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anyone wanna be my friends 🥺 i don’t have really have aNy 🥺🥺🥺

1. i kinda like to do art

2. i have a bunch of random mini talents like knitting

3. with this quarantine, i’m on my phone a lot so i reply quickly

4. i’m a huge lesbian

5. i’m an iDioT

pls be my friend 🥺

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when you delete literally all of your calorie tracking and fast tracking apps in a long long spit of recovery but then coronavirus cancels school which is the only thing that keeps you happy, connected to friends, and distracted from your own thoughts. so now your friends aren’t contacting you and you have nothing to do and you have to isolate yourself which is the biggest thing to bring your depression to an all time high and because of your terrible depression, your insomnia comes back (it only comes back when i get bad) and so you’re just trying to make it through each day without relapsing in sh or your ed but then you spend too much time on tik tok looking at pretty girls that you remember the reason you don’t have a gf is cause you’re fat so you redownload Life 🙃 aha

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lol i said i had to recover because i’ve started having health issues linked to ed’s but now i’m at 125 and legit abt to lose my shit sO oh whale

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am i relapsing? that’s a secret i’ll never tell! xoxo fat bitch

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no one:

my tik tok feed: eD trigger warning!! here is a vid of someone way skinner than youuuu :)) hope you enjoy,,, oH, you crying cause you’re fat now? oopsie poopsie

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okay i really doubt anyone will answer but has anyone here experienced like a random bout of really really bad lower abdominal pain like not period cramps or stomach ache, and gotten incredibly nauseous at the same time? my period isn’t for three weeks so i know it’s not that

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Reblog if you feel like a fat worthless ugly whore. Who also self harmed today.

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hAhA imagine being aNoRexiC i cOuLdN’T bE mE, I eat w a y t o o m u c h 😛😛😛

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📺Vintage Thinspo📺

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Me logging back into ED tumblr after spending a month binging and calling it “recovery”

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Black Thinspo, by request!

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ribspo for anon ✨🍵

[Dm me for removal]

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Things I wish people understood about eating disorders:

1. Most people with eating disorders don’t literally starve themselves, they restrict. Just because you see us eating doesn’t mean we’re getting better.

2. The horrible, absolutely torturous feeling we get after we eat. No matter what it is, how many Calories… it’s always there.

3. You. Don’t. Have. To. Be. Thin. To. Have. An. Eating. Disorder. God someone needs to scream this one from the top of a building.

4. It’s life consuming. Food is always on my mind.

What I’ll eat next, when I’ll eat next, how I’ll burn it off

5. I can’t just ‘snap out of it’ and I can’t ‘just eat’

These are two of the worst things you can say.

6. I understand what my disorder is doing to me mentally and physically, believe me I do.

♡

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mental illness in a nutshell

literally anyone: are you ok?

me: you mean like your standards ok or my standards ok

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honestly birthdays were so easy when i was younger like i just wanted toys and stuff like that but now? my parents r like “wht do u want” and im just like??? some self esteem?? emotional stability?? a hobby??