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Look, as much as I hate what the game did to Ely--I love her friendship with Aponia so much. I love that Elysia more or less saved Aponia from herself, from sinking into the depths of her guilt and despair. I love that she made Aponia feel human.

I’m just saddened that the chapters just. Jerked Elysia’s character off so hard that it basically pulled what a certain series that will not be named did to many characters I adore.

#looks at so many characters from said series #;;Time. [OOC] #You all deserve better and MHY needs to stop dropping the ball #'But Kev trailer' #'I love Kevin and his content but I don't want him bastardized just to get content'

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blackonslaughts​:

“ Geez. Again with this crap? Why can’t you people just mind your own damn business already, huh? ”

It was nostalgic, comforting, in an odd way, being nagged like this. 

For just a moment, it almost felt like how it was during those days before his life went to shit and he and his siblings lived with the sisters. Back when he was an ignorant little brat he just thought they were all nothing but a pain in the ass and constantly got in his case for no reason but having grown up some, he realizes now that they were all only so strict with him because they cared about him just like this lady and her friend who stitched his bloody, half-dead ass up earlier cared right now. Ragna doesn’t know why they even care so much but…it really didn’t feel all that bad having someone actually give a shit about him for once. Even if they were total strangers. But that’s all the more reason why he needs to hurry up and get going ASAP. He’s got enough bad dreams haunting him and the last thing he wanted was to drag any more decent people getting dragged into his bullshit. Shaking his head to cast off the warm temptation to stay in bed, Ragna ignores her warnings and growls and grunts and strains against the numerous injuries riddled along his body, pulling himself up out of the bed at an agonizingly slow pace even as he felt the unmistakable startings of stitches beginning to tear. 

“ Listen…. I appreciate the concern, lady, but I’ve got… too much shit to do to just sit around lying in a bed all day. ” He practically snarls, looking almost like some feral animal as his glaring emerald and crimson eyes began to lose their focus from the pain and sweat crowned his forehead, “ So if you know what’s good for you, just…turn around…step out of the room…, and stay the HELL OUT OF MY WAY!”

“ “Please” settle down.”

The words are like magic. Her gentle, honey-like voice invades his senses and robbing his exhausted body of whatever fight it had left in it. As much as Ragna wants to tell her to screw off and go back to following his own his self-destructive inclinations as he would anyone else, for some reason, the man just just couldn’t muster up the will to do anything but OBEY her instructions now. Gradually his muscles untensed, his harsh expression softened, and he carefully lies back down taking great care not to cause anymore damage to himself as he does so. 

“ Have it your way.” He mutters like a sullen child,  “Just…don’t go and say I didn’t warn you if anything happens. ”

Hurtful words, harsh ones at that--They aren’t the worst that she has ever heard. In fact, they were remarkably polite in stark comparison to the ever crass and rage-filled Kalpas. His pain and anger were not lost on her, how could they be when he had lost his home and those who grew alongside? Aponia’s heart went out to him, to the lives lost in the near impact that had struck the area near the church where he had resided. 

It reminded her of where she had once kept others in her care, and judging by the bandaging on his arm--He may not be so different. 

She’ll refrain from bestowing any lasting Discipline upon their newest patient for the time being, the MANTIS was more than aware of the effects that it could have. That it made more than just a few feel uncomfortable even when she exerted this minor level of it in an effort to calm the rowdier patients.

“To continue you as you are, you will break. You will not save yourself, let alone avenge anyone.”

Aponia’s voice is soft in a way that belies his words, and yet the soothing air to her is undeniable. Gently, she wheels over a nearby cart full of medical supplies including Honkai energy suppressants and inhibitors to redress his currently much aggravated injuries. Though his stitches have not torn thanks to Su’s skilled handiwork and they need not redo them--She should at least clean them and use a fresh roll of bandages.

The MOTHs can afford this much.

“The care that this facility can offer you is different than those of others, the effects of your condition can at the very least be mitigated. I can assure you of that.”

#MOOD TBH #;;I failed to change anything. I failed to save anyone. These are my sins; This is my destiny. I won't run away from it. [IC] #blackonslaughts #JUST GOD PREVIOUS ERA IS ENDLESS SUFFERING

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Never forget: Even if Aponia knew fate cannot be changed, no one fought against it harder than she did.

#Except Kevin probably #;;Time. [OOC]

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@blackonslaughts replied with:

Indeed. I'm so glad that her efforts in caring for people were rewarded and she got to live a long happy life.

looks at the gif set I just posted

#Aponia's life is the living definition of 'good job breaking it hero' #;;Time. [OOC] #blackonslaughts

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I failed to change anything.

Personals & Non-Roleplay blogs, do not reblog.

#;;Song of perdition: I know my sin; And my sin precedes me. [Visage] #SOBS #;;Kae and Photoshop

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Say what you want about Aponia, but you cannot say she didn’t care about those who she placed in her protection

#;;Time. [OOC]

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@blackonslaughts​ 

“...You will hurt yourself further if you continue to struggle in such a way.”

Aponia’s voice carries a strong sense of scolding as she looks upon the bleeding patient currently in her care. Exhaling softly, she finally decides it best to exert her abilities, whether he likes it or not. After all, any more struggling...and those new stitches that Su so painstakingly took the time to create would tear, and the wound widen.

“ “Please” settle down.”

He won’t be able to struggle against those words, he would only be able to obey at the end of the day, upon hearing the Flamechaser’s voice.

#LOOK #APONIA CAN LITERALLY TELL YOU TO JUMP AND THE PERSON WILL HAVE NO CHOICE #blackonslaughts #U wanted Honkai verse things #I raise you that Ragna was from the Previous Era which would #technically fit considering #stares at Bloodedge #;;I failed to change anything. I failed to save anyone. These are my sins; This is my destiny. I won't run away from it. [IC]

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Super Scription of Data - Eiko Shimamiya

Anime: Higurashi no Naku Koro ni Rei

#;;Song of perdition: I know my sin; And my sin precedes me. [Musings]

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photography by astrovas

#;;At this point; My dreams and reality have switched places. [Aesthetic]

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With how god awful Kev’s fate already is in itself, Aponia has more or less refrained from exercising her powers on him. She feels that the man is already firmly shackled by destiny’s chains, exerting her ability would just be plain cruelty.

DO NOT USE, MODIFY, COPY, OR REBLOG.

#Discipline will help you overcome your fears and raise your willpower to survive. [Headcanon]

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They say even the proudest spirit can be broken with love.

#;;Song of perdition: I know my sin; And my sin precedes me. [Musings]

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Starter call, cap at 4?

They’ll either be pre-MANTIS, during the war, or in the Elysian Realm. Specify muse in the replies if you’re a multi, and specify preference if you have one as well.

#;;Time. [OOC]

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#;;Song of perdition: I know my sin; And my sin precedes me. [Musings]

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Suddenly, the futures that should’ve shone brightly are ground away.

rp blog for aponia of honkai impact 3rd indie. private. selective. beloved by kaerene

please reblog to help this get around, likes are appreciated but will do nothing.

PERSONALS AKA NON-RP BLOGS, DO NOT INTERACT WITH THIS POST. YOU WILL BE BLOCKED ON SIGHT.

#;;Where does it all start and end? [Promo]

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It appears to be a bit...lively tonight. While it’s not entirely a bad thing, she does hope that you’ll all stay in line lest she be forced to step in.

#;;I failed to change anything. I failed to save anyone. These are my sins; This is my destiny. I won't run away from it. [IC]

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Verses being added/available for interactions in:

Arknights 

Assassin’s Creed

Default (ER realm or Previous Era)

Granblue Fantasy

Type-Moon, by that extension FGO but as a staff member

#;;Time. [OOC]

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You've got the words to change a nation, but you're biting your tongue.

Professor Green, Read All About It

#;;Song of perdition: I know my sin; And my sin precedes me. [Musings]