#ughhhh why isn't life getting tired of being such a burnout

[nickywhoisi]

I cannot believe that I just lost trust in Nintendo and madmod, over some very personal history and feelings. I am...not understanding why my personal life is still causing me so much pain, the “things are going wrong because actions are being made entirely out of my control’ kind of pain, and still leaving me so...carved out and dead inside. But with a migrane too, of course, so I can’t just shut off can I? Oh no, it’s never that easy or kind...

But for as hard as these hit, it does seem like I have a way to finally make peace with it. Can block the people who have bad takes. Can stop giving money to brands that aren’t repaying me back. Although what’s been going on with nint has been much harder, and there’s so much more there to grieve. I may make a post sometime about what I mean, if anyone is interested to know. I have been a Nintendo gamer for a really long time, so I’ve got some good stories to tell, and I’d love to finally have an audience for that.

#gypsy diary #ughhhh why isn't life getting tired of being such a burnout #laser focusing on me #I'm not gonna be forced to leave life anymore #I have better things to do and I just want this entire environment to finally be acting right #at least I finally found a nice area to sleep where I'll actually be alone and unbothered #I was kind of losing my mind slowly from all these freaky unstable acting people whom always thought they could approach me for whatever #but that has literally been creating xenophobia in me #I never wanted to know what that felt like...but now I do #the only thing keeping me sane is knowing that it's not EVERYONE doing this or being this way #but it's so damaging to not get a peaceful sleep when some person pipes up next to you and gives you no time to process or register #and you just feel a mini trauma like you were almost going to be killed or something #I hope noone's alarmed reading these tags...just...yikes #I really want to feel even a shred of trust in people in real life like I used to but I'm not sure how it will even be possible now that #I was put under this treatment #help