#ykanow? i dont think that its really the same without the 'dying;

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ethubs to me is like. tfw you kill and die for someone so many times that you can't even grow tired of it. it's mundane, sure, but in the way that loving someone is mundane. blood becomes like waking up to them every morning- an expected but beautiful nonetheless way of things being. it doesnt matter if they're killing each other or their enemies or pretending to do one and actually doing the other to them it is an act of devotion. and not the dramatic kind. tfw you die and kill for someone so often that instead of loosing meaning it gains sentiment. this is not a tragedy anymore!!! they are ripping it apart with their hands and laughing!!! is there anymore power to an actor than that? than turning the story to a comedy? they're sooo sitcom core. of course they love violence- there's no reason to be afraid of dying when it's not the end. they'll have another go at it, and another and another and another and another. the grief is real, sure, as real as the bloodlust- it's just not the thing that lasts

#idk if im saying this well. got them on the brain tonight but like. #eugh. words. #i just think that. ok the central problem to the life games is that the death ISNT permanent. #the stakes feel real #especially in the moment #but if you take a step back. there's been four games. can you really say jimmy's died first everytime if he's done it four times? #the thing about death is that you can only really do it once. anything else is just a mockery of it #you have to balance the feeling of jumping off a cliff after murdering your partner #with the fact that they met again in last life. they remembered that. how do you reconcile that? #to me. personally. the life series works best when you treat it as the game it is #a choice. yaknow? they're choosing to play this with the knowledge that it will feel real. #and yeah its more fun to write fic where the deaths matter i guess #but i sort of feel like that's missing the point #ethubs. are they even ethubs if they dont have that history? #i dont really think so #ykanow? i dont think that its really the same without the 'dying; #not that they did. i mean. the blood was there. but then they kept being. oh im out of tags ok bye