#trudging the fine line between 'i'm overthinking' and 'no they're literally just doing that'

[king-of-freaks-and-fools]

vent below

i don't __need__ ur reassurance to be happy but i sure as fuck could use it. hate feeling like a fucking ragdoll thrown about every. single. week. just be fucking CONSISTENT for once PLEASE. you say you love me then FUCKING IGNORE ME and i dream about you every night. the worst part is the dreams are good. I'd rather you be in a nightmare, because at least then I wouldn't have to wake up and miss it. did you know you kissed me last night? you kissed me and I FINALLY felt happy. and then I had to wake up and face the fucking music which is that you barely even text me anymore.

maybe i do need your reassurance to be happy after all.

#lol so this is how my life is going in case anyone was wondering #trudging the fine line between 'i'm overthinking' and 'no they're literally just doing that' #so super amazing woo /s #anywaysssss if anyone DID read all the way through and has any advice would love some lmao #current plan is idfk. isloate myself and see if they actually wonder where i am #is this unhealthy? very #but the isolation is actually not the most unhealhty i geniunely do need a break from people so if they happen to ask where i am and then #come join me i mean hey what a coincidence that'd be great #tune in tomorrow for more bad decisions in my life