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If people all of a sudden see my posts and start the games again about them  “caring about me” all of a sudden, to be honest, I’m not interested! The person this is for knows who they are and I don’t want to be hurt for the fourth time! I have given this person WAY too many chances! No, I’m not 100% over them, but I refuse to go crawling back into their arms and pretending to be happy when I wouldn’t be!

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Honestly I don’t understand how I could not be over someone who gave up caring about me anyway! Why am I wasting time thinking about someone who I didn’t need to begin with?

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I don’t want to cry like I am severely tempted to do because I shouldn’t be like this for two nights in a row!

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I honestly thought that things would get easier when I went back home. The stuff I have been holding in for the past 12 years can’t be held in and now that I am around my family, I feel comfortable enough that I am becoming an emotional wreck! 

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More relatable BOTDF lyrics

“I’m okay” is just my favorite lie. Hurts to hide, pretend that I’m fine. This mask of a smile can’t show how I feel.

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Very relatable BOTDF lyrics

In my dreams I’m always trying to find you. I’m screaming inside. You left me haunted. Here we are, I can’t escape your presence. I’m buried alive. You left me haunted. 

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Announcement

If you only want followers who will financially help you out, I will not be following you! If I am already following you, I will unfollow the second I see posts asking for “help”, in other words with money! I am too broke and can’t help out! Also, I’m broke and I DON’T want ANYONE on here to “help me out”!  I’m not going to use other people who follow me to make me rich, even if I had followers! If I want success, I will get it myself!

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BOTDF lyrics I feel about my Former Host Home Provider

Took your love and wasted all of it on someone who could care less for you. I give my word, everything I did came directly from my heart, it’s true. Don’t think I won’t forget the things you’ve done. Don’t think you won’t regret forbidden fun. I’ve drawn my line with you in the sand. Right now you are the one who’s unforgiven.

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I was thinking of some stuff that went on in 2017 and can’t help but wonder why someone would rather tear down someone else for the sake of fame instead of trying and actually making a full album instead of one song! And when that person had their song taken down for the short time it was, they blame the fans of the person who is being brought down by them! Very irritating judging by the fact that I am a fan of the one artist being brought down! I wish this would be over now that it is almost 2019, but the one person causing all this won’t let it go! 

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I used to be love drunk, now I'm hungover. Love you forever, forever is over.

Boys Like Girls

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I am glad that I no longer have to hear that I am “abandoning” certain people and that I “didn’t care” because to be honest, if I didn’t care, I wouldn’t have put up with what I did FOR FIVE YEARS!!! Being home is so much of a good change because my family knows the truth!

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Announcement

For those of you who follow any of my YouTube channels, you have probably seen that the videos on “The Etzlers Insanity Channel” have all been deleted. To be honest, I haven’t talked to Josh since the end of September. We are split up. Yes, I am the one with the account information for that channel. I didn’t delete the videos out of spite, the memories were just somewhat too much for my emotional state at that time. People have called me selfish and say I’m in the wrong for not telling him, but this is the first time in years I have taken care of myself and even the thought of running into him is giving me anxiety at this point! There is A LOT more to the situation than mentioned, but I am refusing to say it because I don’t want to put anybody on blast.

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Song Lyrics By “Boys Like Girls” That Completely Make Me Think Of My Most Recent Ex

I used to be love drunk, now I’m hungover. Love you forever, forever is over. We used to kiss all night, now it’s just a bar fight. So don’t call me crazy, say hello to goodbye. And just one touch would make me say, I used to be love drunk, but now I’m hungover. Love you forever, but now it’s over.

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I completely wish my septum was pierced right now!  >:[

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I admit I still care, even though I shouldn’t because they never did!

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I am done with being in love! All it does is cause me pain! :’(