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“i want to grow old” for whoever it’ll be most painful to🫶

something about his words felt like tearing her own heart and allowing someone to stamp on it. this was her fault, their fault. bernie didn't want this for him, didn't want her sisters to want to hurt him, but once bella got something in her mind, it was hard for the other two to talk her down from that particular ledge.

the youngest of the nam sisters being the only one who wanted to protect luke, the only one to talk in his favour. all the eldest saw was the pain he was putting bonnie through, and maybe the pain he was putting her littlest sister through too, though bernie swore she'd never speak of that. never speak of her feelings for him, for her older sister's boyfriend.

why was he telling her this? why wasn't he trying to attack her for what the three sisters did? she was still involved, she still contributed to the terrible spell, to the magic that didn't quite go to plan. everything was scrambled in her tiny head, the head that was once ( and still is ) filled with thoughts of the man in front of her. was he even a man anymore? human? she barely knew, but she knew all her waking thoughts were still filled with him.

"luke... i'm so sorry," muffled words and she stared directly at the uneven concrete underneath her feet. what was a sorry going to do? he was already in this state. there was no antidote, no spell to turn this all around. even if there was a spell, bernie couldn't do it alone and it was clear her sisters would not help her either.

"you just... you know this is because of bonnie, right? bella would never see her hurt and you've done it far too many times. i tried, she wouldn't listen. i tried to help but you know bella," half scoffs but it wasn't a laughing matter. this was real. she had lost luke as she knew him and was sure he'd never look at her again, not even as a confidant. how could he? after his sisters tried to wipe him from their lives in the worst way they knew how to.

#☾ bernie nam / threads.#☾ bernie nam / answered memes.#☾ bernie nam / with luke.#gutpact #if this didn't make sense yes it did

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angelsletter · 2 months

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૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა ╱ saves the world sentence starters pt 1 ( created using lyrics from muna's saves the world album. feel free to adjust to fit your muse. )

i want to grow up

i want to put away my childish things

i think that i'm ready to take this song off repeat

i'm tired of the party games

i'm calling their blugg

they always turn out the same

i want to grow old

i want to lay down

i want to let go

i want to grow

so i heard the bad news

nobody likes me and i'm gonna die alone in my bedroom

looking at strangers on my telephone

wouldn't you like if i believed those words?

if i'm born to lose, i'll never try and i will never learn

i've been looking at myself in the mirror

don't leave me now

oh my god, like i'm your number one fan

so iconic

i would give my life just to hold your hand

i'm your number one fan

here's the bad news

i'm coming for everyone and i'm coming on strong

new hair and new shoes

i get what i like because i do what i want

in the thick of it

will you stick up for me?

are you gonna believe that i can do it?

love me in the way that only you can

by my number one

if i see my old friends, we'll go out dancing

if we go out dancing, then we'll go to the bar

if we go to the bar, then there's gonna be drinking

if i drink, i wanna see where you are

i don't see my old friends

i don't go dancing

i don't do most things i used to do

now that i'm thinking about it i did most things to get to you

no one ever told me leaving was the easy part

i gotta stay away

leaving you was easy

now i gotta do what's hard

stay away

if i go driving, then i'll put on music

ig i put on music, then i'll play your song

if i play your song, then i think i'll lose it

end up pulled up at the front of your lawn

i don't go driving

i just stay in

every moment is a fork in the road

all my roads lead back to you

if i turn off the light, then i might start thinking

if i start thinking, i'll think of the time when you said that you love me

you said i was perfect

you said you were sorry

you said you were selgish

if i don't stop it, before i know it all the bad things never happened

you never lied or treated me bad

if you did then you'll wish you hadn't

start believing you were right and i was too dramatic

i gotta leave the light on for tonight

any little misstep, i'll be at your doorstep

talking about forgiveness, giving you my heart back

just so you can break it one more time

i never thought you knew what love was until i heard you sing a love song

with the way that you treat me i had to reach my own conclusions

i thought your heart was stone

i thought you never let your feelings show

who are you singing about now?

you sounded clear as a crystal

you sounded soft as the rainfall

every note was a lump in my throat

i knew i had to hear it all

it was like a dream to hear such a sweet melody

i knew it was for not me

i need to know who

drove to the mountains in the morning

on the way back down, i thought my breaks would broken and the road would end

i would just keep going through the air and into the pacific ocean

i'm just trying to keep my head above water

get enough sleep and drink enough water

i'm so navy blue

i'm so navy blue over you

took a train to a friend's house

feeling shaken

seems like you somehow turn up when i'm at my weakest

don't know what to say so leave it blank like silence

go back home and wait for some new change that's coming

do you know that i've been holding my breath all of this time?

weren't you going to call me when you got back?

was it all lies?

weren't you going to love me if i just did everything right?

i don't know if i like love

i think i've had enough

seems like it's alright for some

it's just i'm not one

consider this my resignation

please consider this an end

deliver this recitation to the one who did me in

i'll never love again

i don't know if i like songs

i think maybe i was wrong

to think i could make it hurt less with a chorus sing-song

consider this, cause this is it

deliver this last performance to the source from which it stems

are you happy?

#☾ ooc / memes.

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