Full-Time Cardiovascular RN and full-time whump obsessed. Wisconsin-born Anglophile. Firm believer that Tony Stark is still alive, living at the lake house and having Peter over on the weekends.
My friend’s little brother (non-verbal) used to hide people’s shoes if he liked the person, because it meant they had to stay longer. The more difficult it was to find your shoes, the more he liked you.
One day my cousin came over, and she was a bitch. When it was time to leave, my friend’s brother handed her shoes directly to her and she went on and on about how he must have a crush on her because he only “helped” her.
Just thinking about how 9-1-1 is a network television show and Evan Buckley is a stereotypical hot, macho man. How this show isn't niche or 'gay'. How people from all walks of life watch this show. Millions of people watch this show.
Someone out there watched tonight's episode and realized they've felt that way before. They realized they aren't alone.
Someone out there watched that episode and gained a better understanding of how people can figure out their sexuality later in life.
Someone out there watched tonight and saw that there isn't one way to be queer.
Someone's parents watched that episode tonight and realized that just because their kid isn't stereotypically gay or bi or queer, that doesn't make their sexuality less valid.
Someone watched this episode and realized that just because their friend/sibling/cousin/etc has only dated the opposite gender before, that doesn't mean they can't be bisexual
i’m emotional about him but most of all i am emotional because this is… queer television history.
and we are lucky enough to see it. in real time.
i’ve always known it was gonna happen i have never doubted it but now that it’s here i am so so soft and i have so much love for everyone involved.
a traditionally masculine guy in his thirties(!!!) who spent six full seasons as a (presumed) cishet guy and started out as a fuckboy gets to… have this. gets to experience this, gets to breathe.
and we get to see it.
this has never really happened before. not like this.
we are witnessing queer television history and i am so happy and so proud to be a part of it - to have been a part of it.
Sometimes when I’m looking at graphics of Eddie from the whole fight-club arc, it just sends me in a tailspin about how much grief and pain he was enduring. Eddie, who never processed Shannon leaving him and Chris the first time, just pushes everything deep inside while he trains to become a firefighter, moves to a brand-new city, and battles the system to find care for his son.
Let's not forget, he had undiagnosed trauma from being shot down, only to return home to parents didn't support him, but tried undermining every effect he was making to turn his life around and raise his son. He finally creates a little family unit with the 118, finds a mentor with Bobby, and bonds with Buck, who becomes his main support pilar when it comes to Chris, and ultimately, his best
friend in and outside of work.
Who then almost gets killed by a fire-truck bombing.
To put this in context. Weeks and months before all of this: Shannon comes back into his life, they start having sex, there's a pregnancy scare, and Eddie being Eddie, skips sitting down to discuss their issues (they both do) and proposes again, so both his “children” can grow up in a family unit, because that's what a man and father is supposed to. Only for Shannon to turn him down and ask for a divorce. Also, surprise, we're not having a second child.
And before he can even come to terms with that, she dies. Suddenly. And in front of him.
So, no, the street fighting arc isn't just because he couldn't talk to Buck (which I see in some many comments on gifs). Not being able to talk to his best friend did not help at all. Especially a friend who at the time, right or wrong, was suing the department and Bobby, aka the only source of stability Eddie had at the time, but now, he has no one to talk things out with. His biggest support system. (Buck) is gone.
He's suffering from PTSD, grief, and more abandonment issues (Shannon). And he's got so many feelings of loss and anger that have nowhere to go – except- where he can just beat the crap out of someone and in return get the crap beat out of him.
And I don’t know where I was going with this, but holy smokes, S3 Eddie was just the walking wounded. His hypervigilance was through the roof and his fight or flight instincts were out of control.
THEN he gets trapped in a well and is almost buried alive. After his son drags out his Silver Star, which is probably one of his biggest triggers.
Got to hand it to the writers of the show, they sure knew how to symbolize Eddie’s state of mind in Season 3.
A street fighting ring and being trapped alone under thousands of pounds of wet earth.