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Rod Serling Narrates The Twilight Zone (TV Series, 1959 – 1964)

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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one way broadcast am i right

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every aquarist ever be like

#this is hilarious

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i want 60 thousand votes by next thursday

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local woman who claimed she will "cross that bridge when she comes to it" arrives at said bridge

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which is definitely not an omen

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but daddy i love him is just. so funny when you imagine it's from castiel's perspective

#i want to ask how the having his baby lyric would apply #but i really don't want to know

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Shapeshifter who gets horribly grotesque and mutilated when flustered

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goals

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#they have a joint blog

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STOP!!! being in other countries. I wanna! Hang out >:(

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i just heard the phrase “if you wouldn’t trust their advice, don’t trust their criticism” for the first time and i don’t think i’ve ever needed to hear anything more

#i #i needed to hear this

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All I need is for someone to gently cup my face and tell me I'm not as doomed as I feel.

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this can't be true can it

#i'm literally on the computer right now