antismauthony

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i honestly forget that autism mums say 'autism won today' to mean like their kid had a meltdown and that they are ableist. like nooo autism win means something like i found something cool out about my special interest or i managed to avoid a meltdown or i got to infodump!!!!! autism win is good!!!!!!

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Autism is a Spectrum, but Not Like This

Lil Penguin Studios/Autism Happy Place

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Just woke up from a bad dream about being around children. I get overwhelmed around them, but feel bad, because they are deserving of love and kindness and compassion. I just cannot be around them too much.

#autism #actually autistic

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#mlp

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Some may shoot me for saying this, but I highly suspect that my autism is a large reason for my transition. I cannot physically handle the sensation of vaginal functioning. I cannot handle long hair, even as a kid when my sister would sit next to me, her hair touching me, it made me feel like crawling out of my skin. I don't have to worry about bleeding my pants, about the disgusting feeling of discharge. I am not trying to shame anyone for being women, I would proudly be one if that were my case, it just happens that I am not a woman.

That isn't to say it's the only reason. I'm finally starting to grow a tiny bit of facial hair, I love my adams apple, the simple selection of clothes in the mens section, deep voice, flat chest. It is the dream package. Everyone wins!!! I love being male, and I am glad that testosterone helps me in so many ways.

#autism #ftm #probably tmi #transgender

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Does anyone else have a personal anecdote on what it means to have a sort of regression as an autistic adult after being diagnosed?

I just recently got diagnosed, and I notice myself suppressing stimming more often, I get embarrassed, don't want to look weird, don't want to look like I'm on drugs (I've been told this many times when I'm stressed/logic-mode), don't want to seem like I'm faking it, don't want to seem attention-seeking.

I am noticing more things about texture that I would put into the back of my brain, more things about things suddenly being over-stimulating & always having to make a million adjustments in my car while driving, temperature, AC on or off, on heat or warm or center, music volume, sunglasses if the sun or (rarely) headlights are too bright, position in chair, the temperature's bad again! Too warm! Too cool! Agh!

Please please reblog with any input on what any sort of regression was like for you if you got diagnosed as an adult. I can't hang out with people as much anymore, I was ramping it up again after getting burnt out a while back. I eat the same food every night, is that a safe food? I hear of experiences & know the language, but I don't perfectly understand how far my autism goes.

#autism #neurodivergent #adult autism #autistic adult #actually autistic #autism regression