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skip to yuri

#finally reading the manga and they are so lesbian it makes me want to rip my face off #skip and loafer #sooo so good

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never let being a girl stop you from being a boy

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a part of adult life you never really realize as a child is the constant need for bowls in so many different sizes. you're always doing something and going "man i wish i had the right size bowl for this" no matter how many bowl sizes you have

#my friend is into pottery and made me the perfect yogurt bowl

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Twin boys

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im always saying this

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by jeremy ville

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Callout post where it becomes more and more obvious that the person writing the call out has a massive crush on the problematic individual

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Grasshopper's Dream Cafe Located: Jeongseon, South Korea

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Children Record Re:boot came out one week before fearless (taylor’s version) by the way. jin did it first

#I was thinking abt it and then thinking why didn’t i immediately think oh he’s doing a Taylor’s version #it’s because he PREDATE IT #i mean I guess not her singles #still #personal

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im so happy i made all the correct choices that led to us meeting

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2019 and i was saying shit like "どうしても日本語で伝えたかった" and "そのせいで英語の喋り方も変" okay i guess i . have been able to speak japanese for a really long time

最近はね、日本語で考えてから考えを英語に訳したことが多いの

#it's hard to remember these days what level of comprehension i had before studying in college or even before coming to japan #i first visited japan on a student tour when i was 15 and i hadn't 'studied' japanese at all on my own or in a classroom #but i have a little document of all the japanese i used on that trip and like there's a pretty solid grasp of the basic basics #it's so like. 今はさ日本語で喋るのってすごい当たり前なことだから前の自分がどのくらい喋れたとかどこまで自然に使えたとかさっぱり忘れた #so i always assume i spoke it less than i did #idk 結構前から日本語を私の一部として見てるけど it still always feels presumptuous to say #but even at 17 i was making vent posts in japanese and shit #which is kinda embarrassing #maybe bc my level of capability has changed so much over the years it's weird thinking that i still very very enthusiastically used it #so long ago #anyway i'm using tumblr as a diary today but that made me think #i also feel like i should acknowledge that the jpn in the main body of the old post is clunky

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mfw i spent yeeeeears in college aaaaaagonizing about how to turn a short fanfic of mine into a full-length original work and was working on it with my professor and through all the editing became really embarrassed of the original fanfic version thinking it was immature and shallow but could also never make the rewrite work so i moved onto other projects and then today after a very long time reread both of them only to find that the original fic is concise and heartfelt with clunky execution but solid and gripping emotional beats and the novelization is overwritten self-obsessed garbo

#i think i posted about it here a decent amount too #i was surprised at how much i liked the fic but honestly shocked at how bad the rewrite was #like not to dog on myself too much #but i wrote the fic originally for a class on short stories #(which is why i wanted to rewrite it in the first place - if i was already disguising it as original work might as well go all the way) #(see how far we can make this premise go) #so the original is super super to the point and like yeah clearly written by an 18 year old and dramatic but also very tastefully paced #like i was genuinely surprised at how effective i thought a lot of it was #i don't tend to toot my own horn about my writing especially not my old writing i was genuinely chuffed #then i had the dangerous thought of 'maybe i could give the rewrite idea another go this time more in the spirit of the original' #'keep it short and punchy and focused on the characters and their dynamic while updating it w my skills now and use it for grad school apps #but then i thought no...that was the vision i had when i was 18 #this is sort of a pun bc it's a story about ghosts but i should just let it lie and move on #personal #i was genuinely so put off by the writing of the rewrite that i was like wtf wait...i like...submitted this to lit mags on campus didn't i #did some digging found that it was the opening scene - which was THE most overwritten wanky part of it in my current self's eyes - #that i submitted to (and got published in) the lit mag i worked on in my little college community #girl nooooooooo i mean i guess the other girlies liked it enough to put it in #but it's odd i guess how time changes your perception/value judgments

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#laugh rule #sorry it's just that i work in a middle school #i was really earnestly considering the options so seeing that got me

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if seto kousuke has a million fans i'm one of them. if seto kousuke has 5 fans i'm one of them. if me inside and i can laugh, our hearts are one and i'm leaving the past. maybe even now my heart that's saving others is something closer to "brave". if seto kousuke has zero fans it's because i forgot it was his birthday

#sometimes it does feel like it's just me remembering this one anime boy's incredibly earnest and impactful song #there's that trend i think mostly on tiktok about like 'these are the songs nobody understands like me' #so i made a playlist for that. shounen brave is the immediate shoe-in #just the other day i was listening to it and got hit with the 'i think i can call 'a heart that saves hearts' 'bravery'' line again #kagepro is so....obviously not totally down to earth and so that's even a little dramatic for real life but it still really hits #thank you jin for making kagepro and for making shounen brave happy birthday seto kousuke #personal

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Sëlynn aka 쉬시턴 aka Sëlynn Lee aka Selynn Draws (South Korean, b. South Korea, based Frankfurt am Main, Germany)Female Artists - A cat in grandma's veggie basket, Paintings