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[arch1vs]

it's sunday and found myself looking through our old messages. i tried to be as active as i could. going on my weekdays with training for the sports i took, having a tight schedule at night because i still need to personally train at home and cram tons of schoolworks due the next day. im sorry if it was hard for you to be far away and alone. i was so busy distracting myself and trying to survive from all the pain and bruises i got that i forgot how to even talk to other people, including you. i started having new friends in 9th grade, a new circle perhaps. it was fresh and it really felt like a new beginning is ahead of me. that i'll be fine in the future and i dont have to worry for what happened because i have them. they were really kind and fun to be with. so if you would ask me again to be honest with you, i would say yes. yes, im happy with my new set of friends. yes, i love them. but that never meant i loved you less. letting new people enter my life never meant to get rid of your place in mine. and i know you will never see this and you might be a lot happier now but i love you, sam. i love you just as much.