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sorry but it’s actually so horrific how little of a sense of community people have, how little regard they extend towards the other humans around them. killing people for being loud on the subway or turning around in your driveway. loading your gun and waiting at the door because a child ran your doorbell unexpectedly. ring cameras, neighborhoodapp, community watch group Facebook pages. you’ve assigned yourself the role of the one true peacekeeper and casted everyone else around you as a threat to be controlled. there’s no connection or love or compassion. just a deep distrust and hatred.

and the people who face the most significant consequences from this are the ones who are already deemed as outsiders. people of color, especially Black people, disabled people, people with mental illnesses, homeless people.

#i honestly only fully unlearned the toxic American individuality like last year that’s how deep it runs #and it’s like.. being born again #but also so torturous seeing others who don’t understand bc you can never MAKE them understand

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No new years day will be like waking up to hollyweed on January 1, 2017

#ugh cmon yall make it happennnn

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bothered. unmoisterised. unhappy. out of my lane. unfocused. withering

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young me especially would have hated hearing this but networking is literally the most important thing you can do to improve your situation like forget economic barriers to education etc just keep making friends with different people and eventually someone will offer you a hand up just because they dig your vibe and that is exactly all that's happening when undeserving people surpass you anyway

#learning this so hard rn #i think there’s just a negative vibe associated with networking #i like to think of it simply as meeting people and experiencing actual connection #and appreciating that for what it is #and then everything will fall into place from there

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stephanie hsu for super elle china ♡

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blinkuyou_

#food #soooo gorgeous

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i’m a different person now.

#some of you have never had a crippling parasocial obsession with a girl and it shows #being so jealous of and in love with someone who doesn't know you exist .... lol! #olivia rodrigo

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#ME DOWN TO THE IB ENGLISH

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lacy??? olivia said this one's for the queer girls who can't separate jealousy from attraction

#no she really called me out with this one #it made me REFLECT...

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i love GUTS because it makes space for teen angst in a world that's so deeply misogynistic and cruel towards teenage girls. olivia is so unapologetically adolescent and that fucking rocks. i just wish she was around when i was in high school because maybe then i would have felt valid enough to share the things i wrote about similar topics.

#so many good poems have been rotting in my notes cuz i deemed them too angsty #but i just love that olivia doesn't give a fuck #she's real for that #olivia rodrigo #guts

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Not many people talk about how deep emotional neglect hurts you.

I’m afraid to want things. I’m afraid to ask for help. I’m afraid to tell someone something if they seem in a bad mood. I can’t process when someone is nice to me. I can’t handle rejection, but my brain literally short circuits if someone gives me a compliment to the point where sometimes the rejection is better.

There are lots of overlap with emotional abuse, but emotional neglect hurts just as much. And it’s even worse that it usually goes undetected, so a lot of people can’t tell they’re being neglected until it’s too late.

#mmmmm this is making me start to unpack things....

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that image that goes i want to do this. do it. but im scared. do it scared. changed my life

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shooting my shot by literally not making a move

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we are in a media literacy crisis

#highly recommend the article ‘moralism is ruining cultural criticism’ #but yeah critical thinking is dead

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Also, plz reply/tag w/ how much you do both, I'm curious !!!

#always writing but then i realize my vocabulary is shit #so i begrudgingly read

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quick what is everyone doing right now

#distracting myself from the possibility that my guy friend is possibly flirting with me #😹😹😹😹😹😹😹😹😹 #I hate it here

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I originally had typed up a whole ass angry rant about how fucking awful some of the takes are about Oppenheimer (it seems primarily from people who haven't even seen the fucking film), but I decided against posting it (and then I wrote this which now that I'm reading over it, still ended up being a bit of an angry fucking rant so oops).

But what I will say is that the film does not glorify the bomb or what it was used for. So please shut the fuck up about that. Also, this is a story about J. Robert Oppenheimer. The bomb is a large part of the story because it was a huge part of his life. But the focus is on him and his emotional journey through the film. They are trying to pack about 600 pages of dense material into three hours. There is simply not enough time to go on a side quest to address a lot of the things many of you are insisting be addressed. Especially when Oppenheimer himself was not directly involved in them.

I've seen many people say that this story should never have been told. And, kindly, fuck you. We live in an age where people are constantly trying to change, discredit, or dismiss history. We desperately need more people to become engaged with it again. Prior to this film, there were a whole ton of people who had been so failed by their history classes they had no idea who J. Robert Oppenheimer even was. People still know alarmingly little about the bomb and the scientists who worked on it and if this film allows them to be more interested/educated in that topic, that's a win.

This film brings to light more than just the bomb. It's a discussion on morality and the relationship between scientists and the government.

Also, you don't get to say that a piece of art shouldn't be made just because it makes you fucking uncomfortable. Don't consume that piece of art, then. But you have no right to say someone shouldn't make something, or others shouldn't consume or enjoy it just because it makes you uncomfortable.