#tried bringing it up once to a nt friend and ugh! just 'oh... that's...cool i suppose'

[deepdeanvsweston]

Repeating the words Murder Most Unladylike out loud like I'm casting a spell to remedy the debilitating shame I feel for admitting I like it and want to talk about irl

#vent in tags i suppose #being autistic itself doesnt suck but the way people react to autistic traits sure does :( #special interests are part of me and how i cope with the world so its like 'oh you dont want to hear about this very crucial part of me???' #all my nt friends talking about their partners and *I* want to talk about mmu like that! #i know they're not the same thing but it does feel like im hiding something from people even if they wouldn't want to know about it anyway #tried bringing it up once to a nt friend and ugh! just 'oh... that's...cool i suppose' #i know theres a place and a time for talking about interests but there never seems to be time for autistic interests #and also the fact it feels like noone else into this specific fandom is into it as much as i am #in conclusion: special interests are great but FUCK are they isolating