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no rizz just a strange and off putting cryptid vibe

#the type of energy I bring to the function #insane music taste tho #maybe the rizz is the friends we made along the way #cryptid #cryptid core #mothman

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I find it hilarious when people say that steve and bucky getting together would’ve been too unrealistic for the mcu……did you not see the talking raccoon with a gun

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Digging this out of my old drafts:

There is a strange poetic parallel (or poetic irony, depending on your point of view) in what Peggy says to Steve as he mourns Bucky, and what Steve says back to her when she pleads with him not to tank the plane.

Peggy: It wasn't your fault. Steve: (If you read the report) You know that's not true. Peggy: Did you believe in your friend? Did you respect him? Then stop blaming yourself. Allow Barnes the dignity of his choice.

Peggy: Please don't do this. We have time. We can work it out. Steve: (...) Peggy, this is my choice.

I mean, firstly, this is textual proof that Bucky's last act was a conscious choice to protect Steve. Secondly, the bitter irony of that line once you take into consideration what follows - of Hydra, enabled by SHIELD, stripping away the dignity of Bucky's choice (as well as his ability to make a choice).

But Steve's pointed wording is...interesting. Even in the kindest of readings, he is using her own words against her. During a time when she's upset and vulnerable, he uses the exact words she gave him when he was upset and vulnerable. "Give me the dignity of my choice," he tells her while dismissing her appeal to consider other options.

And it makes me wonder what exactly did Steve feel when Peggy said that to him. Bucky didn't board the train planning to die, and he didn't protect Steve with the intention to die. Death was a risk, but it was far from the explicit choice that Steve was making here which (as far as he was concerned) equated to certain death.

Had it really been a comfort to Steve to hear that Bucky should be the one to take the brunt of the responsibility as "the dignity of his choice"? When that hadn't been the explicit choice he made? Did those words really serve to alleviate his guilt when both of them knew the only reason Bucky made the choice was for him?

In the end, Steve wasn't allowed the dignity of his choice when he woke up in the 21st century...and he would learn, to his horror, neither was Bucky.

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Me @ all 'canon' after Steve and Bucky reunite in Wakanda

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I'm so fucking upset about the professor's new dinosaur family and their coming doom in the form of an asteroid already visible in the sky in the post-credit scene I'm so fucking upset about it because.

We've already gotten implications that the professor had a family. He's been alive so long, bouncing around time, that it seems there's only distant snippets of them still present in his mind, but he had a family. And now he has another, another he is doomed to lose, another we already saw fossilized beside his little hat and glasses in episode one. And I'm sure he knows this, it's clear he's retained all his previous knowledge and even a child knows about the asteroid and the extinction of the dinosaurs. As soon as he sees that light in the sky that seems brighter than the other, closer than the others, he'll understand. And he'll know what he's about to lose.

I'm SO SO fucking upset because the professor has lived a thousand lifetimes, seen more history learned more than anyone could ever hope, met and befriended and loved more people than you could even COMPREHEND but he is so absolutely fundamentally alone. Every family he has every known is either so distant in his mind that he probably could never return to them or doomed to die beside him, every friend hes made is either essentially dead now or an immortal being entirely detached simply by their nature all except for Ryan Fucking Bergara. the professor is so so so deeply alone it is heartaching his story is a tragedy drizzled with his own hubris and lit aflame by his own shitty luck.

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Pov me when my autism

when i say “that reminds me” & theres zero connection you just have to take my word for it theres no time to explain

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I love the implication that when Ryan and the Professor are not trying to strangle each other’s throats, Ryan gives him rides home from Watcher HQ. Like imagine, if you will, the Professor sitting in a lil booster seat in Ryan’s passenger side, sipping on a bottle of Bug Juice, singing at the top of his little puppet lungs to Doja Cat while Ryan wastes away in rush hour traffic.

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It gives roblox

Wow! Elon Musk introduces tiered check system to Twitter

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The saddest meal Steve ever ate was after his ma’s death in 1936. He returned home from the hospital to their empty apartment, body heavy and brain oddly quiet as he stared at the place she used to stand by the stove, eyes twinkling as she let Steve ramble on about his schooldays, knees on the chair and hands flying expressively, because she was really one of the only ones he felt like he could be loud around. It hurts now, looking at the stove. The place where she used to make meals that could warm his heart and soothe his soul even after the worst days. The place where she’d guide his hands over the sticky dough of soda bread before letting him put it in the oven. The place where she’d taught him a million life lessons and where she’d been unwaveringly present as he tried to find himself in an unforgiving world.

He finds himself moving towards the stove now, poking through the barren ice box and pantries until he found the means to make a simple cabbage stew. He wasn’t much of a cook, but he’d watched her enough times to figure it out on his own. 

Somehow still, the soup turned out watery and tasteless. Mushy and awful as he spooned it into his mouth and how could he think he could recreate it like she did? How could he think he could foster any sort of home without her here. 

Pushing his bowl away, the weight of the last few days– hell the last few months– seems to hit him. His ma is gone. She’s dead. She’s never going to come back.

He’s alone. He’s wholly, irrevocably alone. 

Putting his head on his arms, he lets himself weep. Lets himself feel the heavy weight of the family he no longer has. He weeps until he’s heaving, sobs pouring out of him one after the other. The kind that makes his ribs ache and lungs wheeze, but fuck, it feels good. The pain feels good. Whole and tangible and more real than he’s felt since the moment his ma took her last breath and–

A knock at the door makes him jump. He stops crying for a moment, holding his breath as he listens without raising his head from his arms.  

“Stevie?” Fuck. It’s Bucky. Of fucking course it’s Bucky. “It’s me, pal, can ya let me in?” 

Lifting his head, Steve looks at the door, ears ringing as blood seems to roar in his ears. There’s a muttered curse from the other side of the door, then some rustling and the sound of a brick being moved out of the way. Shit, the extra key. A moment later, the lock is turning and Bucky is easing open the door, poking his head in. They make eye contact and Steve tries not to think about how awful he must look, puffy faced and red-eyed and utterly fucking torn open. The soup in front of him is cold and pungent now. He looks away, ears burning in shame. 

Bucky comes in all the way, closing the door behind him. He doesn’t say anything about the soup or the tears, just smiles, lopsided and sad. 

“My ma made casserole,” he says, holding up a dish. “We thought I should bring you some.” Steve stares at the glass top of the dish, clouded in steam. It smells fantastic; Winnie never failed to make absolutely delicious casseroles. “You up for some? If not, I can put it in the icebox. Reheats real nice in the oven.”

Steve doesn’t think he can muster words, so he just shrugs. He doesn’t know what he’s up for right now. What he wants. What he needs. Bucky takes this in stride, though, like he does everything. Easy. Without judgement. 

“No worries,” he says. “Why don’t I leave it on the counter for a bit, and if you’re not in the mood, we can put it in the ice box later?” 

He doesn’t wait for an answer as he places the dish down on the counter. Instead, he moves to start putting the soup in a storage container, not throwing it away despite it’s clear lack of edibility, because he knows Steve. Knows him bone deep. Knows the soup isn’t even really about the soup, but something so much more. 

Without needing to ask, he doesn’t take the bowl of soup away from Steve. Not yet. As much as it feels like he’s lost his whole family, he hasn’t. He’s always known family is deeper than blood, but as he watches Bucky rummage through his pantries and start sorting things out without Steve needing to ask, he realizes he isn’t alone. Not really. 

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I'm just like this

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The fact cap says ‘on va voir’ to Batroc is the antithesis of the stereotypical American Warrior. A different director would have had him respond ‘I don’t speak asshole’ verbatim but that’s never been who cap is. So much of the brilliance of Captain America is the dichotomy between how the government pushes the cap image of the quasi colonial republican propaganda machine and Steve’s gentle nature, liberalism, respect for all peoples, and complete ambivalence about America, in this essay I will…

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Yes give Steve the recognition he deserves

Steve Rogers is Not a Himbo

I always find it odd when people refer to Steve as a “himbo” or make jokes about him being a “dumb jock” or whatever. I just… don’t know where that comes from?

 In canon, Steve is really smart. It’s not just that he’s a “tactical genius”, we see over and over that he has great deductive skills, he’s observant, thoughtful, and knowledgeable, and he’s excellent at quickly assessing situations/people and figuring out a course of action based on that. Just a few examples off the top of my head:

CATFA:

manages to infiltrate a HYDRA stronghold, take it down, and save several hundred prisoners, BY HIMSELF

leads an elite team of five people to successfully take out more HYDRA bases

after the ice, he wakes up in a strange place and immediately figures out that it’s not New York and that the woman there is lying to him

The Avengers:

figures out Loki’s plan to use Stark Tower at the same time as Tony

finds SHIELD’s stash of HYDRA weapons (before Tony is able to find out what SHIELD is hiding)

makes pretty much all the leadership decisions during the Battle of New York, including the timing of when to close the portal 

CATWS:

realizes that something hinky is going on with SHIELD, and connects it to the helicarrier project (which Fury hadn’t done)

is able to successfully figure out who can be trusted and who can’t (when even Fury put his trust in the wrong people)

realizes that the ambush in the elevator is going to happen before it does

figures out where the secret HYDRA bunker is at Camp Lehigh

comes up with the (ultimately successful) plan to take down the helicarriers

CACW

is the only person we see actually READ THE ACCORDS and make his decision based on that

figures out how to dismantle the Iron Man suit enough that Tony won’t be able to keep fighting

rescues his friends from the Raft, one of the most secure prisons in the world

I think maybe people confuse Steve’s rashness with stupidity, but… Tony Stark is arguably more rash than Steve, and no one argues that he’s not a genius. Steve doesn’t have a strong sense of self-preservation, and he tends to take risks– but his risks generally pay off, and when he does make a mistake, it’s usually because he’s in the grip of strong emotion (like when Rumlow mentions Bucky in CACW,). I think perhaps it’s easy to overlook Steve’s intelligence because it’s less flashy than some of the other characters’, and perhaps because he’s not an inventor or a scientist. But he is, in fact, extremely intelligent, and I think that deserves to be acknowledged a bit more often.

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I love trans people

I love trans women, trans men, transfems, transmascs, non-binary people, agender people, genderfluid people, multigender people, transsexuals, trans intersex people, gnc trans people, trans people of color, religious trans people, disabled trans people, dysphoric trans people, nondysphoric trans people, everyone under the transgender umbrella

You have the right to express yourself the way you see fit.

You have the right to take up space wherever you feel like

You have the right to speak on issues that affect you

You have the right to tell people you’re trans, or to wait to tell people. No one should be outed against their will

You have the right to get any medical procedures you want/need

And transphobes, exorsexists, Exclusionists, infighters, and anyone who feels like they should decide your identity for you or exclude you from their space has the right to shut the fuck up :)

Even so, love trans people more than you hate transphobes

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and the mcu breaks it’s 14 year streak of being 100% horny free with just a few minutes of matt murdock

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“ghost files will return 2023” like we’re in the mcu

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shane knows what the people really want to see a ghost do