anothergirlrecovering

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Lol, not Peggy calling karma that my husband found our goal sheet that happened to include accountability and be honest and basically said that I was struggling on it 

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I asked Peggy today if I was being annoying today like someone I work with who doesn’t try to get better and she paused and was like no I just think you’re stuck and I was like ok but you paused and she laughed and said you’re stuck

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“You’re worth it”

-Peggy 🥹

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Not Peggy saying this is my karma because my child didn’t want any of my bagel I was eating and she was like it’s because you need to be eating the bagel, not him 😂

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lol at Peggy giving my kid a taste of chocolate for the first time

She had a granola bar that had a chocolate layer she was eating and he was like omg I want some! And she looked at me and was like I don’t think this is anything he can’t have and I must have looked stressed because she laughed and said isn’t this what your dietitian is supposed to do? Feed your kid chocolate? Lol she was like it’s not processed with nuts or anything. I was like Peggy he doesn’t have allergies, the only thing that would deter me from giving it to him is added sugar and she laughed and was like exactly, and she gave him another bite 🤦🏻‍♀️😂

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Me- well I ate that ultra processed bagel for breakfast.

Peggy- are you calling that ultra processed?

Me- yeah, you can’t recognize what whole food it comes from by looking at it, remember? That’s how he said you can tell

Peggy- it comes from grain. A grain 😑

😂😂😂

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Peggy and I were talking about raising kids and she said that she doesn’t call her mom hardly ever and she goes to visit out of obligation so she understands how I feel because her home isn’t a safe place either. She said that when her girls grew up, she made sure that their home was a safe and welcoming No judgment zone place and her girls always had their friends over there and her friends loved to be over there. I was like Peggy do your kids call you every day and she was like well. My one daughter calls me all the time and the other one calls my husband, and she laughed and said that her one daughter is always for the underdog and feels bad for her husband so she calls him so he’s not left out lol. She was like but it’s not difficult with her, usually I end up texting her. Are you alive? And she will say yes and then she calls me and we catch up and everything is good. She said that she told her when she went to college that the rule was that if Peggy called her, she needed to pick up, unless if she was in class and then she could text her and let her know she was in class. And she said that has worked out really well and everything has been good. We basically spent the entire session talking about raising children and my fears that my kid Will grow up to be an adult who won’t actually want to spend time with me and who will only want to be with me due to obligation. It is really reassuring to be reminded that I’m raising my kids differently than how I grew up and that there is hope that the way I’m raising my kids now I’m building a foundation for connection and support. 

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Also lol I told Peggy that the conference was offering three scholarships and I applied and I realized they forgot to blind copy the recipients and there was like 30 people and I was one of them and she goes “maybe they’re giving it to everyone” I was like or maybe I deserved it but that too 😂 she was like omg I’m so sorry I didn’t mean that you didn’t deserve it! I was like lol it’s fine, I just meant that maybe they’re struggling to get attendees so they’re extending more scholarship discounts to get people there lol

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Peggy- listing off a bunch of lunch items “I know, I know, there’s probably things I’m forgetting that you don’t like on here”

Me- “you mean you don’t remember all of my very specific food preferences and allergens?”

Peggy “ughhhh you’re right 😂

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Peggy said her daughter is depressed and she wished she would be medicated but she can’t because she has bad restless leg syndrome and apparently antidepressants affect that negatively. She was there for almost a week because of the snow day and she said she was ready to come home lol and that her daughter is always mean and then feels bad about it and apologized and she was like Holly you say this every time I come and I know that I’m a safe person to be mean to but you’re depressed 😂. We ended up talking about Holly and my kid and how Holly is so smart but difficult lol but she’s dating an extremely stable person and just was like yeah I hope my kid has my husbands super stable temperament 😅 but evidently he’s just like her daughter

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Me rambling about how I hate the stupid snacks, and Peggy just starts laughing and I’m like what? And she’s like I just don’t think you’ve ever not called your snacks stupid. Maybe it would be better if you just call them snacks and not stupid snacks? I was like no because they’re stupid 🤣

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Me talking about how the plate by plate method looks like huge portions form when I was in treatment and Peggy was like I haven’t seen it so I can’t comment and I was like well usually clients like visuals but feel like it’s too big and Peggy goes well yeah especially if they have anorexia I’m sure the portions do look big and I was like yeah but even I’m like it does look pretty big and Peggy goes, well, you do have anorexia 🤣 so savage

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I finally admitted to Peggy that I am always craving chocolate after every single meal and she looked at my intake for the day and she was like of course you are craving chocolate, you literally are not getting enough carbohydrates throughout your day at all. She said I’m not a bad personfor wanting chocolate all the time but she thought it made sense because I’m not getting enough carbohydrate and my brain knows chocolate is a quick source of carbohydrate

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It’s really sweet hearing Peggy say that my kid is adorable and she needs her baby fix and holds him and calls him little man. She had sandals on today that Velcro at the top so she let him practice opening and closing her shoe and it was adorable.

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Yesterday Peggy was so savage. When I was writing my goals she was pulling up an Ed and ocd ceu training through renfrew because we were a few minutes over and she had to log in and she was like Ed’s and ocd! You! Do you want to learn about yourself? I was like omg Peggy! Lol

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Peggy reminded me I’m not alone in my recovery and that she was supporting me and that felt really encouraging

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Peggy said they didn’t even have lists for blw back in the day so I can stop worrying about feeding my kid the “right” way