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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

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ever since i was a little girl i knew i wanted to be a nervous young man

#MEEE!!!

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Malignant Radicular Hypertrophy (MRH) is a life-threatening syndrome where teeth roots grow uncontrollably, destroying facial bones, eyes, and ultimately penetrating the cranial cavity.

MRH is paraneoplastic, caused by a small pituitary tumor that releases growth factors responsible for dental growth.

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this song genuinely has a chokehold on me its insane

#devi mccallion #girls rituals #music #Spotify

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Just need to escape.

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day 130: omg guys its will toledo wednesday

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Two Christs by Andres Serrano

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for i am still that little girl asking if she can play too; and i am still that little girl being awkwardly declined and i am still that little girl thats wants to be wanted more than anything but i am that little girl that is starting to really really not blame them for it. and i am that little girl asking god why she is different warning him that if jesus died for all our sins, that he left one behind; the body i am in.

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ohhhh yep 👍

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not kissing not fucking but a secret third thing (stabbing each other)

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is it?

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day 125: THE TOLIDDIES ARE OUT

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ITS ALL A BLUR, THE PERSON YOU ARE AND THE PERSON YOU WERE.

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I hate how people will look at popular indie artists who had one or two songs go viral on TikTok and start making fun of anybody who listens to them. "Oh you listen to Lemon Demon, Will Wood, Jack Stauber, Glass Animals, and Mother Mother? Tsk, don't you know that is stupid TikTok neurodivergent white transmasc preteen music? It's so mid and bad you should listen to real music–" you are a pit of misery

#no because i feel so embarrassed everytime i mention jack stauber is one of my special interests like #i feel like people just think i like. you know. buttercup. baby hotline. oh klahoma. etc #and they're good songs but..... tsh... heh.... they just dont get an alpha jack stauber fan like me.....