Get out…get out…get out, get out, GET OUT GET OUT!!” They screamed in what at first was fear but then it turned into rage…rage for what he had done to them, and rage for him not getting any karma for it, it aggravated Amaru, why did they have to suffer while Sam gets off Scott free? It wasn’t fair…why was life cruel like this? What did they do to deserve this?

They were interrupted by a big hand gently grabbing their left paw and stopping that paw from landing blows on their own head. They looked quickly at who had did it, but quietly sighed in relief when they saw that it was just Crystal. “Why are you hitting your head? Your head didn’t do anything bad did it?” The human yawned. “Don’t hurt yourself like that, it’s bad.” She whined at Amaru groggily. “O-Oh, s-s-sorry i w-w-woke you Cr-Crystal, th-there was j-just…a-a fly on my h-head that’s all!” Amaru tried to lie.

“I love you but please don’t fib to me like that.” Crystal whimpered in typical dog fashion. “Why were you hitting your head, and screaming ‘get out’ for?” She asked them again…Amaru looked at Crystal…they were hesitant to tell her…They didn’t wanna worry her about what had been going on for the past week…would she even understand the gravity of the situation…? Sure she was abused like them but…it was a different kind of abuse…right…? “I…i…” Amaru tried to come up with a good excuse but nothing came to them…

They really had no other option did they? The winged cat sighed gently and finally gave up. “F-Fine, I’ll…i-i’ll tell y-you what’s going on…” They admitted hesitantly. Crystal gently put a hand on their bed to let them know that Amaru had her full attention for this time…“I-I’ve…b-b-been having a-alot of nightmares a-about m-my ex owner, S-Sam recently…a-about how he w-would abuse and manipulate m-me…i t-tried to see wh-what i could do t-to make them go away, b-but they s-still haven’t stopped and i…i…” They started to tear up again. “I-I just w-want to forget a-about him s-so b-badly Crystal…b-but…i-i don’t kn-know if i can…” They said sniffling.

It wasn’t before long until they finally broke down in front of Crystal, holding in any and all tears backfired badly for them, they sobbed and grabbed their pillow again, sobbing into it and apologizing to her that she’s now seeing this side of them…she must think their pathetic now…however for Crystal…seeing Amaru like this reminded her of herself when she was younger, and those human hunters would torment her day and night…The human got up and gently picked up Amaru, who was still clinging onto their pillow tightly, still saying “I’m sorry” in short chokes of tears.

“Hey…please don’t cry, i don’t like it when your in pain…” Crystal said to Amaru softly, lifting up their chin gently with her hand. “i-i-i-i’m s-s-s-sorry…i-i-i-i’m s-s-so s-sorry…” They hiccuped, they couldn’t stop feeling like it was their fault, maybe they did deserve to get abused, maybe they did deserve to be mentally damaged forever…maybe- all of their thoughts were interrupted by Crystal giving them a small, soft lick on the cheek. “H-Huh?” Amaru held their cheek confused. “I don’t know who hurt you, how and why but i do know your in pain, and you don’t deserve to be in pain…” Crystal said to Amaru in almost a hushed whisper, holding them closely to her chest.

There was a brief silence between the two, before Crystal broke it again “I’m here for you, i will protect you, everything will be okay, i love you…” She whispered to them, their sobs and sniffles slowly grew quiet as their tears eventually stopped, they were still shaking slightly but not as bad as before…they leaned into Crystal’s chest and took a moment to embrace how warm she was…how fluffy she was…how safe they were with her…“th-thank you…” Amaru purred softly, as they snuggled into her…the two had a moment of comfortable and safe silence with one another…it was nice. Maybe this is what Amaru deserved…healing…safety…love…

And Crystal was there to give it to them. Crystal slowly curled up with Amaru in her arms, making sure they were comfortable, and the two fell asleep together…

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