#we'll see what tomorrow brings tho cuz I truly do not know what's happening with this final un-outlined chapter

[essektheylyss]

love when I say something and a day later I'm just like "what the hell was I talking about, that was blatantly wrong"

#me: this draft isn't really flowing— #also me: writes like 24k on that draft in four days #anyway NEVER bet on me slipping on a writing goal. I said I was gonna hit my yearly goal and finish this draft by the end of the year #and goddamnit I'm gonna do it. #my only consistent positive trait is writing discipline this is all I've got going for me #we'll see what tomorrow brings tho cuz I truly do not know what's happening with this final un-outlined chapter #HOWEVER I'm down to 22.5k for the year and like 30k at most left in this draft and I've got 10 days left? pssh. #and then I have to EDIT. [screaming crying throwing up etc] #which will suck cuz I think this is ending up farrrr more horror-esque than expected so. #tonal editing will be realllll #but I think it'll also be fun. dichotomy of megs. #anyway ignore me I'm just muttering out loud cuz I was like 'what the fuck was I talking about. why did I say that.'