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Priceless

Hey! It's been a week! I hope you're doing fine and I know you do! Ika pa? E strong ka eh. 😅

You won't see on your inbox, popping up a message saying Hi. You won't see my message on your walla saying Happy birthday!

Ala eh. Balu ku na ing malyri kasi. Even if you'll gonna reply on my greetings, still after na nita ala na ulit at emu naku kilala hehehe.

Sguru, tatakut nakung madissapoint at manasakit ulit kaya ending pangunahan ku na ing balu kung malyari.

One day yamu ing birthday mu, kaya sguradung ala naman magbayu.

Deep insidr kaku, sobrang buri dkng ichat. Pero kung isipan kung ala naman magbayu at ala ng magbayu tlga. Pipilitan kung labanan..

You might think na okay naku, at mg move on na from you kaya edka minessage.

Kung sanang ababasa mula mu reng tweets ku at blog, you will know... How much I really wanted to see you, and talk to you. Jusko, miss na miss dnka. Alang aldo na nilabas kaku na eka sinagi king isip ku..

Btw, ive been busy this past few days, yet you are still on my mind..

At kung akkit o afefeel mu mu ing panandaman ku, you will know how much I really love you..

Eku balu. Sguru. Obsessed naku pin keka. In a short period of time, atutunan dkang aluguran regardless kung maknanu kasakit.. I still chose to love you more and more.

Makalungkut mu, kasi never tamung mikachance.

Despite of all the pain ive been through, emibawas ing lugud ku keka. Deng flaws mu, agawa kulang tinggap at ikwa kung apanigaralan kang pakyabayan.

Kulang namu ing label, at love mu.

Inassess keng masalesr ing sarili ku compare kareng aliwa, wa. Kakaiba ku pin at aliwa ya impact ing lugud ku keka.

Manginayang ku king panaun a linabas na alang ikata. Pero never kung menginayang na liguran dka.

Kaluguran dka baby girl. Alang material a bage, surprises nor date. Kasi nga ali naman ikata eh. Tska baka kasi lumwal kayu ning bayu mu o ing luma. And im sure. Tanggi kamu ulit kalupa da reng rejections a bnye mu kaku.

Okay na baby girl. Tanggap kunang etana mikatuluyan at tanggap ku ng emuku tlga kaluguran.

Okay na rin sguru na ekata mikatuluyan. Kasi magkasakit kung ilako king bukabularyu ku i shly, itang guy o kung ninu man. Kasi reng kondisyun ng shly keka, eku gawan at ala kung intensyon. Fb, number, at vc is a mst every night? Ali ku.

Atin kapang e balu kaku. Emuku pa tlga kakilala.

Aliwa aku ing tawung mahilig mag fone. Ali aku itang tawung dpat pane katang misasabi. Ali ku hilig ing call, txt, chat o vc.

Matamad kung tawu.

I prefer na mag netflix rather than makipag vc.

I prefer to listen music rather than call.

I prefer to sleep rather than chat.

I prefer to stay at home, instead of going out. Lalu na kung mapali.

Eku makitudtud nung ali well ventilated ing place.

Ali ku matudtud sahig kasi agad kung sisipun king samentu.

Ali ku tlga mahilig king alak kasi kasaman kung pane mimimi.

Eku buring masisira tudtud lalu na pag atin mag call.

Eku buring mumuran bengi kasi malulungkut ku king tunug at bawu ning uran.

At eku buring atin kasiping king pagkeran kasi feeling ku mapupuput ku.

Eku mamangan malanam kasi saskup ku salu.

At eku buring manaya kasi sobra ku iksi pasensya.

Pero balu mu ba? Lebanan ko ngan ren dahil keka 😅

Sguru kaya mknta daka aluguran kasi reng bageng eku dapat , aggwa ku dahil keka.

Pero ali mu ikit ita. Hehe

Ali mu aramdaman. Haha

Too much adjustment ing gewa ku dahil king lugud ku keka pero ali mu ayappreciate. 😅

And fyi, 1st time kung minta malawut a lugar na eku balung puntalan at magdili dili.

Sguru pin, etamu deserve ing metung at metung..

Never kung ikit keka na sincere ka kaku, which is aku, time mu mu ing buri ku, presensya mu at ing lugud mu

Im not asking too much from you naman eh. Pero u thougt kalupa kula reng milabas keka. Hehe

Baby girl, flattered ku na akilala dka.

1st time ngn kaku kaya sguru magkasakit ku.

I dont blame you.

Sobra dka mung liguran kaya sobra kung manasakit.

Wishing you a peaceful life baby girl. Sana ing bayu mu, o kung ninu man ng pagtuunan mung pansin ngeni, sana eya magbayu tratu keka kelwatan. You deserve love baby girl. Deserve mung maging masaya. Pero aliwa aku ing deserve mu.

Matsura man, pero sguru milako nakung tuluyan pag asa keka tho ever since never naman mika chance.

Mepagal naku din sguru kakatagal keka.

Mamalimus oras atensyon at lugud na dpat bbyeng kusa.

Its okay baby girl..

Happy birthdy ha?

Gift ku keka ini.. Priceless.

Palayaan dnka at never dkang gulwan.

Tuluyan nakung mako king bie mu kahit sobrang hirap para kaku..

Yan naman ing buri mu dba?

Bie ku parin. Para mu maging kang tutung masaya at para mu midinan kang kapayapan..

Sorry kung meging kung panggulu na keka.

Eku intensyun..

Kaya pasensya na.. Emu paburen ing sarili mu ha?

Sabi kupin.maybe we can be friends pero ali pa ngeni.. Ill be okay soon and ofcourse, masaya ku keka kasi mag excell naka din mag mag grow..

One day, we will meet.

Im in love with someone else, and you still dont care haha

Osge na. Mag enjoy ka king bday mu ha?

Buri dka man i message para man lang igreet, pero eku na buring sumagi king isip mu na pag pekisbyan muku ulit miulit nanaman itang dati.. Eku na buring malyari pa ita..

Sana, kahit sumagi mu king paninap mu, asabi ku keka na patawaran dka kahit ek mag pa sorry at sana sumagi din king paninap mu kung mknanu dka kaluguran..

Im letting you go na b, thank you king memories.

I know, ala naman keka kahit mawala ku king bie mu. Kahit iblock dka forever ala naman dn keka eh. Tanggap ku na..

Sorry kasi ala kung saken to pick u up, at alang sapat pera para itreat ka king mal a pipanganan. Im sorry. Kasi makanini ku mu..

Sana, nung eman i shly ulit. Sana manakit kang tawung atsu ngan ing qualities a buri mu..

Eku agyubg panindigan ka kareng bageng akasanayan mu, ala ku kareta eh.

Kaya okay na rin kaku na ekata mikatuluyan..

Eku agyung ibie ing akasanayan mung bie kareng milabas keka. Hehe

Sorry.

Till then baby girl.

Iloveyou, goodbye 😞

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FOR KEEPS? or FOR REAL?

Sa totoo lang, hirap na hirap akong mag desisyon.

There are times na ‘Ayoko na kasi sobrang hirap at sakit na, and most of the time naiisip kong ‘Push pa. 

Ginugulo ako ng mga what ifs ko? or Ako lang tong pumipigil?

Maghihintay pa ba ako kahit wala akong pinaghahawakan? o kailangan ko ng gamiting rason ung mga bagay na nakikita at nararamdaman ko?

They say, if I do really love her, I need to set her free to live her own life. But my rebut was ‘why I need to let her go if I do really love her? Why not wait her Instead? Understand her situation and make her comfortable while you are at her side?

Time goes by, I realized that I am just living on my own thoughts. Believing my own beliefs. I am starting to ask myself If I am really in love with her? or am I just in love with the idea of being in love?

Ditak ditak mangapaisip naku rin. 

What was a normal person who’s in love do vs none at all?

Ala kung number na, at ing facebook account na enaku friend at worst, maka block ku msgr na. Inintindi kung enku pwding i unblock kasi nga i shly atn yang access king accnt na. Pero ngening kawani nala? Ala. maka block ku parin. Ngeni isipan kung ene pa papalitan ing accnt na kasi epa mekapag move on at ene buring misip i shly na atin ng bayu, kasi nireason na ing work na. She chose her job over shly, ayntinjan ku naman eh. Or baka, cool off lamu. Once na stable ne at ali ne masyadung mangapa king work at ahandle na ngan, pusibli din na balikan ne. 

E malawut.. Ali naman king ala kung tiwala at eku maniwala kaya since sinabi na kakung me block ne kang shly. I just saw her, talking someone over the fone, those SMILES on her eyes? I just miss it.. I really miss everything about her.

The fact na ikit keng atn kasabi fone with a smile on her eyes? First thing that comes on my mind was Shly or the Mr. respect, guy. 

Even though she explained to me everything, eku balu bakit eku kampanti at panatag king sagut ayta. 

Kasalanan ku.. Megumpisa kami dn king mknyan eh, kaya aku mismu, king sarili ku, atn nakung trust issues kaya. and besides, ala kung panghawakan kaya. kaya paburen nakung manasakit o nanu paman. Wapin naman, ali naman ikami eh. But I know myself. I easily gain trust. pero babalik ku parin king trust issue ku kasi ala kaming label. 

I drove miles to reach her. Miss na miss kune kasi. Buri keng akit kahit sglit mu. Uyta minikit kepin, pero makanta naman disnan ku. 

Hay! Bahala na. Reng ngang gang kutang ku, kung tutuusin balu ku naman ing sagut eh. Lalabanan ku mu kasi kaluguran ke.

She knows, hanggang 5 to 6 or 7 days ku mung manaimik, after that msg ku ne nanaman kasi balu na eke atiis. Well, tutu naman ita. Pero this time, after her birthday, lakwan kune at kalingwan. Labanan ku na.. 

Manghinayang ku.. pero kung aku mung dili ing lalaban.. ali mag work.

Ali ku asabing forever, pero as long as kaluguran ke pa, kahit ali nakami misasabi o alang balita at all, pusu ku kaya ya parin. 

since enaku tlga sikasu, open kune pasibayu ing pusu ku kareng aliwa.

Enaku pehalagahan. Okay mu ngan kaya kahit nanung panandaman ku. Okay mu kayang mawala ku. Okay mu kaya kahit enku magchat. okay mu kayang eku ne balikan. okay mu ngan kaya kasi alang LOVE. enaku kaluguran. Oras na rin sguru.

9 months of loving her without me, getting any thing from her nor emotions involved BETWEEN US, is enough. Kilub ning 9 months ala kung aliwang gewa nung ali liguran ya, at petunayan ngan kaya how much I love her and How am i deserve to hold her heart. Gewa ku na ngan, e meging sapat para kaya, kaya never nakung dininan chance.

 I dont blame anyone except me, myself. Sinugal ku, mesambut ku kaya kailangan ku maging sports..

Kaluguran ke at pangarap ke pero if ali kami parehu pupuntu, hanggang hangga, yaku murin ing manasakit at magkasakit..

Birthday muna on friday. You will receive a priceless gift from me.

SETTING YOU FREE. I KNOW, MASAYA NKA AT MIPASNO ISTUNG PEBUREN DANAKA..

TILL THEN BABY GIRL, ILOVEYOU!

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Nakalimutan ko ng kalimutan ka

Nakakalungkot tanggapin ang katotohanan. Ang katotohanan na kahit kailan hindi na sya mawala sa isipan mo.

Hoy, wake up! Asan ba yung ikaw na nakilala namen?

Mga salitang naririnig mo galing sa mga kaibigan mo. Hinahanap ang dating ikaw. Dating ikaw na matigas, walang iniiyakan at kahit kailan walang nagpapatibag sayo, dahilan para maging malungkot ka.

"Mahal na mahal ko sya."

Lagi mong sinasagot sa mga taong nagbibigay ng payo sa iyo.

Hanggang kailan?

Hanggang kailan ka iiwas? Hanggang kailan?

You were called "Bitter" tapos tondo tanggi ka. Hahaha!

Fed up

Ayoko na. Di mo deserve na lagi kang sinasaktan pero ikaw lagi mo naman minamahal.

By the way,

My name is Roann 😅

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"Hayaan mo syang sumaya, sa paraan na masasaktan ka"

Kahit gaano kahirap, kailangan mong tatagan ang loob mo.

I-let go kung kinakailangan. Hindi ka magiging masaya kung alam mong may mahal syang iba. 😔

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Today, the 31st of December. Before It will turn into a new year, I was planning to give this ring to a special girl who caught my eyes and a girl who stole my heart.

Kinakabahan ako, baka diko maibgay dahil sa takot kaba ko. But I know, I can do it. Haha!

I am so sure, sya ang babaing pakakasalanan ko. Sya ang babaing mamahalin ko habang buhay at sya lamang, wala ng iba.

Mahal kita kahit lagi mkong nasasaktan. Mahal kita kahit lagi ko akong binabalewala.

Mahal kita kahit anong sungit o kahit magpalit kapa ng mood oras oras. Mahal na mahal kita at umaasa akong mamahalin mo rin ako.

Today, December 31, 2019

I surrender my life to this special girl. Paninindigan ko, at hndi hahayaan na masaktan pa sya ng kahit sino man tao. (not even me) haha!

Wish me luck guys!

Love, Momoinks

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Love, loved, in-Love.

An overthinker, insecure and hopeless girl who dumped the world.

There are times, some things we can't control. Things we can't change but to accept. So if we didn't pursue your wants and dreams? Walang mangyayari sa'yo.

This message from a vlogger, made me realized na sobrang bigat ng buhay kung hindi ka magiging kuntento sa kung anong meron ka.

At this time, naisip ko nalang hayaan na lang ang lahat.

No more dramas, no more long messages.

Hangga't kaya ko pa syang hilingin kay God, hihilingin ko nalang sya ng paulit-ulit.

I know and I still belive in FAITH.

Kung hindi ibibigay sa akin, ayos lang.

Isa sa mga bagay na hindi kayang i-control sa buhay ay ang LOVE. Lessons learned. Matuto nalang makuntento sa kung anong meron sa ngayon.

Life is too short. I just don't want to stress my self.

Dito nalang ako sa TUMBLR mag lalabas ng feelings. Ayoko na sa facebook, or sa twitter. Maraming chismosa 😂

#beyourself #bebetter