#which fine we were half worried she'd try to physically assault me after finding out anyway

[fertilizing-daffodils]

…..damn it. I know I’m just sad and mad. I’m smad. And now I’m smangry because I can’t think of the actual word.

#damn she really just said 'lol bye forever' and dipped huh #that used to be what I would do #just here one day and then all gone the next #like i get it do what you gotta do and protect your own peace #but jesus christ dude you lived in my house #you called me your friend and told me you loved me and i cared for you and trusted so much of myself to you #its obvious my partner meant more to you than I did by a long shot but you left her without a thought too #its horrible irony that this spiraled because we couldnt figure out how to have a conversation about it with everyone on the same page #and now i guess she's decided that we arent worth the wait #which fine we were half worried she'd try to physically assault me after finding out anyway #granted i'd let her have at least one good hit in if she truly wanted (cuz i still think i deserve worse) #but keeping my wife from losing it on her for touching me would be a whole other story #edit: bleh it’s all still true and I deserve what I get for being a real shitty friend #she doesn’t even know how shitty of a friend #I guess it just bothers me that my partner’s friendship was so easily tossed aside #I know I should care more about myself but I just don’t want to right now