Dear diary₊˚⊹♡
I'm back heheh, it's been awhile but I'm back now, I'm not onaj be online as much as I used to be but imma try to be online. I've missed u guys so much hehe, also imma try to respond to all the ask and mentions I've gotten when I was gone thanks for including me even when I was gone lol.
Little update on my life I tried out for the cheer team and I made it yaya, so next year in the winter I'll be doing basketball cheer I was gonna do football also but I wanna stay in golf because I love it so much and I would miss it, also imma do speech and debate and French club next year they both offer great scholarships plus my friends are gonna be in it too, not to mention we get a lot of field trips. Speaking of field trips I went on one recently with my friends and my crush it was amazing I had the best time I spent most of the day with him tbh. Hmmm what else... My French has improved a lot lately and I made alot more friends hehe I love freshman year tbh everyone said it was horrible and stuff and whe I entered highschool I was scared but Im having an amazing time, making new friends, expanding my horizons, trying new things, and overall maturing and becoming my best self! and omg have u guys heard the new ari album it's amazing I'm obsessed, I've been a huge fan since like victorious lol and this is by far her best album. My fav used to be positions but now eternal sunshine is on top for me!!
Also as u guys probably remember I really wanted to be a labour a delivery nurse when I'm older but I just finished re reading it ends with us and I wanna be a florist again or a fashion designer I still might wanna be a labour and delivery nurse but idk we'll see. Imma get a job soon I'm looking for a job at a flower shop!!
Your truly azaiyah
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Murray Backstory
so murray and bianca lived in same neighborhood
cute fat kids in their class
only fat kids
sometimes they'd get teased early on like they gunna get married
and they'd laugh it off like yeah w/e
bianca has a pretty backyard with her own tiny garden
she invites him over to help her out lifting bags of dirt
cuz she lives with her aunty and she's brittle/can’t lift much
over the years, murray starts to grow a crush on her
bianca is always super sweet
and never malicious, she is very caring person
she even had a choice to live with her rich uncle or frail aunt and picked her cuz she thought she needed the most help
so one day, some bullies sneak into bianca's backyard and smash up bianca's garden
and that was just tip of iceberg
bianca's aunt has a nasty fall and breaks her leg
they end up having to move with her uncle cuz they can't provide for her in their tiny town
but she never told murray cuz she didn't want him to worry about it
he knows about the garden, not the moving part
so he saves up all his money and in one night, replant a good chunk of what she had planted before
it just so happened to be on the night before bianca left
but then murray goes to school next week wanting to hear about her new garden
but her friends all oh i guess she didn’t tell u but
she moved away
doesn’t believe them
runs to her house to find it for the most part empty, she never had a whole lot in the house, all that mattered was that garden
there's a note on the gate to the garden left for him
thanking him and asking him to forgive her for not saying anything about the move
he ends up keeping this note throughout his life
but that kicks starts his spiral of depression
he gets mad first
and bitter
for not saying anything to him
questioning if they were ever really friends
but he's just a teen, he's a very sensitive boy and bianca knew that
no matter how much he tried to hide it by acting quiet and cool
mad at himself for never telling her how he felt though
it seemed obvious to everyone else, including Bianca
as he grows up, he passes by her house every day to school
has to start taking the longer route to avoid it
checks on the garden he planted
it's withering, close to dying
he goes on to school
by the time he's in hs, he's gone total cool quiet commando
wrestle team captain
but still really smart
ends up being a part of poetry club as well
which gets the babes
babes start asking him out
he sees quite a few of them after school
and they tell their friends
somewhere during that time, he bumps into tippo and serenity
they like hey we heard you're a decent writer, we need a songwriter for our band, u interested
Murray like yeah maybe
Serenity’s shitty hs band only consists of her, Tippo and Murray
Murray as bass player
Im sure Anit is invited to be in the band as well
but they're maybe unsure of their potential
Anit goes to college later on, Murray takes over drums for the songs that need it
most the songs don't require them as much
Murray also in charge of odd instruments
kazoo, triangle, tamborine, digiridoo, rainstick
Murray finishes hs but doesn't go off to college
gets lots of girls for his looks and mute demeanor
plenty of them prolly groupies of shitty hs band
that's the name of the band
"shitty high school band"
has a gang motif
they usually only play one gig a month
2 if they really wanna
but for Murray it's a decent distraction
then one of their so-called fans, a Roselia, says she's been a fan since their beginning
but Murray never takes the compliments to heart
he doesn’t recognize her
but they fuck and later she finds him like we gotta talk, I am pregnant, you’re the dad and I wanna keep it
Murray world comes crashing in
first of all
how did you get this number I’m half way across the countryside for this tour
*consisting of 8 cities, lame ass tour
but BEFORE ROSELIA CALLS HIM
he's performing at a stadium in the desert
think south west, arizona, new mexico
fans come up to him and he does the schtick of pleasing the crowds
but then he catches a glimpse of someone familiar
then bolts to them it's
grown up Bianca
has to stand up on her tippy toes to hug around his neck
she still fat but she swoons like look at u~
you got sick muscles now
you could be one of the security guards
murray departs from rest of gang to go off with her
looking at the clear vast desert skies at night
catching up all night
murray debating bringing up her note
he gets some closure by telling her he forgives her for leaving without a word
but is still hesitant to bring up his past feelings to her
now that he's been around the countryside and banging a lot of girls along the way, he feels
very dirty being in front of her again
and she's literally unchanged
then he decides he gunna do it
he gunna come clean
but then she sneezes
her familiar cute baby kitten sneeze
when she wipes her nose, he sees a ring
like
.......
that's new
:I
oh yeah, I met him while I was going to school
he didn't go to school with me he was the son of my uncle's gardener
after I would come home, he'd be there helping his dad and I brought them drinks and sometimes I'd help them too
uvu
my uncle would scorn me, telling me it's their job to get messy
but i didn't mind
uou
murray peeks over
growing up, bianca was very poor
her only pairs of shoes were a pair of old boots that seemed to last forever
by the time she was in middle school, she seemed to already fit into them
they were always dirty from being outside
sure enough, she's wearing boots, different pairs, but same brand/style
and they are worn and muddy
even shows her a picture of baby Kassandra
and murray like I sure would like to meet her someday
Bianca hands her a card with her address like stop by any time!
we'd love to have you! and your band could come too if they have the time
:>
the next morning, Murray gets the call
being around bianca that one night has sparked something in murray
he's not sure what to call it
but maybe from seeing the baby picture, he maybe felt a bit of remorse
again for himself
if things were different
maybe that could have been our baby
remorse for the child that IS his
like I didn't love this woman, now I have a responsibility to raise it
cuz I know going in, this lady is gunna be trouble
and everyone else knows it too
keeps Serenity on speed dial when he has to get Leila out of there quick
KALA ALSO HAPPENS TO BE A SWEET TENDER LADY WHO ALSO HAPPENS TO BE ROUND AND CURLY HAIRED
HE'S GOT A TYPE
Murray winds up having to put his visit with Bianca someday on hold
kazukoyo
Gotta support his babby
ProfessorBees
as this crazy lady he's currently married to is abusive and threatens him and their child every other day
Kazukoyo
She got a screw or two loose
ProfessorBees
working mom
as a stripper
Murray stay at home dad
and part time repair guy or construction
mom works day shift
daddy has to work at night
then the wife finds Murray's note and address card from Bianca
burns them
then takes Leila like I knew you never loved me after all I've given you
she clearly drunk
Murray has his phone on 911 and on speaker
as soon as she out the door, leila in the car crying
dont u worry sweetheart, i'll make sure he doesnt hurt us again
>:0
but baby leila reaches out to daddy
trying to escape mom
idk how his phone would be on speaker if this is early 90's
late 80's?
maybe just leaves phone handle down and towards angry wife
doesnt know what to do
she just slammed the door
he immediately tells the cops his address and reporting of kidnapping
then furious dials serenity and tippo to call them whats up too
then mad dash to his own car and chase after wife
but then crosses a dinky bridge, and sees almost if it was in slow motion,
her car hit the side of the bridge and it flips over
and it bursts into flames
murray reaching inside desperately, manages to find baby Leila's car seat
easily slips her out as she was only half buckled in, thankfully is still alive and no open wounds
is about to go back for his wife, but the car's weight and flames wear strain the car cabin's support and it crushes down
Murray holding baby Leila refusing to let her go
waiting on the other side of the bridge for police/firemen/paramedics to check on this small baby
his ex-wife did not survive the crash
but Leila only had a few bruises
Murray decides he's not going back to that horrid apartment full of broken memories
buys a house from his old neighborhood
one with dusty old items and a little dusty garden in the backyard
he starts with expanding Bianca's garden from a small gated corner to the majority of the backyard, completely covering it with dirt and plants
then starts to work on remodeling the house
it's small but it's just him and Leila so it doesn’t have to be huge
breaks down a few walls to make it more open
finds a few of Bianca's old belongings
puts them in a shoebox
he no longer has her address but he's got it memorized by now
he'll deliver them personally when he's got stuff sorted out
it's nothing of huge importance
her dishes, bowls, lunchbox, maybe her kid needs something of her mother’s?
Leila sees the box from time to time but doesn't know a Bianca
so in her early years, makes her up
like she's an imaginary friend
it makes Murray's heart bleed
how much little leila acted like he did when he was a kid
trying to act cool/quiet
but of course his face always :I
:'I
and continues to do so for the most part
ends up going to a community garden to get tips from fellow gardeners and meets a lady who's there for a weekly course
she recently had a miscarriage and is taking this class as a therapy
but so far, only proceeds to depress her a bit as she knows nothing about plants
and her crop is wilting
Murray helps her out a lot
and they seem to really hit it off
younger staff at garden center ship them hardcore
and Kala even invites them to wedding
lmao Murray just wants close family and friends
Kala brings her family plus the ones who shipped them from the start
Leila super >:I
for a new mommy
*cling to her
she mine now, dad
off with you
we have things to discuss
like
who's gunna get me more cake?
>:I
*grabs at wedding cake
gimme
murray and kala put her down
lEila like nO wrONG direction
Leila like what 4-5?
old enough to know she getting her very own mom
look ferro I got one
>:I
*shows off tall round mom
Murray invites Bianca and family too
but only Bianca shows up and gives Leila a toy too
Leila like thanks stranger
Bianca getting her shoebox of old treasures back
and Murray telling stories of young Leila pretending to have a friend based off of u
Bianca finding this all wonderful that he came back to her garden and just made it bigger
and also renovated that drafty house into something much more fit for a family
tl;dr bittersweet murray backstory I made up in the span of 2 hours?
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