#while. it wld've been nice to have had someone like that already in my childhood n in my highschool years. i think i'll more

[noxtivagus]

matty healy. help

#🌙.rambles #i have not been this invested in like. idk stuff like this for such a long time #IT'S NOT TOO invested but like #yk it's just. #okay i won't continue that line of thought bcs i cant complete it but yk #matty healy's actually. rather similar to my ideal type #he's rather intelligent isn't he? n then his voice is really nice #he can play instruments (duh) n then. lyrics. the band's lyrics rlly says a lot abt them n ofc matty too #n then. this is rather embarrassing to say 😭 but ngl my ideal type is a guy but #not. completely cishet. nah #a lil gay in some way. i like that. someone just like me fr yk #matty likes men aesthetically but uhm wldn't do Yeah. just kisses n not escalate it much further iirc #matty's voice is rlly nice n he's so funny 💀 #i'm just saying good stuff here but do take note that i hate idolizing people heavily. i don't idolize him #he's. really good at singing fr tho i really like his voice n #SOMEDAY YK T_T in my (currently nonexistent) love life uh #yeah i'm never going to settle for anything less. like i'm not gna be arrogant or have my ego up in the clouds but #no fucking way will i settle for just the bare minimum nah i'm gna find someone like me #not really find. it'll come to me naturally. something meant for me so long as i just stay true to who i really am. #while. it wld've been nice to have had someone like that already in my childhood n in my highschool years. i think i'll more #likely find someone like that in college? i just.. want to have a feel of that sort of feeling at least in my youth #when i'm not really working yet. just a self-indulgent dream. #but honestly no rush at all #i thrive when i just be myself n. sigh i've genuinely realized that a lot of people don't think the same way as i do #so yk i'll just continue being who i am without giving a fuck (as much as i cld tho bcs i still do get anxious n lonely but yk yh) #n then just. yk the ppl i'll let in my life. i'm very selective about that. #before that though i shld finish this assignment i nearly finished but forgot abt when i started writing this 🥹 #i want to. develop my life holistically. so not just work harder w my studies n my other personal stuff but yk socially too n w my family #n music! music. & stories. my fucking passions along with science. #.. back to matty healy tho his voice rlly is so beautiful. i like him lots. not in a weird way tho he's so much older but i rlly like him.