#we would always try to do stuff when she was in dialysis so she wouldn't miss us

[ex-furry]

the way people do not realize how traumatizing it is to have a sick parent is baffling to me

#the reactions to that (probably fake) aita post that's making the rounds on twitter are soooo..... #''why couldn't a five-year-old just go to the hospital and see her sick mom?'' #number one thing is germs #number two. we didn't think it was a good idea to let my little cousins see my mom when she was dying because having to see someone #you love in that state is horrifying #having a sick parent permanently changes you. a kid with a sick parent would likely want opportunities to feel like their life is normal #i know i did #god dude. so many people have no idea how fucking lucky they are #also when my mom was in the hospital on my 13th birthday getting her transplant we still left and did a few things #like not much but we still got out #we would always try to do stuff when she was in dialysis so she wouldn't miss us #but we still needed to get out. this last time in the hospital the nurses were practically begging my dad to get out for a few hours #they just don't understand how this shit works and it's astonishing because it's all i've known for so much of my life

[dimensionalskully]

It's been a while since I've posted. I totally forgot my log in info when I switched phones and couldn't get in and then forgot lol.

A couple things new. I was diagnosed with small fiber neuropathy in both legs. It's been inconclusive in my arms. Of course my neurologist said I could benefit from a certain infusion, but once I was diagnosed he said I shouldn't do it after all and that it's just pain management for the rest of my life. He has me on a kind of triptaline to help with the nerve pain, but it disappointed me to hear him have hope I can have help with this nerve pain and then rip the rug out from under me the next time I saw him.

My grandfather passed (I had moved in two years ago to help with his home dialysis and to help my grandmother with as much as I physically could) so my grandmother and I have been doing a couple things together that he wouldn't let her do while he was alive and it's so adorable to see her personality come back to life now that she is able to rest and enjoy her life. (She loves him and always will, but he was mean as a snake at the end and belittled and demeaned her until the end and really wore her down)

We have been watching WWE together, and she has been really getting back into it. Mom said when she used to watch it in the 80s, she would get excited and hit whoever was next to her when something exciting happened. She now wants to advocate for everyone fighting fair, it's adorable.

I miss being able to be on here and blog about things in my life and be immersed in my fandoms again. I want to try to add more art in the future as well. I've been drawing a little again since I have a little more time to myself and practicing some digital stuff.