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— Tristan Tzara, from Selected Verses; “Approximate Man.”

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Always be kinder than you feel.

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to the man who got my heart;

I’d love to tell you amazing things about you but I don’t know how to start. I’d love to tell you how you made me feel but I can’t find the perfect words to use. I’d love to show how much I love you but I can’t find a way. I wanna be with you again but I’m not sure you feel the same way.

Babe, almost 9 months without you. 9. Fuckin. Months. Whoa. How did I survived those months without the love of my life? I also didn’t know. I just did. But one thing is for sure, nothing has changed. You still got my heart. And it will always be yours. I will love you forever and nothing or no one can replace you. If I could turn back time, I will never ever let you go. But things already done. And nothing I could do to bring back the past. Months of not talking or not hearing anything from you. And it’s killing me everyday. Not until this 24th day of September. I finally hear your voice again. I finally got the chance to tell you how much I love you. And that I really miss you since you’ve been gone. That I’m just here, always waiting for you. I’m so glad to hear that you still love me too despite what happened between us. But babe, those can’t change the fact that there’s no longer us. At the end of the day, we are just part of each other’s past. I still sleep and wake up without you here by my side. Yes, it won’t change a thing. Loving you won’t change a thing.

Nevertheless, I will never get tired of telling you how much I love you. I still don’t know what the future instore for us, what ever it may seems, you will always be part of me. I guess loving you completes me. And I will always be thankful to God for having you. I love you.

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to my TOTGA;

Hi.

I know you’re doing well and happy with your life right now. And I’m also happy for you. Yun ba namang sa lahat ng pinagdaanan mo sa life, alam ko masaya ka ngayon. Lalo na you’re with her. I bitterly smiled. Ewan ko. Looking back, aminado ako na- fall ako sayo. Minahal kita. Iniyakan. Kahit hindi naman naging tayo. Kahit na sobrang bilis natin nahulog sa isa’t isa. At kahit na sa huli, hindi ikaw yung pinili ko. Tanga ko eh. Aminado naman ako dun na ang tanga ko. Masyado lang siguro akong takot nuon para mag settle pa sa taong pakiramdam ko walang lakas para panindigan yung nararamdaman para sakin. Ganun ka nun eh. You can set aside your feelings para sa ibang bagay. And you left me hopeless. So I chose the other way. I chose someone na akala ko matapang para harapin lahat ng bagay kasama ako. Yung hahawakan yung kamay ko kahit takot na takot na ako. Pero sa huli, wala rin pala.

Pero sabi ko nga, wala ako pinagsisisihan sa lahat ng nangyare. Alam ko ganun ka rin. Masyado lang akong natutuwa ngayon na sa wakas, nahanap mo na yung taong para sayo. Na sa wakas, masaya ka na.

Sa totoo lang hindi ko alam kung bakit sa lahat lahat, yung mga SS ng convo natin yung hindi ko parin magawang burahin ngayon. Ang labo lang. Pero in time, magagawa ko din sigurong burahin yun. Kahit paulit ulit na, gusto ko parin sabihin dito na masaya ako para sayo. Sobrang masaya ako para sayo. You deserve all the love in the world.

Naalala ko pa, birthday ko, sabi mo sa message mo sakin, “saan man tayo dalhin ng kapalaran, maging tayo man or hindi, nandito lang ako para sayo” 😊

So ayun nga, hindi naging tayo— at hinding hindi magiging tayo. After all, you’re my “the one that got away” ❣️

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I thought it always hit the hardest at night. Today, I realized I was wrong. It will hit you anytime of the day. When you’re alone in a room, or having some coffee time with your friends. Even when you’re busy with your own business, it may still hit you. Anytime. Anywhere.

Blank. Empty. Pointless. Worthless. Words that describe how miserable myself is— at the moment. Completely opposite with how you feel. I wonder how it felt like to be like you. To be a guy who can break a girl’s heart without thinking how it may caused her. You have no idea how bad you made me feel. You made me questioned my worth. I was never perfect and didn’t claimed to be one. I also make mistakes— just like all the people. But one thing is for sure, I don’t deserve what you did to me. I don’t deserve all the lies and fake love you’ve shown me. I don’t deserve to look like a fool to anybody else just because of the love I have for you. Maybe— just maybe, I was never enough. I’ll never be enough for you. My love will never be enough for a guy like you.

Still, I wanna thank you. Because of you, I realized a thing. Everybody deserves a chance—but not unlimited of it. Because of you, I will not let anybody fool me again. Because of you, I will love myself fiercely and boldly. Because of you, I will do anything to make myself the happiest.

....and because of you, I will not let myself love the same way again.

#love hurt feelings goodbye random thoughts

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5 months ago. Limang buwan na pala ang nakalipas mula nung hinayaan ko ang sarili kong mahulog at mahalin ka. Bagay na hindi ko pag sisisihan dahil sobra akong naging masaya. 18March2017 Araw kung kailan ko sinabi sayong mahal na din kita - at sinasagot na kita. Tandang tanda ko pa reaction mo nun. Kulang na lang magtatalon at magsisigaw ka sa tuwa. Inaamin ko, hindi naging madali sakin ang sagutin ka. Nung panahon na yun, nag tatalo parin kami ng sarili ko dahil alam kong hindi pa ako handa. Ayaw ko pang masaktan ulit. Kaya halos pinapaalalahanan kita araw araw na wag na wag mo akong sasaktan. Mahirap sa simula, tayo kasi yung klase ng couple na sobrang magkaiba. Matured ka, immature ako. Sabi mo nga ito yung unang beses mo naranasan yung ganitong klaseng lovelife. Mahirap- pero masaya. Sana wala kang pag sisihan. Una, pangalawang buwan, kahit halos araw araw ako nakikipag hiwalay sayo, walang tatalo sa saya at pagmamahal na pinadama mo sakin araw araw. Nakita ko kung paano ka mag bago. Natutuwa akong makita kung paano mo nagawang magbago dahil sa pag mamahal mo sakin. Hanggang sa dumating yung ikatlong buwan natin dalawa. Hindi ko alam na yun din yung araw na dudurog sakin ng sobra. Dahil yun yung araw na nalaman ko ang katotohanang meron ka palang iba. Ang masakit pa dun, mas nauna sya at mas mahal ka nya. Siguro, mas mahal mo din talaga sya. Masakit, sobra. Gusto kong lumaban. Gusto kong ipaglaban kung anong meron tayong dalawa. Pero paano ako lalaban kung una pa lang alam kong talo na? Ngayon, mag iisang buwan na ang nakalipas mula nung maghiwalay tayong dalawa. Nandun parin yung sakit at pagmamahal pero inaamin ko, unti unti nang nawawala. Paalis ka na ng bansa, naalala ko yung sinabi mo sa akin nuon. "Siguro sa ngayon gusto ko gumanda ang buhay ko" ... Eto na. Papunta ka na sa mga pangarap mo. Masaya ako para sayo. Alam kong worth it lahat ng pagsasakripisyo ko. Malayo pa sana ang marating mo. Ako bahala na kung san dalhin ng kapalaran. Wag ka mag alala, pipilitin kong maging masaya. Ngayon ko lang napagtanto na ito pala yung una - at panghuli kong sinulat para sayo. Mahal na mahal kita- wala na akong sasabihin pa. 💔

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In my heart there was a kind of fighting That would not let me sleep.

William Shakespeare, Hamlet (via books-n-quotes)

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You know you made the right decision when you can feel that your heart is already at peace. Nothing comes easy, sometimes you have to go through the hardest possible way just to see that in the end, it will be all worth it. ❤️

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One day you’ll laugh at the things you thought mattered.

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I wonder if there are still people who take chances seriously. I mean, you can't always get a second chance - lucky if you do, so you might as well keep it and don't let it turn to waste. Right? Mostly, people doesn't learn from their mistakes because they knew they can get unlimited chances. They even abusing the word "sorry". As far as I know, you're sorry for the things you didn't mean to do or for the words you didn't mean to say. Not for the things and words you've said and done, and doing or saying it all over and over again. Are you aware of the damages you're causing to someone? Do you really think a simple "sorry" or a letter of apology can fix those damages? Do you also think you deserve to be forgiven, after all? Let all of these sink in to you. If you have your chance, do the most out of it. Because once you lost it - you may never have another one, for good.

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It's been a while, Tumblr! Been busy these past few weeks and it took me some time to realize that I miss blogging. Actually, I can't think of possible things to share with you because lately, I just feel so random. Anyway, I'm doing good - at least. Currently listening to my favorite Ed Sheeran's song - Lego House. 😌 So I'm really enjoying my summer vacation here at Quezon Province. But I admit, I'm starting to miss the busy streets of Quezon City- which I'm surely going to see again, soon. It feels good to reunite with my childhood friends and other relatives. One thing that made me happy is knowing that some things never change. Life may give you a reason to be sad but it will definitely give you a lot of reasons to be happy, too. We must appreciate those little things around us and be glad about it. We don't have to stick ourselves to negative vibes, just focus on the other side. Learn the power of positivity- it may help you. 😌 Things might go wrong, people may change, feelings may fade, but still life goes on. There's always a reason to be thankful for. ☺️

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I’m scared as hell to want you. But here I am, wanting you anyway.

“Crash Into Me, Part Two.“ Grey’s Anatomy. (via wordsnquotes)

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And it is strange that absence can feel like presence.

Ally Condie, Crossed (via books-n-quotes)

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Our short story will always be one of my favorites. It maybe painful but i enjoyed every minute of it. You may not love me anymore but you will always have your spot here in my heart - and that spot is yours, forever. 💕 😢