13thwitch

[13thwitch]

If anyone needs me today, I’ll be going feral over this

#playlist. #(i'm! never over this. thanks. hey ani are you gonna go insane abt every version of this song & how it applies to rowan? SURE AM.)

[13thwitch]

thinking about Her (rowan fielding the love of my life the light of my days) and i think she should get to kill god.

#(am i planning a bg3 verse for her? yes. is she a bhaalspawn but not THEE bhaalspawn? yes.) #ooc. #(love u miss u i'm mostly at softersinned but i just. god. shakes her between my teeth like a chew toy. i love her.)

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"Dr. Fielding." The correction is instinctual, discomfort at both the wrong name and the wrong title making itself known, and Rowan rolls her lower lip into her mouth, worries it between her teeth. The dismissal in his words makes her seethe, and she closes her eyes against the all-too-familiar fury and fear that warns that she's reached her limit. She wants to ask him if he's really such a bastard that a terrified woman begging for his help truly inspires nothing but disdain, or if it's that he just hates women, or hates witches. Instead, she takes in a measured breath and says, pitching her voice just loudly enough to be overheard—

—"Well, I don't know. Lasher's the father. Do you think a standard abortion would take?" And then she lowers her voice again, leans closer to Matthew Clairmont to hiss, "I don't need an obstetrician. I need a geneticist, and one who's going to be able to tell me why this happened, and how I can stop it from ever happening again."

There is a near-hysterical edge to her voice and she tries to tamp it down, closes her eyes for another few beats before she looks back at him. "He's going to come after me again. My family won't help me. None of the vampires in New Orleans will cross the Mayfair witches. If I had anywhere else to go, I would, but I have to throw myself at the mercy of a complete stranger because there is nothing else that I can do."

She clears her throat, tries for some sense of confidence, of power, but it's entirely out of her grasp. "At the very least, I'm a medical mystery. Please, Dr. Clairmont. I can't solve this on my own."

" Greta, thank you. " The dissonance is unexpected; a myriad of noises like tree branches, overgrown, coiled limbs, impossible to recognize or work out. And Matthew breathes in, once. Only once, and lingers in the scents that follow, grasping nothing but the chaos already before him. A witch seeking a vampire. A Mayfair witch, on top of everything. ( A witch with a child. )

" My associate is correct, Miss Mayfair. " The blue of her eyes catches like steel in the sun, a blinding, hypnotizing sight — another gift of her lineage, coupled with her singing blood. Only a human would be ignorant enough not to recognize her as anything other than otherworldly, anything other than a creature.

She was impossibly loud.

And for a brief moment, just before he dismisses her too along with the rest of his staff, the vampire indulges in the fragrance of her panic, in the way her anger sharpens his already intense fixation. A terrible pull, a familiar gaping maw. Nothing good ever waited there. 

He forces it down.

" This is a lab, not a clinic. We do not accept walk-ins. " Matthew's voice remains flat before he runs a hand through his hair, and turns in a rush. More than ready to leave her side. " There's a health center two blocks away, with an excellent obstetrician. Give them a try. "

#declermont #thread: declermont001

[13thwitch]

@declermont / plotted starter.

A nonstop flight between New Orleans and London is nearly nine hours. The Mayfair fortune means she can afford to fly first class, which grants her some measure of comfort, but all the comfort in the world couldn't soothe her restlessness. She chews the inside of her cheek until she tastes copper on her tongue. The metallic sweetness of her own blood makes her feel ill, but at least it's not as sickening as thinking about what she's running from, and why.

And then from London it's the train to Oxford, and then the cab to the university, nursing a bottle of tepid water and trying to ignore the gnawing hunger creeping up through her abdomen and into her chest, her throat, to sit at her tongue. And then from the university she has to walk to the lab, and then she has to stand there, duffel bag slung over her shoulder, the hand holding her water bottle shaking, while she argues with a very polite but firm woman who explains that no, she can't simply walk into the building without an appointment, all while trying to stay upright—

The scent of cinnamon and clove hits her without warning and she closes her eyes and takes in several shallow breaths; the world spins around her, the combination of travel and stress and her condition making her unsteady and uncomfortable in equal measure. When she opens her eyes it's to the sight of a man, tall and broad-shouldered, lovely in a way that makes her uneasy and reminds her, all too clearly, of Lasher.

That must make him Matthew Clairmont. And here she thought she was done with vampires.

"Dr. Clairmont." She clears her throat, takes a quick drink of her water, tries not to feel self-conscious for the way her hair hangs, limp and greasy, around her face (she hasn't showered yet, hasn't checked into a hotel, hasn't done anything but try to reach him) or the sweat glistening on her brow. There is very little of her mind that isn't consumed by anger and grief and fear and sorrow and the sickness of memory, but the corner that is free hates him on sight, as though her insecurity, her piteousness, were his fault.

"I'm Rowan Fielding." And then the rest of the name tumbles out of her; people do things for her that they wouldn't otherwise when they know that part of who she is. "Rowan Mayfair. I need your help. I really need your help."

#declermont #thread: declermont001 #(ohoho)

[13thwitch]

hello !! overdue but general semi-hiatus notice; i'm in my september funk and don't have much brainpower for writing atm. i am using this time to instead work on moving the multi & this blog - after two years at both & with the changes made to saved tags, this seems like the best option all around. available to plot; add me on disco @ themoonandthemagic (just message me here to tell me who you are); kiss your pets on the forehead and tell them i love them!

[13thwitch]

#playlist. #inspiration. #(GOD. GOD. GOD.)

[13thwitch]

i am perpetually struggling with what to do with the lasher baby. i do think that, if the pregnancy had gone at a normal pace, she would have terminated it; as much as i think she'd have loved having a child with ciprien, and as much as i think she'd love to be a mother, she would not feel safe having a child so long as lasher exists in the world, especially a daughter.

and i'm comfortable with my canon divergence starting here, because i don't think that rowan would love or accept that child as her own. the way she sees it, lasher took her choice away from her on every level: she could not choose to begin a relationship with cip, but was rather influenced into it through lasher's thrall; she could not choose to leave the family or lasher, because she was manipulated to call on him again because of what he'd done to tessa; she could not choose to have sex with lasher, because all of this happened in a vision that he created and that he controlled while she was dying in the woods and her body was being moved and manipulated while she was unconscious; she could not choose to keep or end her pregnancy.

i think she hates that baby. i think she loathes that baby with everything in her. she can't, won't give the baby to someone else, because she cannot trust that what she wants will be done, and she knows that lasher needs to die. for all the jokes i've cracked about her committing infanticide, i don't know if she could stomach killing him while he's still so little, but i think she also knows that she doesn't stand much of a chance when he's fully grown. and the fact that being a mother, having the family she wanted is being perverted into this? it horrifies her, it sickens her, and she does mourn what could have been, the pregnancy she might have had with ciprien. there's a lot of grief tied up in this. and she does still love and trust ciprien, but she does not trust the talamasca, and she knows that this is something else lasher's taken away from her: her first real love, her only real love.

i'm leaning towards rowan intentionally pushing herself constantly, in the hopes that she'll lose control and her magic will kill child-lasher the way she killed lemle and almost killed keck. after all the choices taken away from her, she resents that this choice isn't, and that she has to make a choice that feels so horrifying to her, and she wants to be able to absolve herself of responsibility for it when it happens. (can anyone blame her?) she will never love this child. she will never consider this child her son. she will never call herself his mother. if anyone makes the assumption she doesn't bother correcting it, because what the fuck could she say to that? but it makes her feel sick.

#about. #lasher. #it's not an act of love if you make her. ( lasher x rowan ) #tw: rape #tw: abuse #tw: forced pregnancy #tw: forced birth

[13thwitch]

“Wood Works” (April 2019)

#aesthetic.

[13thwitch]

Alexandra Daddario as Rowan Fielding in Anne Rice’s Mayfair Witches

#images. #(she's everything 2 me)

[13thwitch]

&. 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐬.

( this is basically just a very self indulgent list of various fluff, angst, and suggestive themed dialogue sentence starters. )

❛ i could keep you safe. they’re all afraid of me. ❜

❛ i’m trying to fix your hair, so hold still. ❜

❛ your heart is beating so fast right now. ❜

❛ promise me you’ll still be here when i wake up. ❜

❛ you’re not as bad as everyone says you are. ❜

❛ i thought you’d like some company. ❜ 

❛ clean yourself up. you're getting blood all over the place. ❜

❛ here, give this a try and tell me what you think. ❜

❛ you can kiss me, you know. ❜

❛ come back to bed. ❜

❛ you look good like this. ❜

❛ working together again, it’s just like old times. ❜

❛ how is it you always know what i need, huh? ❜

❛ you’re lucky you got away with only a scratch. ❜ 

❛ i can’t imagine losing someone like that. i’m sorry. ❜

❛ you know you can always talk to me. ❜

❛ the only one who gets to kill you, is me. ❜

❛ so, what do i owe this pleasure? ❜

❛ ah, so you aren’t heartless after all. ❜

❛ may i have this dance? ❜ 

❛ it’s okay, you can touch me. i won't break. ❜

❛ enemies make the best lovers, you know. ❜

❛ hold still. this might sting a little. ❜

❛ we can't keep doing this. ❜ 

❛ you look like you've got something to say. ❜

❛ just relax and let me take care of you. ❜

❛ thought you’d be lighter without all that blood. ❜

❛ i had it under control. you didn’t need to do that. ❜

❛ everything looks so beautiful from up here. ❜

❛ you treat all your ladies like this? ❜

❛ well? how do i look? ❜

❛ can’t sleep? ❜

❛ do you mind if i smoke? ❜

❛ i’m scared of ending up alone. ❜

❛ i don’t think i’ve ever seen you smile. ❜

❛ how long has it been since you've slept? ❜

❛ you are losing my interest, and that’s very dangerous. ❜

❛ i’d suffer hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight. ❜

❛ you look really pretty right now. ❜

❛ i’ve never cared for anyone the way i care for you. ❜

❛ i’m not wearing any underwear. thought you’d like to know. ❜

❛ just a few more stitches and you’ll be as good as new. ❜

❛ i’d say we make a pretty good team. ❜

❛ i want you to forget this ever happened. ❜

❛ i'm here for business — not pleasure. ❜

❛ if i didn't know any better, i'd say you were jealous. ❜

❛ you'd look better down on your knees. ❜

❛ fine, keep acting like you hate me. ❜

❛ kiss me again. ❜

❛ are you asking me out on a date? ❜

❛ just sit there and look pretty and let me handle this. ❜

❛ you okay? caught you staring off into space again. ❜

❛ well, i do feel better now that you're here. ❜

❛ i'm not drunk enough for this. ❜ 

❛ why is it whenever we see each other, you’re covered in blood? ❜

❛ i was wrong about you. ❜ 

❛ the first time i met you, i had no idea you'd mean this much. ❜

❛ you gonna be a good girl / boy for me? ❜

❛ i’m not afraid of you. ❜

❛ books mean more to me than people anyway. ❜

❛ i just wanted to say thank you for protecting me. ❜

❛ how about a kiss goodnight? ❜

❛ i don’t have time for distractions right now. ❜

❛ you shouldn’t be out here by yourself. ❜ 

❛ if i have to think about one more thing today, my head will explode. ❜

#meme. #(staring @ mara)

[13thwitch]

I'm the one who ruined me: I did it myself

No Longer Human // Ask Polly: Help, I'm The Loneliest Person In The World! // Franz Kafka // Sue Zhao // Fingertips - Fortesa Latifi // Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoevsky // Juansen Dizon // The Garden of Eden - Ernest Hemingway // On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous - Ocean Vuong

#inspiration.

[13thwitch]

god of war: ragnarok starters

may contain spoilers !

❝ trust? you have broken my trust. ❞ ❝ you seemed troubled in your sleep, even for you. nightmares? ❞   ❝ if you’re not fighting dirty, you’re not fighting, right? ❞   ❝ the worst is still ahead of us. we must be strong. ❞   ❝ it’s times like this i really miss home. ❞ ❝ you must live with your deeds, but do not be troubled by them. ❞ ❝ you don’t strike me as someone who fears death. ❞ ❝ that is not who i am anymore. ❞   ❝ the problem doesn’t have to reach our doorstop to be our responsibility. ❞   ❝ please don’t make me do this. ❞   ❝ the storm is getting worse. ❞   ❝ i’d offer you a hug, but why traumatise either of us further. ❞   ❝ whatever anger you’re feeling, whatever loathing toward me…it’s nothing to what i’ve said to myself. ❞   ❝ i know the hate that burns you from within. i’ve felt those flames…known the comfort of their warmth. ❞   ❝ i do not need you to protect me. ❞   ❝ be glad you have a home to remember fondly. ❞   ❝ you’ve come a long way since i first met you. ❞   ❝ the pain only grows. will i ever be free of it? ❞ ❝ i need you…i can’t do this by myself. ❞   ❝ got a case of pride, i get it. hope yours clears up quicker than mine did. ❞   ❝ you were given an impossible problem. do not blame yourself for failing to solve it. ❞ ❝ you speak of your deeds with shame. ❞ ❝ i wronged you. and i cannot change that…and can never apologise enough for it. ❞   ❝ we do not know what lies ahead. i wish to enjoy the time we have left. ❞   ❝ there is no need to shoulder this burden on your own. ❞   ❝ i suppose that’s all any of us can hope for in the end. that our death has purpose. ❞   ❝ i don’t need to hear about your mistakes. i’ve made enough of my own, thanks. ❞   ❝ some free advice? you don’t want to let anyone catch you talking to your sword. ❞   ❝ you reek of cheap mead and that is by far your most endearing characteristic. ❞   ❝ i expected you to come and find me. that no matter how hurt or angry, you wouldn’t abandon me when i needed you the most. ❞   ❝ you started this fight — i will end it. ❞   ❝ you don’t have to do this kinda stuff just to keep my mind off things. ❞   ❝ could i ever think of this place as home again? after all that’s happened? ❞   ❝ all too often, people are blinded to all but their immediate self-interest. ❞ ❝ not exactly a calming presence, are you? ❞ ❝ know that all reigns end, and all empires fall. ❞ ❝ do not doubt the lengths i will go to. ❞ ❝ so much as been taken from me and i’m supposed to let it all go? ❞   ❝ if you don’t think i could lead us, just say so. ❞ ❝ i’m not saying anything you haven’t thought. ❞ ❝ there’s no making this right, is there? ❞ ❝ love should be—could be—stronger than hatred. ❞ ❝ it seems to me we share a common enemy. ❞ ❝ i know how bad it can get with one’s own kin. ❞ ❝ seems the only thing i can do right these days is destroy everything around me. ❞ ❝ i am haunted by your incompetence. it keeps me up at night. ❞ ❝ so i’m not allowed to give you a nickname? ❞ ❝ oooh, getting nosey. getting personal. ❞ ❝ that’s the most dangerous and irresponsible thing i’ve ever heard. ❞ ❝ i haven’t given up hope on you. ❞ ❝ i had hoped my days of ceaseless battles were over. ❞ ❝ to grieve deeply is to love fully. ❞ ❝ the truth is always more complicated. to imagine it’s simple is dangerous. ❞   ❝ you’re a killer, just like your father. ❞ ❝ you think you just get to walk away? ❞   ❝ uh…someone’ll clean that up. ❞ ❝ i dont know if we’re breaking fate, or fate’s breaking us. ❞ ❝ how can you, of anyone alive, be squeamish about war? ❞ ❝ oh, wow…that’s quite the compliment. ❞ ❝ i grow tired of your lack of empathy. ❞ ❝ to abandon a poisonous path and walk another is no small challenge. ❞   ❝ can i get you a water or something? ❞ ❝ confronting the past comes with a price. ❞ ❝ i want things to be the way they were. ❞ ❝ being in love’s always a risk. that’s what makes it fun. ❞ ❝ i was always fond of our talks, you know. ❞ ❝ curiosity’s all well and good…but so’s privacy, yes? ❞ ❝ whatever you ask, consider it done. i am forever in your debt. ❞ ❝ what’s the biggest thing you’ve ever fought? ❞ ❝ so…was this all that you hoped for? ❞ ❝ the closer we get, the more tightness grows in my chest. ❞ ❝ your path leads to countless deaths. unimaginable pain and suffering. ❞ ❝ can’t you take a joke, you old goat? ❞ ❝ everyone takes it easy on you because they’re scared of your father. ❞ ❝ that’s family.    you got to keep them close where they can make you good and crazy. ❞ ❝ maybe, for the moment, you’re of more use to me alive. ❞ ❝ look at the ruins before you and understand the truth: this was your doing. ❞ ❝ forgive me. my words were chosen carelessly. ❞ ❝ my success does not come from luck. ❞ ❝ just shut up and drink. ❞ ❝ no matter the size, every creature has a weakness. ❞ ❝ sometimes we never really know the ones we love. ❞ ❝ tell me about your homeland. ❞ ❝ leadership? not really my strong suit, let’s be honest. ❞ ❝ what am i gonna do, walk around with a bandage on my head, begging for attention? ❞ ❝ why are you so bent on hurting me like this? i’ve done nothing to you. ❞ ❝ you seem like a calm and reasonable person.      are you a calm and reasonable person? ❞ ❝ i’ve seen my fair share of bloodshed, but this is an awful lot for one morning. ❞ ❝ if you’re planning on killing me, at least let me finish this song. ❞ ❝ everywhere i look, i am reminded of my mistakes. ❞ ❝ i have seen many lands. many realms. i can tell you with some certainty: no such paradise exists. ❞ ❝ do something about it or shut up already. ❞ ❝ breaking tension with humour is the sacred duty of a travelling companion. ❞ ❝ forgiveness can be powerful. even for the unworthy. ❞ ❝ you have no idea the kind of shit i’ve been through. ❞ ❝ our actions have consequences. to be reminded of them is not a punishment. ❞ ❝ take the hint. go away. ❞ ❝ something is on your mind. what is it? ❞ ❝ what a twisted little soul you have. ❞ ❝ your eyes say everything. ❞ ❝ me and you against the world, huh? just like the old days. ❞ ❝ there is no making things right. only better than they were. ❞ ❝ without me? i thought we were partners. ❞ ❝ this will end in blood. the only question that remains is which side is willing to spill more. ❞ ❝ i have lost myself before. more than once. ❞ ❝ you cannot sneak up on me like that. ❞ ❝ is it always moral to kill something that’s trying to kill you? ❞ ❝ we’ve gotta be more than a bunch of stories with our endings already written. ❞ ❝ the smell is making my eyes burn. ❞ ❝ you are staring… ❞ ❝ even the brightest among us carry darkness. ❞ ❝ anyone ever tell you that you babble when you’re terrified? ❞ ❝ every path i walk…leads back to vengeance. ❞ ❝ maybe our families are just meant to be enemies. ❞ ❝ i know how it feels…to lose a parent. ❞ ❝ your love of this place…i can feel it. anyone can. ❞ ❝ what you can do is get the fuck out of my sight. ❞ ❝ it was stupid of me to hope in the first place. ❞ ❝ is that regret in your voice? ❞ ❝ there are things even gods cannot control. ❞ ❝ you don’t care about anyone beyond yourself. ❞ ❝ say something. i enjoy hearing your voice. ❞ ❝ does it frighten you? that is why you must do it. ❞ ❝ the dumb doesn’t fall far from the tree. ❞ ❝ you’re quite agitated, even for you. ❞ ❝ ain’t you never seen a legend in the flesh before? ❞ ❝ you are one of the few i would call a ‘friend’. ❞ ❝ this place is kinda pretty, when things aren’t trying to kill us. ❞ ❝ i find the hues and shades of your shortcomings almost moving. ❞ ❝ i still might kill you when this is over. ❞ ❝ i wish i could do more, i really do. ❞ ❝ do you ever have those moments where you wish you could…go back? rewrite your own past, make different decisions. ❞ ❝ do you want me to stop talking about your muscles? ❞ ❝ you are a formidable warrior, but even more than that, you have a good heart. ❞ ❝ this world takes more strength than it gave me. ❞ ❝ i’m trying to save your life, you big jerk. ❞ ❝ at least something out here doesn’t wanna kill me. ❞ ❝ i’ll just say it. i’m getting a really terrible feeling from this place. ❞ ❝ violence changes us. you are not weak to feel its effects. ❞ ❝ i’ve always loved you, you know. ❞ ❝ what side are you on anyway? ❞ ❝ everything was fine until you showed up. ❞ ❝ i have been…falling back into my old ways. angry. distrustful. ❞ ❝ one day, you will have to survive. without me. ❞ ❝ you don’t have to like me but…we’re gonna have to trust each other. ❞ ❝ you think war drives me? or power? wealth? no. never has. ❞ ❝ and they say i’m the bad guy. ❞ ❝ you feel it in the air, don’t you? the anxiety. ❞ ❝ i’m not being weird, you’re being weird. ❞ ❝ sure you’re up for breaking the rules like this? ❞ ❝ doubt is a weakness we cannot afford. ❞ ❝ mm. i do not like riddles. ❞ ❝ it just seems like a lot for someone your age. ❞ ❝ use the judgement of a man and not of a child. ❞ ❝ so what are we supposed to do? roll over? do nothing? ❞ ❝ war will not give you the purpose you seek. ❞ ❝ nasty hit! are you alright? ❞ ❝ well, glad you survived the first day. ❞ ❝ what do you think? is there a right side in this war? ❞ ❝ didn’t you ever have an awkward phase in your youth? ❞ ❝ you will not find me good company. ❞ ❝ how about we just don’t kill each other? ❞ ❝ what have your promises ever been worth? ❞ ❝ why would you come this way alone? ❞ ❝ leave now, whether you value your life or peace in your death. ❞ ❝ i put you in so much pain. put you in a terrible situation. ❞ ❝ the most difficult battles are fought within. ❞ ❝ it’s not my job to teach you everything. ❞ ❝ thanks for patching me up. ❞ ❝ loss can do things to a man. ❞ ❝ i don’t know why i thought i could do this alone. ❞ ❝ i will do what it takes to keep you safe. ❞ ❝ a desperate creature can be the most dangerous. ❞ ❝ you’re just sharing your thoughts on a subject you know nothing about. ❞ ❝ this isn’t who you want to be. ❞ ❝ i knew this was going too smoothly. ❞ ❝ can one man do this much damage? ❞ ❝ this is your final warning. ❞ ❝ you have a lot of nerve, know that? ❞ ❝ i am counting on you. to be safe. to be smart. ❞ ❝ uh, maybe that’s not a good idea? ❞ ❝ well, that was violent. ❞ ❝ don’t go to too much trouble on my account. ❞ ❝ are you not a soldier? are you not a leader of people? ❞ ❝ just when i thought you couldn’t get even more godly. ❞ ❝ do you wish to speak of what happened? ❞ ❝ you have no hold on me any more. ❞ ❝ have you ever been in love? ❞ ❝ mind if i give you the best advice you’ve heard all day and possibly ever? sleep. ❞ ❝ you’ll have my wise and faithful counsel always. ❞ ❝ look, i just want to do the right thing. ❞ ❝ all i ask for is a good night’s rest. ❞ ❝ you’re angry with me, aren’t you? ❞ ❝ we live in strange times. ❞ ❝ do you hear that? i thought i heard a voice. ❞ ❝ any outsider is considered a threat. ❞ ❝ it is not always wrong to trust people. ❞ ❝ never thought i’d be so relieved to be back here. ❞ ❝ well, we all make mistakes. ❞ ❝ this is the craziest thing i’ve ever done. ❞ ❝ when we get out of here, i’ll give you some space. ❞ ❝ violence cannot prevent violence. ❞ ❝ the truth can be a cruel thing. ❞ ❝ defy your prophecy at your own peril. ❞ ❝ i must say, i think we make a good team. ❞ ❝ where would you even be without me? ❞ ❝ calm your mind. control it. ❞ ❝ you look…weirder than i imagined. ❞ ❝ we must tread carefully. danger is close. ❞ ❝ there are worse things to discover about someone you love. ❞ ❝ i know how it feels to be wronged. ❞ ❝ did you just wake up with the urge to be a pain in my ass? ❞ ❝ is it revenge if justice is served? ❞ ❝ sometimes there is no other way. ❞ ❝ all journeys come to an end. ❞ ❝ you’re the first person that i’ve talked to in a really long time. ❞ ❝ i’ve been waiting my whole life for this moment. ❞ ❝ so…do you forgive me? ❞ ❝ sorry, i’m just really excited to talk to you. ❞ ❝ is there any way to stop fate? ❞ ❝ it would be the first time in a while i have something truly mine. ❞ ❝ the earth is the reflection of those who tend it. ❞ ❝ i have to say. i am profoundly unimpressed. ❞ ❝ i did not come to you for a lecture. ❞ ❝ perhaps there is a measure of monster inside us all. ❞ ❝ i was about to look for you. ❞ ❝ i said we would speak no more of that. ❞ ❝ peace cannot endure without force to protect it. ❞ ❝ what is it you will not tell me? ❞ ❝ where has everyone gone, i wonder? ❞ ❝ i suppose we’re all entitled to walk our own paths. regardless of where they end. ❞ ❝ you are in way over your head. ❞ ❝ so much about that day i wish i could change. ❞ ❝ it is difficult to seek forgiveness when you feel unworthy. ❞ ❝ i don’t recall asking you to come along. ❞ ❝ don’t you know who i am? ❞ ❝ real power does not need to flaunt. it emerges when the time is right. ❞ ❝ i don’t move, you don’t move. don’t do anything you’ll regret. ❞ ❝ sorry we got off on the wrong foot there. ❞ ❝ i meant it when i said you’re not a prisoner here. ❞ ❝ the culmination of love is grief, and still we open our hearts to the inevitable. ❞ ❝ why aren’t we working together? ❞ ❝ maybe together we can take back what’s ours. ❞ ❝ you don’t hear me spreading your business all around town, do you? ❞ ❝ you judge me? you? ❞ ❝ you think i’m being stupid. ❞ ❝ go before i change my mind. ❞ ❝ you deserve nothing but pain. ❞ ❝ always expect the unexpected. ❞ ❝ don’t go telling anyone about that. ❞ ❝ i shouldn’t have listened to you. ❞ ❝ you think my anger is irrational? ❞ ❝ prophecies are slippery by nature. ❞ ❝ seek no quarrel with me, and i’ll have no quarrel with you. ❞ ❝ you’re a destroyer, like me. ❞ ❝ you think i’m trouble? you just met me. ❞ ❝ not sure that makes me feel any better… ❞ ❝ let me see the monster inside. ❞ ❝ i know what you’re doing.     trying to play on my sympathies in the hope i let you live. ❞ ❝ i do not want you to feel alone. ❞ ❝ the mistakes of the past need not be repeated. ❞ ❝ never mind…i shouldn’t have asked. ❞ ❝ i regret many things. killing you will not be one of them. ❞ ❝ do you believe in fate? ❞ ❝ you can’t kill what you can’t catch. ❞ ❝ i just could use some fresh air, is all. ❞ ❝ i told you never to come back here. ❞  

#memes.

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#playlist. #(i think abt her & this song all the time)

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JACK HUSTON and ALEXANDRA DADDARIO as 𝕷𝖆𝖘𝖍𝖊𝖗 & 𝕽𝖔𝖜𝖆𝖓 𝕸𝖆𝖞𝖋𝖆𝖎𝖗 MAYFAIR WITCHES 1.05: THE THRALL.

#images. #lasher. #it's not an act of love if you make her. ( lasher x rowan )

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MAYFAIR WITCHES ↴

The Dark Place  ( 1.02 )

#images. #lasher. #deirdre. #ciprien. #aesthetic.

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the past month has been really incredibly draining and my capacity for creativity has been pretty low. i know i don't need to apologize for, you know, having responsibilities off the internet and treating this hobby like a hobby, but ya girl grew up ✨catholic✨ so she feels unnecessary guilt!

the important things to know:

my astoria blog & vex blogs are still active and i'm regularly trying to keep them up & running and with good activity. my rowan blog is still active, but that remains low-activity, and i'll be there when i'm inspired. my multi is moving, and i've put diana back on my multi.

if we were talking before and i vanished, please message me again. it genuinely slipped my mind with everything. if we were plotting, if it was ooc, doesn't matter. i want to continue our conversation! i just have untreated adhd & a lot of stress so my memory ain't great rn.

i have unfollowed blogs that are inactive, archived, or where we just weren't engaging. if i missed a move announcement, or you do want to write or chat ooc, please nudge me!!! i'd love to engage with all of you and i don't want to miss anybody or anything because my brain's all over the place.

i miss writing. i love writing. astoria is my pride and joy and i have never felt better about her character. and i'm hoping that this time next year i'll be saying the same thing. i turned thirty a week ago and i'm kind of loving it. i got a new tattoo that's really the start of a sleeve. i'm working on some personal projects. it's good. at the same time, as i've said before, i have close family undergoing cancer treatment, and am a part-time caretaker for a grandparent with pretty serious dementia. i'm therapying hard because it's very necessary at the moment. i feel lost in my professional life, i feel lost in my personal life, and there are moments when i feel a little bit like i'm hanging on by a thread.

and overall i'm okay? but the sheer amount of stress i'm constantly under means that my body is starting to feel it. i keep getting sick, i never get enough sleep and when i do finally manage to fall asleep i wake up all the time, my focus is absolutely shot. and like... the truth is just that i'm wiped the fuck out all the time. i'm exhausted. i come on here and manage a couple of sentences and then lose my focus. any cr stuff i've managed is because i'm watching cr constantly and even that takes ages to actually make remotely coherent.

the gist is: i'm working on it. i'm working really hard on it. it's not easy nor is it like, a steady progression anywhere. but i'm working on it !!!

#marianning.

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Indigo, Ellen Bass

#deirdre. #(GOD.) #inspiration.