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YEN'S DAY < 8

Dearest Mariel,

First of all.. hallooo!! Sinadya ko talaga na-late bumati nang maayos para main character pa rin ako HAHAHHAHA anyways,,,, I don't plan to make you cry but sorry in advance if you will bc I'm gonna be pouring my heart out here. Hehehe. So here goes nothing,,,,,,,

Happiest Birthday, Ate Yen!!! You're literally my second fave ate (kasi first yung mga cousins ko huhu) anyways, I will never get tired of telling you these things: I AM ALWAYS PROUD OF THE WOMAN THAT YOU ARE. ALWAYS. IM ALWAYS GONNA BE HERE FOR YOU.

I will forever be grateful for Regine because if it weren't for her hendi siguro kita makikilala. And also that salonpas thing!!!! LIFESAVER!! Crazy how it's almost a year when we first met but it feels like we've known each other for years. Maybe because we have the same wavelength (???) or because we understand each other and we literally have the same brain cells ( which is kinda scary sometimes siyet we need sheezus atp ) or maybe because we have this red string of fate. Maybe we're fated to be friends for life (??) maybe we were destined to meet. Idk but whatever that reason is, I am grateful for the chance you have given me to get to know you more. For unlocking your doors even though you already decided to lock them forever. For opening up your window again. For breaking your walls down.. ( I know this was one of the hardest things to do but still thank you). For letting me meet your life— Franco and Iñigo. Thank you, Ate. Thanks for being so kind. You may not know this but you don't know how lucky we are to have you by our side. REALLY. Idk if you're aware of this but you are indeed lucky. Lucky enough to have a kind and understanding heart that even if someone turns their back against you, you'll get hurt but you'll still understand them. It's a blessing and a curse tbh. But yea.. I hope you won't let anyone take that for granted. AND THEIR LUCKY TOO. SUPER BY SEVENTEEN. Anyways,, I am beyond grateful for all the things you did for me. Especially that one night. One specific night. Thank you for welcoming me with arms wide open that night. I was really scared. REALLY REALLY SCARED. I had to force myself to think that whatever happens I know you'll be there. It helped me little but my fears were stronger that night. But still, I conquered it because of you. You helped me beat my fears and I am forever grateful for that. There are a lot of times that I've conquered my fears with your help. Like literally a lot. Remember that night when I told you about my dad? It was my first time to tell those things I don't share with people. First time to open a fresh wound to someone.. because I know I needed to do that. I needed to release that for me to move forward and I am grateful that you were there that night. I was lost.. I felt the darkness again but thanks to you for passing me the torch of life. I had my hopes again. ): You saved me, Ate Yen. I hope you know that. I hope you know you are saving me everyday.. I hope I am too. (in any way.. )

When you're happy, something in me is healing too. (this is real.. seeing you guys having the time of your lives gives that satisfaction in me that even when I'm not in your lives anymore, even if I'm not included in your plans in the future anymore, I know you are happy. That is the healing part.) When you're sad, my heart aches three times.. my heart aches for you because I know you're kind and you don't deserve that kind of sufferings BUT I also know that without those sufferings, you won't grow out your wings.. Just like what John Green said in Paper Towns— Pain demands to be felt. Without them we won't grow. So let the pain come, my love. Let them come. Embrace them because you have me. Again, I am ready and willing to share half of your struggles so you won't carry them alone. I will walk with you in that path full of thorns until we reach that path of garden full of sunflowers and tulips and roses. And I know I've said this to the wrong person before.. I wanna say it to you.. because you deserve these words ( not patrick).. When someone cut you off out of their life, PLEASE don't hesitate to bring the end of your string to me. Bring the end of your string to me and I'll tie it with mine. I'll make knot that no one can break, not even my demons.

I hope you had a blast today, Ate. I'll make bawi to you when I come back. I know how much you love the sky as much as I love them so here's my gift ( for now huhu). I haven't uploaded them yet except for the plane fifth pic lol. I hope this will bring comfort to you when days are rough and it feels like the world is crumbling beneath your feet. I hope this will make you feel at ease when the voices inside your head gets loud and you need something to distract you. I hope this will give you fresh air so that you can breathe anytime when you feel tired. I hope you find light in these photos everytime the darkness tries to consume you. I hope this will remind you that not all endings are sad. I hope this will bring hope to you just like how it brings hope to me. I hope this will help you heal from the things you don't say to anyone.. I am hoping. REALLY hoping.

Notice how every sunset and sunrise is different from each other but they still give off that radiant color of orange-red-bluish shit color. Different sunset and sunrise but still the same sky. I'd like to say that that's how life works. That's how YEN works. Every struggles and hurdles you have in life is different. They have different levels of pain. But despite of that, you are still you. Yen is still yen. The only difference is, you become wiser the next time you face something very difficult again. You become stronger than you were before— like the radiant color of the sky. The more vibrant they are, the brighter and intense they are. More colorful. More eye-catching.. You give off that vibrant color to everyone. The reason why you are everyone's comfort person. I hope you are your comfort person too.

I have so many things to say, Ate. Like literally so many. But I'll save them for Christmas and New Year hehe. I was planning to give you a written letter but it will take time for you to receive it pa. I prefer to give you a written one rather than this. I'd like to burn and bleed these words to a piece of paper rather than typing them tho lol but either way naman, I know you'll still keep it. (:

I love you so much, Ate Yen. You help me get through everyday (alongside with btsvtxtencteez). One of the few person who pushed me to be the best version of myself. One of those people who believed in me. One of the few person whom I trust with all my life and One of the few person whom I let to see my naked soul. I love you with all my heart. See you soon! Happy Birthday, my love!

Please be happy, always.

—Jeanne.

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by jorgitoacj

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sometimes its just like *street lights reflecting off the wet asphalt at night* maybe life isnt so ugly after all

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B T S X P R A D A

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Life Goes On Teaser 

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spring day | life goes on

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201117 Jimin’s Tweet

연습하다가 쉴 때 #JIMIN #꾹 #태태

When we were taking a break during practice #JIMIN #Ggook #TaeTae

Trans cr: Amy @ bts-twts © Please credit when taking out

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Life; then and now..

Have you ever wonder where would you be if this all never happened? What would you be doing in life? Will I become an intern? If there was no pandemic, what hospital will I be? Am I going to survive internship? Will it ever return to normal? These are just some questions I asked myself everytime I look at the mirror. And I know I’m not the only one who has countless of questions to ask..

Each and everyone of us is fighting a lot of battles. May it be silent or not. Most of us fight silently because they dont want to cause any burden to anyone.. like me. Each of us have different stories to tell. Stories that sometimes can change perspectives and understand things the way they are. Stories that will inspire you to become the best version of you. Stories that have been kept for years because of fear and hopelessness. Stories that may bring light to those who are on the verge of giving up. Stories you’ve never heard before.. I’m going to tell you what my life was then and now.

Life before was tough but I’m glad I made it. Life before was shitty but I always find ways to enjoy the shittiness and not dwell too much from it. Life before was freedom and fun.. It’s still fun right now but not like before. I get to go to places I wanna go. Places I’ve never been. Do things I wanna do and never been before. Living life like there’s no tomorrow.. Enjoying, drinking and partying all night. It was hard but I have ways to enjoy the hardships of what life will give.

But.. all of a sudden, the world stopped. 

Life before was tough, but now it was tougher. We saw everything stopped, dreams and plans that was destroyed before our very eyes. People are having anxiety and getting depressed. Lives has been taken because of the depression and covid. Not only did the world stop, but so did we. 

On the first week of the quarantine, i thought it was only going to last for three months. But i was wrong.. we are now on our 9th month.. it looks like we’re slowly learning how to live with it. But as the day passes by, i learned a lot about myself, the things and people around me. This pandemic may be a toll on my mental health but I’m glad i have ways on coping up. I learned a lot from different people. From my friends and family. I am still learning how to love myself. I realized a lot of things. I didn’t know cooking would be fun for me. Life’s fun before because I have freedom but even though I have that, there are still things that im not free.. like being myself. I have all the time way back before, but I couldn’t even pay a visit to my friends and family. I still miss important occasions and events. I realized that this pandemic helped me reach out to people.. connect with them again. I wasted a lot of time not being with them because I was busy with my acads and then it hit me.. time doesn’t really stop.

Life now is a bit different from the way it was before. The world may stop but that doesn’t mean im going to stop too. Huge shoutout to these amazing people who helped me get out of my comfort zone. (insert irish mie hehe)

Writing this made me so emotional as i remember all the things me and my friends did before this all happened. I am not sad or anything.. it’s just that I feel like we lost a lot of time. But I thank God for giving me courage everyday to fight my silent battles and face the day. I thank Him for giving me such wonderful and amazing people in my life that I know will help me grow. Like I said, I learned a lot from different people. Their perspective helped me to view things differently and appreciate each one of them. Understand them and thank God for giving them more patience to teach me things i didn’t knew before. One day we’ll all look back and thank because things happened the way they were. 

“Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called present. “  - Master Oogway

I still have a lot to say but it will take time if I say it all. Life was and is tough. It is never easy. It’s all about how you’re going to deal with it, understand it and how you will view it.

My story ends here. What’s your story?

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•maybe not this year, but next•

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the most effortlessly beautiful angel ✨ 

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Thai Actors’ Ages

@musicdramalove summoned my nerd goblin, and I had to make this.

Show groupings:

My Engineer

2gether

Why R U

Theory of Love

Love Sick

3 Will Be Free

Dark Blue Kiss, Kiss, Kiss Me Again, Water Boyy

Tharntype

SOTUS

Until We Meet Again

Love By Chance

My Engineer

Cooper Patpasit (Bohn): Oct 23, 1996 (age 23)

Poy Kritsanapong (Duen): March 16, 1999 (age 21)

Perth Nakhun (Ram): July 6, 1994 (age 25)

Lay Talay (King): Sept 9, 1995 (age 24)

Ryan Peng (Mek): July 3, 1999 (age 20)

Inntouch Naphat (Boss): April 18, 1995 (age 25)

MD Natthapong (Thara): Feb 10, 1995 (age 25)

Shane Nutchapol (Frong): Aug 4, 1997 (age 22)

2gether

Win Metawin: Feb 21, 1999 (age 21)

Bright Vachirawit: Dec 27, 1997 (age 22)

Gun Korawit Boonsri (Green): Aug 6, 1992 (age 27)

Khaotung Thanawat (Fong): Oct 13, 1998 (age 21)

Pluem Pongpisal (Phuak): July 19, 1997 (age 22)

JJ Chayakorn (Ohm): March 9, 2001 (age 19 – BABY)

Gun Chanagun (Boss): March 3, 1996 (age 24 – he’s only 24. I did not know that)

Mike Chinnarat (Man): Nov 28, 1993 (age 26)

Toptap Jirakit (Type): May 1, 1994 (age 25)

Frank Thanatsaran (Phukong): July 12, 2000 (age 19)

Drake Sattabut Laedeke (Mil): Oct 1, 2000 (age 19)

Guy Sivakorn (Dim): Aug 27, 1992 (age 27)

Why R U

Saint Suppapong: April 17, 1998 (age 22)

Zee Pruk: Sept 10, 1992 (age 27)

Tommy Sittichok: Sept 29, 1995 (age 24)

Jimmy Karn: Feb 18, 2000 (age 20 – BABY)

Janistar Phomphadungcheep (Hwa): March 18, 1995 (age 25)

Pangpond Akaavut (Day): Dec 10, 1995 (age 24)

Perth Veerinsara (Zol): Feb 19, 2002 (age 18)

Nat Natasitt (Blue): Aug 8, 2002 (age 17 – BABY BABY)

Max Saran (Dew): Oct 10, 1993 (age 26)

Park Parnupat (Japan): Aug 23, 1992 (age 27)

Seng Wichai (Tanthai): March 27, 1999 (age 21)

Theory of Love

Off Jumpol: Jan 20, 1991 (age 29 – goodness! I didn’t know that. Same with Gun’s.)

Gun Atthaphan: Oct 4, 1993 (age 26)

White Nawat: June 2, 1995 (age 24)

Earth Pirapat: Feb 23, 1994 (age 26)

Love Sick

Captain Chonlathorn: Feb 2, 1998 (age 22)

Sing Harit: March 8, 1997 (age 23)

3 Will Be Free

Tay Tawan: July 20, 1991 (age 28)

Joss Wayar: March 8, 1996 (age 24)

Mild Lapassalan/Wiraporn: Dec 7, 1994 (age 25)

Jennie Panhan: Oct 31, 1986, (age 33)

Dark Blue Kiss, Kiss, Kiss Me Again, Water Boyy,

New Thitipoom: Jan 30, 1993 (age 27)

AJ Chayapol: (see JJ Chayapol under 2gether)

Podd Suphakorn: Oct 23, 1993 (age 26)

Fluke Gawin: August 8, 1997 (age 22)

Mek Jirakit (Thada): Aug 28, 1994 (age 25)

Nicky Nachat (June): March 25, 1990 (age 30)

Piglet Charada (Pan from Water Boyy): July 8, 1995 (age 24)

Victor Chatchawit (Min from Water Boyy): March 22, 1992 (age 28)

Fon Sananthachat (Wan - Water Boyy/Sanwan - Kiss Me Again): June 20, 1994 (age 25)

Tharntype

Gulf Kanawut: Dec 4, 1997 (age 22)

Mew Suppasit: Feb 21, 1991 (age 29)

Mild Suttinut: Nov 12, 1993 (age 26)

Boat Napat: April 29, 1996 (age 23)

Kaownah Kittipat: Feb 11, 1998 (age 22)

SOTUS

Singto Prachaya: July 28, 1994 (age 25)

Krist Perawat: Oct 18, 1995 (age 24)

Until We Meet Again

Fluke Natouch: June 1, 1996 (age 23 – he’s older than Ohm by like 9 months!)

Ohm Thitiwat: March 26, 1997 (age 23)

Earth Katsamonnat: Nov 1, 1996 (age 23)

Kao/Nine Noppakao: Sept 9, 1994 (age 25)

Prem Warut: Mar 8, 1998 (age 22)

Boun Nopponut: July 14, 1995 (age 24)

Samantha Melanie Coates: Aug 30, 1995 (age 24)

Love By Chance

Plan Rathivit: Feb 19, 1997 (age 23)

Mean Phiravich: March 5, 1998 (age 22)

Perth Tanapon: March 20, 2001 (age 19)

 Let me know if you guys want any other actors/shows added.

Edit: added Janistar and Perth (both from Why R U)

Edit: Janistar is corrected.

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midnight blues;

You probably won’t know this because I dont have plans to tell you this. But honestly, I badly want to scream it all to your face.. these emotions, this feeling i feel is too much to handle and i cant take it anymore. I honestly don’t know where to start.. but who cares anyway?

Honestly, i’m really having a hard time on how to tell you these things. But I found a perfect song that describes it.. for now, i’m gonna continue writing everything down... I don’t know when i’m gonna stop but this is the only way i will survive.. 

Im inlove with you but I don’t know how to say it... 

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