#trying to hang onto some modicum of control by her fingertips only for ava to do something she hadn't anticipated

[birgittesilverbae]

strategist!beatrice admitting she's at a loss for how to proceed

#warrior nun #sister beatrice #beatrice over and over again pointing out information that they don't know and need to learn #lining up contingency plans a-z and beyond #trying to hang onto some modicum of control by her fingertips only for ava to do something she hadn't anticipated #(and isn't that always the way with ava - that she didn't see her coming - that if she'd had any inkling of what was to become of their #relationship she'd have bolstered her walls even further - that even then ava still would have phased right through them) #ava goes rogue in a way beatrice can't ever have anticipated and all her plans go out the window and she has to admit she's at a loss #never expected ava to jeopardize their cover to save her life #never expected ava to go to the man who all but lit the fuse that killed shannon #never expects just how deeply ava feels or how much capacity she has for forgiveness #and beatrice is unmoored by it #angry with ava in ep2 for jeopardizing the mission to save her #angry with herself in ep7 for jeopardizing the mission to save ava #packed full of rage and fear and only the faintest shred of hope #idk this might be incoherent i'm just rotating her always #mywn #myedit