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falcqns · 2 years

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𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭

this was definitely not the announcement i wanted to make, but it needs to happen.

i am going on an indefinite hiatus.

this isn't forever, it's likely only going to be for a week or two, but i'm still qualifying it as a hiatus.

andrew, my fiance, and i have been having some serious relationship problems, and we almost broke up last night. if you didn't know, we had been together for a few years leading up to december of 2019, when we broke up. i was 3 months pregnant, and we were severely toxic for eachother, and broke things off officially (we'd been on and off for weeks).

on mothers day of 2021, we went out for lunch, and spent the day together, and he expressed that he'd gone to therapy, and wanted us to be a family again. we started dating and got engaged very quickly, a little too quickly.

there were a lot of issues that both of us ignored, wanting to provide a stable home for our child, and we were neglecting each other emotionally because of it. we hid it online, but the two of us have defintiely been struggling severely since christmas time. we had a huge blowout fight on boxing day, and ended up 'breaking up' for a few hours. we reconciled and everything was fine, but we were still struggling.

yesterday was almost the breaking point, and our time spent together yesterday, which i illustrated in 'post poned' (i needed to express my sadness in a healthy way, and andrew gave me permission to write and post that fic) if you're interested in what happened in more detail. basically, we decided to post pone our wedding indefinitely, and make more time for eachother. we've decided that we got engaged too quickly, and that we should take more time together as 'boyfriend/girlfriend' (im still looking for a gender neutral term for girlfriend btw) and not focus on wedding planning as i was doing the majority of the work.

this means that i need to take a small step back for a little while. i talk about andrew a lot on here, and i get asked about him and our relationship a lot (which i am totally okay with) but after what happened yesterday, and us currently not living under the same roof, i need a break, and a space to escape from him as much as i love him.

we both hurt each other, and we both need time. we're still together, and we still love each other, but building a marriage takes time, and we need to do that offline. he doesn't know if he'll still be active on his account, but says that you're welcome to follow if you want to, and he's going to try to post more about himself.

what does this mean for my blog?

my requests are currently closed.

i may still write, but nothing will be posted for a while.

i am still willing to interact with all of you, but i will be doing so on my rant account @shutupava. any asks/requests sent here will not be posted until i officially come back.

all of my series are put on hold. as i said, it won't be long, likely a week or two, but no current writing will be posted until then.

i apologize for this, but i need to do what is right for me, and my family. i will keep you all updated, i promise <3

tagging some mutuals: @eun-dadplease, @balenciagabarnes @uhmellamoanna@amazingarfield @natashasera @agentofbarnes @inlovewithhisblueeyes @monkeyspud

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loth-wolffe · 3 years

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AHH CONGRATS ON REACHING 400 U ABSOLUTELY DESERVE IT!! :] also i'd like to tag along the ship game thingy it looks fun :0 i'd prefer to be shipped with a bad batch member if that's ok (and considering we're mutuals which im still in a shock about im pretty sure it's obvious who i like heheh oops)

soo i am a very very quiet person at first, but then when i know we both have similarities and get closer im very annoying (affectionate) i'd straight up pester my friends for like 2 hours and then stay quiet for the rest of the day bcs i get drained rip but besides annoying them i tend to do playful bullying more, sarcasm if u will there are many moments where i'll just whack my friends (they r okay with it we whack each other a lot) and i'd step on the back of their shoes and yanno basically call eachother morons but that's like the PEAK friendship for us so hehe

but no worries we know it's just playful banters and we love each other sm platonically ofc, and we tend to be for each other when we need it, i always make sure my friends have someone they can rant to, all of my friends go through some heavy stuff so im glad they trust me enough to tell me those and ofc i always keep a secret

ooh my top love language is quality time, i love sitting together in silence with my friend and we both do our own thing, maybe show each other a funny meme or doodle and we'd talk through writing on each other's papers in class bcs we are both drained and tired but generally i do love sitting in silence together with my loves ones maybe bcs i also dislike voicing what i want, i'd just either code i want something or just look at them until they figure it out which i do a lot with my parents heh, im very loud with my parents tho i am the youngest sibling after all, still the only daughter tho

physically im 154 so that's about uh 5'1 i think? i like cats i love them very much, cute things makes me happy but also i tend to joke about some uhh violence stuff like when my friend says someone said something hurtful to them and i'd just reply with "push them down the stairs. fuck them." so uh yeah that's it i suppose??? i've never done this before sorry ah congrats once again!!! i love your writing so much thank u

celebrate with me ✨

dude, seriously, are we the same person???????????? bc like. everything you said I was like SAME THATS ME. and I mean. sAME that's ME. u know. u sound like such a cool person!!!

can I like?? ship you with every bad batch member??? is that? allowed?

If I had to choose, I think I'd ship you with echo. i think. or tech? maybe with wrecker. or echo. no, cross. or hunter??? maybe fox. i think you'd do fantastic with fox tbh.

SKDJSK echo it is then<3

i think ur fave is crosshair? im not sure? but listen. LISTEN TO ME.

echo and you have the same vibes. i think you guys would have this small banter thingy going on all the time. teasing each other and giggling at your sass.

echo is usually seen as a grumpy, serious babey but he's a softie with a heart of gold, I just know it.

i think you would bring him that sense of normalcy and the same something(? he had back in his 501st days. he'd feel a bit more at home when you're around, a bit more like he didn't lost too much.

you kind of remind him of fives, and he has told you once or twice you would have been the bestest™ of friends.

you joke with him and you being annoying (affectionate) always makes him love you more. because he sees so much of his old days in you but also the new days to come, and because you give him this sense of- well, like things are going to be just fine.

you're his light in the dark, always guiding him somewhere nice, a piece of heaven that you hold in your hands and always find your way to place it in his own.

he'd def hear your rants and would laugh with you, giving you heart eyes as you speak or maybe listen to you as he works on whatever. and maybe you'd have a little bit of communication problems at first, with that not voicing what u want stuff, but he's a fast learner so he'd learn to read your eyes sometimes, when you feeling sad and stuff and you look at him he's in no time dragging you to his lap and hugging u tight, kissing ur temple and all.

he'd love when you draw doodles in his hands 🥺 and he'd draw a little something on yours too while you're bored in hyperspace.

I'd say echo shares your sense of humor, saying in the most serious voice "we should kill them." when someone says something neither of you like and there's this amused glint in his eyes. you follow his jokes with another stuff that makes everyone think you're psychopaths and end up laughing.

i think quality time is also his love language, adding little touches here and there.

it's in the silence, where you two show the most how much you love each other, in the warm looks and little smiles, sharing a blanket as you sit side by side and he leans a bit closer to you, he holds your hand sometimes, playing with it as you snuggle closer, your cheek on his shoulder.

you don't say much, eyes speaking for you and he kisses you softly, lips lasting a few seconds on yours before pulling apart slowly, he brushes your cheek with the back of his hand, leaning over again just to steal another kiss. you smile, and his expression mirrors yours.

"you good?" he asks, just to make sure you don't need anything. you nod, squeeze his hand with yours, sleepy eyes letting him know there's nothing you need but him.

he chuckles, a low sound that warms your heart, a kiss on your temple and there's something murmured in your hair. it's not long before you fall asleep just like that, holding hands and each other's hearts as you share warmth in the cold ship.

#AHH I HOPE THIS IS GOOD omG #took me forever #and im kind of feeling a bit sleepy myself ajdksj #mochi youre too sweet #thank you so much<3 #sending you all my love #ari answers #ship games #400 followers celebration

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