anomalous-girl

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I want you. I want in the most innocent of ways. I want to hold your hand, your boyish hand that mine would fit perfectly in. I want to look into your eyes, stare in its blackness, ravish its secrets. I want to see you smile, and I want to be the one to make you smile, I want to know that I was able to make someone so beautiful look even more beautiful. I want to lie next to you, feel your body next to mine, and inhale in your scent. I want you, All of you…

HANA (via a-thousand-words1000)

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And i just sat there, feeling my heart break and the tears run down my face , because I knew, from the moment i felt one butterfly in my stomach, I was fucked

~ myself (11:21 ; 18/04/2016)

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I love it when you touch me. I crave it. I die a little inside when your hand leaves my skin, leaving me wanting more.

(via polaroid-floyd)

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I'm made of glitter, water, and anxiety

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some days i wanna be as skinny as Ariana Grande, but then i see her next to Nicki Minaj, and no disrespect to Ariana Grande, she is gorgeous and has a great body, but i can say when i see them next to each other i would much rather have Nicki Minaj’s body

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(randomly gets sad at 2 pm instead of 11 pm like i usually do) variety is the spice of life

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i dont know what any of those things are wtf

Things Public School Kids Take Way Too Seriously

Jeopardy

Review Games

Kickball

Spirit Week

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It’s 5am and i could’nt agree more

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Kinda wanna cry, kinda wanna kill myself.

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I'm 74 kilos (165lbs) and the average weight for my age is 52 kilos (115lbs) does no one understand how shitty that makes me feel to be 22 kilos over average?

#skinny #weight #fuck

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not killing myself is a personal achievement but you cant really brag about that at dinner parties

[anomalous-girl]

I got bored

2: Age: 16 3: 3 Fears: embarrasment, manipulation, harrassment 4: 3 things I love: alice in wonderland, sex, bed 5: 4 turns on: shaggy hair, neck kissing, lip biting, ass grabbing 6: 4 turns off: bad breath, body odor, crudeness,  7: My best friend: dont have one 8: Sexual orientation: heterosexual 9: My best first date: havnt had one 10: How tall am I: 5 ft 4″ 11: What do I miss: my nana 12: What time were I born: 9.18pm 13: Favourite color: baby pink 14: Do I have a crush: no 15: Favourite quote: dont have one 16: Favourite place: milan 17: Favourite food: rissotto 18: Do I use sarcasm: yes 19: What am I listening to right now: the rain 20: First thing I notice in new person: what they think is funny 21: Shoe size: 8 22: Eye color: sometimes green sometimes blue 23: Hair color: blonde 24: Favourite style of clothing: dont have one 25: Ever done a prank call?: no 27: Meaning behind my URL: no one ever notices me, 28: Favourite movie: heathers 29: Favourite song: happy land by amansa jenssen 30: Favourite band: dont have one 31: How I feel right now: fat 32: Someone I love: no one at this moment 33: My current relationship status: single 34: My relationship with my parents: strained but loving 35: Favourite holiday: dont have one 36: Tattoos and piercing i have: 2 ear piercings no tattoos 37: Tattoos and piercing i want: something from a book i like on my shoulderblade, no more piercings 38: The reason I joined Tumblr: pretty photos and inspiration 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?: yes 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: no 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?: no 42: When did I last hold hands?: i dont remember 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: 30min 44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?: yes 45: Where am I right now?: in bed 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?: no one 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?: reasonable level 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?: yes 49: Am I excited for anything?: university 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?: no 51: How often do I wear a fake smile?: most of the time 52: When was the last time I hugged someone?: idk 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?: i wouldnt care 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?: no 55: What is something I disliked about today?: the things my dad said 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?:  vivienne westwood 57: What do I think about most? food                                                                   58: What’s my strangest talent? dont have one

59: Do I have any strange phobias? no 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?beind 61: What was the last lie I told? ive eaten today 62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? both frighten me 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? no 64: Do I believe in magic? yes 65: Do I believe in luck? yes 66: What’s the weather like right now? overcast and melancholy 67: What was the last book I’ve read? poems by lewis carrol 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? no 69: Do I have any nicknames? yes 70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? rolling my ankle 71: Do I spend money or save it? spend 72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? no 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? yes 74: Favourite animal? polar bear 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? watching skins 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? smith 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? trouble maker 78: How can you win my heart? you cant 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? rip 80: What is my favorite word? enchanting 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: idk 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?: nothing 83: Do I have any relatives in jail?: yes 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?: to read other’s minds at will 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? what do you think of youself 86: What is my current desktop picture? black writing on a pink background saying “in a room full of art i’d still stare at you” 87: Had sex? yes 88: Bought condoms? no 89: Gotten pregnant? no 90: Failed a class? no 91: Kissed a boy? yes 92: Kissed a girl? yes 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? no 94: Had job? yes 95: Left the house without my wallet? yes 96: Bullied someone on the internet? no 97: Had sex in public? no 98: Played on a sports team? yes 99: Smoked weed?  no 100: Did drugs? no 101: Smoked cigarettes?no 102: Drank alcohol? yes 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? used to be vegetarian 104: Been overweight? no 105: Been underweight? yes 106: Been to a wedding? yes                                                                         107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? yes 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? yes 109: Been outside my home country? no 110: Gotten my heart broken? yes 111: Been to a professional sports game? no 112: Broken a bone? no 113: Cut myself? yes 114: Been to prom? no 115: Been in airplane? no 116: Fly by helicopter? no 117: What concerts have I been to? none 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? no 119: Learned another language? no 120: Wore make up? yes 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? yes 122: Had oral sex? yes 123: Dyed my hair? yes 124: Voted in a presidential election? no 125: Rode in an ambulance? no 126: Had a surgery? no 127: Met someone famous? yes 128: Stalked someone on a social network? yes 129: Peed outside? no 130: Been fishing? yes 131: Helped with charity? yes 132: Been rejected by a crush? no 133: Broken a mirror? yes 134: What do I want for birthday? a new desk and books 135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? 2, not sure 136: Was I named after anyone? no 137: Do I like my handwriting? no 138: What was my favourite toy as a child? barbie dolls 139: Favourite Tv Show? Grimm or Vampire diaries 140: Where do I want to live when older?  indooroopiley, new york or milann 141: Play any musical instrument? no 142: One of my scars, how did I get it? all of them are cutting or being clumsy 143: Favourite pizza toping? bacon 144: Am I afraid of the dark? yes 145: Am I afraid of heights? yes 146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? no 147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? yes 148: What I’m really bad at: lying 149: What my greatest achievments are: scholarship for university 150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: i cant choose, there are too many 151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery: buy what i need, give a decent amount to charity, but things i want (in that order) 152: What do I like about myself?: my eyes 153: My closest Tumblr friend: no one 154: Something I fantasise about: nothing

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Feels right now

Some times i wish i had more than 3 friends, more than 2 people to trust and more than 1 person to run to when im sad. Sometimes i wish i hadn’t slept with so many guys, but i know i only did it because i was numb and bored and it was a nice feeling. I wish i never cut, i havn’t in months but i think about it everytime i see my ugly scars, yet as much as i hate them i feel a compulsion to dig into my skin again. I wish i could stop eating. i eat so much fucking food, i eat all the time and all i eat is unhealthy shit but i cant stop, i wish i could just stop eating all together and feel better. But thats not going to happen. because its a shit world and a shit life and ive been fine for months but now ive lost all my friends again and i have no one to run to when im breaking down and i cant stop thinking about ripping my skin open. But i cant, because its a shit world and no one ever gets what they want.