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You're gonna miss her.

You're gonna miss her when it’s 2:30 in the morning and you wake up from a bad dream, and she’s no longer there.

You're gonna miss her when you are no longer getting the random text messages telling you she loves you.

You're gonna miss her when you’ve had a bad day at work, and no one will listen to you talk about it like she did.

You're gonna miss her when you see her laughing with her friends, knowing you’re no longer the reason she has that smile on her face.

You're gonna miss her when it’s cold at night and the only things you have next to you is your phone and a few tangled sheets.

You're gonna miss her when you wanna cry and be in her arms again, but she doesn’t even glance at you when she passes by you on the street.

You're gonna miss her when you see her dancing and you’ll remember all the times she wanted to dance with you and you told her no.

You're gonna miss her when you find yourself talking about her all the time, and you’re not even on her mind anymore.

You're gonna miss her when the alcohol doesn’t get rid of the thoughts of her smiling in the moonlight on a cool winter night.

You're gonna miss her when she doesn’t answer your messages or phone calls anymore.

You're gonna miss her when you realize no one genuinely cared for you as much as she did.

You're gonna miss her when you go to reach for her hand and it’s no longer there.

You're gonna miss her when she doesn’t send you selfies and videos of her being goofy anymore.

You will miss her late at night when you’re laying there alone and you realise you have no one to talk to.

You're gonna miss her laughing that cute little laugh of hers that could stop and warm up anyone's heart having a bad day.

You're gonna miss it all.

But by the time you realise how much you miss and cared about her more than you’ve ever cared about anything, it will be too late.

She will be in the arms of another, giving them the love she gave to you.

She will be sharing that laugh with them and putting her soft lips on theirs.

She will be cradled in another’s arms

having new “our songs” with them and experiencing new places together.

That is when it’ll hit you the absolute hardest

when this beautiful, once in a lifetime girl with the heart of gold, is long gone.

So take my advice and remember.... to take care of her, because life doesn't bless you with a good woman twice.

Cody Bret

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Sobrang worth it yung pag uwi ko ng pasko at bagong taon, sobrang saya lang na until this time marami pa pala tayong mga 1st na wedding ma experience. For 9 years ngayon lang tayo nagkasama sumalubong ng pasko at bagong taon. Ngayon lang naten na experience yung pasko at bagong taon sa bahay ng bawat isa. Thankyou for being with me all this time😘😘

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In time you can forgive all the people that hurts you, but even though you forgive them it is really hard to forget every situation you went through because of them🥺🥺

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I’ve seen a lot, but today is a little bit different. Saw someone who is so happy celebrating his birthday even though he is alone, can’t see and nothing special to eat and there is this one who is grateful yesterday because of his family and now is gone. Your tears have their on way going out🥺🥺

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Theres no such thing as moving on only acceptance 💓💓

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His random message 🫶🏻🫶🏻

Kung swerte ka baby mas swerte ako sayo kasi ako ang minahal mo, ang dami mo ng sakripisyo saken, ang dami mo ng tulong, higit sa lahat hindi mo ko iniwan at sinukuan nung time suko nako, sorry baby, muntik ko ng sayangin ang pinaka mahal at pinaka best na babae sa mundo, iloveyou so much more baby loves😘😘😘

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1 year ago, I was literally crying for all the things I have right now. The pressure of looking for another job and the fear of running out of time, knowing there are so many applicants by this time. Fear of being rejected because of language barrier. But look how amazing He is. I am now 1 step closer to the dream that I just wish before💓💓💓 Yes we will cry a lot and that is normal, but giving up on the dreams that you have? No!! It will never be a choice 💪💪

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May 16,2022

His birthday and one of the most special one. He already ask it. He already down on his knees to ask if I want to marry him, after 7 years of being together, all the ups and downs na napag daanan namin. And now, officially soon to be mrs deguia

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Best part of going home💓💓

Yung alam mong umuwi ka at makakasama mo pa rin yung taong mahal mo🥰🥰 yung taong pinaglaban mo sa kahit na kanino at alam mong kaya mo pa ring ipag laban. Hi baby, kung makikita mo at mababada mo to, I just want you to know that I love you so much and I will always love you no matter what. I will be here by your side till the very end. Iloveyou so much baby and I am so happy that I am by your side again😍😍

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Bakit parang nakapa imposibleng makauwi ako🥹🥹🥹

Una muntik nakong hindi maka bili ng ticket dahil pabitin bitin yung pera, nung dumating naman na yung pera biglang nag mahal naman na yung rate.

Akala ko after nun magiging okay at smooth na ang lahat, 11 days to go before my flight and there is this twist again. I tested positive for Corona😭😭 bakit parang ang daming challenges bago ko makauwi?? I just want to hig and see my family again tapos biglang ganyan naman. Lord please guide me🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 sana makauwi po ako😭😭

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If you don’t love her, tell her. She knows her way out, but one thing is for sure men, you will never have the same lady you have right now. She knows when to stop caring and when it’s happen, you will never going to imagine how beautiful her life is after you broke her heart into pieces 🥺🥺🥺

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Gano kasakit na malaman mong magkakasama sa outing yung boyfriend mo at yung taong naging dahilan ng pagkasira ng relasyon nyo?

Ang sakit lang isipin na kahit anong tiwala ang meron ka sa boyfriend mo di pa rin mawala wala yung takot na, what if maulit na naman yung nangyari? What if mas ma feel nya na masaya sya pag yun ang kasama nya? Ang daming what if’s pero wala kang magawa😓😓 Yung gabi gabi iniisip mo deserve mo ba to? Deserve mo bang bastusin ng harap harapan. Pero wala e, mahal mo kaya papayagan mo nalang kesa naman maging cold treatment sya sayo😭😭 do I really deserve this kind of pain? Na araw araw na nga silang nag kikita at nag kakasama sa work, pati ba naman sa personal outing nilang magkakabarkada nandun pa rin yung babae na yun??🥺🥺 Oo naiintindihan ko naman yung reason kung bakit pero di pa rin maalis saken yung mag selos at magalit, pero para saan pa yung galit ko? May magagawa ba yun? Wala naman diba? Sa huli ikaw pa rin ang lalabas na masama dahil hindi ka pumayag sa gusto nila🥺🥺 Hay Apple!!!😭😭😭😭😭 is this really the consequence of being away? Or I just don’t deserve to be loved and respected?😭😭😭😭

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Lakas ng infact mo sa boyfriend ko no, ganda mo te sobra!!!!! Totoo nga yung sinasabi nila hahaha talo ng malandi yung mabaet, mag a’asawa kana di ka pa lumayo. Konting respeto naman sa katulad mong babae. Sabagay bakit mo nga ba naman irerespeto yung relasyon na minsan mo ng nasira at sinisira??!!!!

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Siguro nga ganun talaga, di sa lahat ng oras masaya tayo. Bakit ganu? Bakit pagdating sa kanya di mo pa rin mai’iwas ang sarili mo? Bakit di mo pa rin magawang lumayo at ikaw na mismo magkusa lalo na alam mong nasasaktan ako pag nagkakasama kayo? Bakit dimo maintindihan yung point ko na nasasaktan ako? Oo may tiwala ako sayo, pero yung fact na may naging issue na tungkol sainyong dalawa at naging reason ng hiwalayan naten masisisi no ba ako na ganito ako? Sorry if di kita mapayagan sumama sa swimming na yan, kahit na alam kong magiging dahilan na baka hiwalayan mo ulit ako, pero hindi e. Di ko pa rin kayang makita or malaman na kasama mo overnight yung taong naging dahilan ng pagkasira ng relasyon naten, sana respeto at pag intindi nalang kahit konti lang

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“You can make everything work, if you really want to”

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Mas masakit pala yung oo bumalik ka nga pero iba naman ang laman ng isip at puso mo

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I try to be strong, but why does it hurt even more?

Do I really deserve to feel this way? Oo nga binalikan mo nga ako, pero bakit ganun? Bakit hindi buo? Yung feeling na saken ka nga pero pinaparamdam mo saken na kaya ka lang naman bumalik kasi ako yung nag stay sa tabi mo. Ako yung nandyan nung walang wala kana? Ganun lang ba talaga yung worth ko sayo? Hanggang ganun nalang ba talaga ako, na kapag wala dun mo nalang pipiliin? Ang sakit lang na nakikita ko sayong mahal mo pa rin sya kahit tayo na😭😭😭