#when somebody's suffering daisuke immediately reaches out to them and tries to do something about it

[dnangelic]

dai is so strong. not talking about violence though i mean the way there's so much pressure on him but he still manages. one step at a time one day at a time, think positively, think proactively, do your very best for not only yourself but also everyone else, and it's never baseless optimism, it's courage in the face of difficulty, it's i want to be able to do something, there has to be something i can do, so i'm going to do everything i can to do it,' that's a completely ordinary yet extremely touching human sentiment that some people don't stretch themselves out to, but so many dnangel characters do, and not just the ones with weird magic bloodlines. that being said, is it unfair for daisuke as a phantom thief, as a kid raised since birth for the sake of a destiny, to have to do a lot of what he's doing? yeah, and dnangel acknowledges this; recognizes this in the form of his 'powers,' his inheritance being a 'curse,' his loneliness and misery and terror whenever he and dark are out of sync and he feels strangled rather than pushed forward by the way he was born and raised to be a phantom thief. the sins of his ancestors persist and become his, dark's existence remains miserable and unchanged for centuries and centuries, his magic is first and foremost a punishment, sleeping beauty pricking her finger on the spinning wheel, the beast for his lovelessness, until his very own love alongside everyone else's cures it and lifts the curse, not just for himself but for dark too.

he couldn't escape the circumstances of his birth, (neither could dark,) but he's always trying to step forward with a retained romantic passion and love for his life and the decisions he can make for himself, the things he can control about his own life - making art even if he isn't talented at it, engaging in new hobbies at every opportunity, sticking close to his friends, utilizing what he's learned since he was born to try to selflessly help, rather than selfishly take and hurt. 'in this world, magic is something born out of human hearts.' daisuke's healing and dark's 'trickery' at its core really isn't supernatural, it's completely ordinary; they're magicians, illusionists, entertainers and comforters, they make what seems impossible possible, they're incredibly skilled and clever, but more than anything they've almost aaaalways had a positive, enduring, and protective attitude. don't be afraid of change, don't be afraid of moving forward, don't hesitate around those that you truly love and appreciate, That's Really Strong!!!!!

#*･ﾟ⊰ 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒. ⊱ ✦ › OUT. #esp when you compare this all to the way that hiwatari- someone who's so used to doing everything by himself #who doesn't allow anything or anybody to get close to him #simultaneously can't bring himself to push through daisuke's shell sometimes #when somebody's suffering daisuke immediately reaches out to them and tries to do something about it #hiwatari my god the poor kid he's so compassionate underneath the snow and ice #the way he and daisuke are CONSTANTLY asking each other if they're okay #but hiwatari never pushes or rejects things in the straightforward way that daisuke does #rather the absolute most that hiwatari can do is try to give daisuke advice- to guide and try to /explain/ #to fill in any missing pieces or holes that daisuke's comprehension can't keep up with #'he knows nothing about [the traps'] composition. but he has the skill that i don't have to unlock them' #look...

[dnangelic]

@espectres asked: wakes up 2 hrs later mEMEME 🕯🕯🕯 // // send me 🕯️ to hear my character's inner thoughts about your character.

' shou-kun ... he's way cooler than me , isn't he ? '

( ... he'd hate to hear you say that , you know . )

' i know , but ... i can't help it . '

how many times had he dreamed of being somebody a little more like that ? eager and fearless but still warm , someone who could do everything just right . daisuke could only ever faintly grasp the idea of the other's charisma , more often than not swept up and carried away by the energetic impulse and vital whimsy of it whenever shou was about : a high-flying kite's string and a whirlwind of laughter . there were times it felt like shou had all the answers ; knew every right path and action to take , or even if the boy didn't , then he was more than ready to decide on his own and to stick by them --- a total contrast to the niwa's own floundering helplessness and perpetual , easily overwhelmed confusion , a sting in his heart and shawl of timid shame left over on his shoulders .

it's not enough for someone to be gentle and kind ; they've also got to be decisive when it matters . daisuke can't remember where he's heard it from , but the phrase immediately comes to mind . the insecurities too , despite how quickly he tries to bury them away with shut eyes and both hands , remain phantasmal and lurking . if i was more like that , would everyone still think i was a loser ... ? he could have finally been the great phantom thief that everyone around him seemed to desire . his mother and grandfather would have been satisfied with their heir , and the chide-and-scoldings over his clumsiness would have surely vanished . his oldest once-crush would have had someone cool and interesting to admire instead of someone plain and average to reject and dump . just maybe even hiwatari-kun would have had a better reason to capture him , and wouldn't be suffering all the time .

if he was just a little bit more like shou , then maybe even dark ---

( oi . quit it . stop right there . who said you were suddenly allowed to start deciding things like that on your own ? )

' --- eh ? '

it doesn't get too far . or rather , it doesn't go any further than that . somewhere he can feel dark's silent irritations and jealous , guarding leer . the prickled and grim bereavement of someone watching another struggle exhaustively at digging a deep , pointless , and useless hole for themselves . ( are you really just going to give up like that ? ) --- even if he can't hear it , he can still feel it . dark's and his own truths . it was enough to have been born and to be here right now --- to change . to be able to do something . to become someone . the sort of person that he wanted to be .

( that's it . one more time , now . start it over from the top , daisuke . )

' i ... shou-kun , i --- i really don't want to lose to him in any way . just thinking about him turning out disappointed in me , i ... i don't want to let him down . whenever shou-kun smiles , i can't help but smile too , and whenever he laughs , my heart starts beating faster . no matter what happens , i want us to be able to keep having fun like that . i want shou-kun to be able to stay like that : happy and free , but strong and considerate , too . he's the sort of person who always has his hand reached out to me . he's always looking over his shoulder , waiting for everyone else to catch up with him and follow . that's why --- i should do my best so that i don't end up left behind . '

i'll meet you at the same place , somewhere in the middle . i won't let go . i'll hold onto your hand while you hold onto mine , and we'll race off together , no matter the destination or distance . ' ... sorry . i've gotta pull it together . ' palms slap against somewhat red-flushed cheeks and he musters up every ounce of his gumption . ' i've still got to work hard to meet everyone's expectations , but i'll do my best --- ! let's do this , dark ! '

( ... eh , you can manage . i'm going back to sleep . )

' wha --- really ?! '

#espectres #*･ﾟ⊰ ANSWERED. ⊱ #CANON. #i have thoughts abt how shou reminds dark of one of the gremlin niwa ancestors #(who actually was very popular but struggled against his family's conventions/had a 'sturdy lock' over his heart #and was called a failure by the rest of the niwa and a joke etc+) and how shou #REALLY reminds dark of that niwa in particular. but dark isn't one to make assumption abt ppl's lives or problems #the same way daisuke is oblivious to a lot of what goes on behind the scenes with shou's life tbh #there's a lot dai doesn't know but just by superficials hes always like waowowow @ shou #the sort of person he wishes he could be..... the sort of person who both makes him feel insecure but also #inspires him to take charge and start pulling up and moving forward #+ also his bestie #etc #ANYWAYS ILY PEACH TY FOR SENDIN #SHOU IS SOOO IMPORTANT 2 MEEE AND DAISUKE...... and dark (he guesses 😐)