#time I was there while I'm literally on a road trip to my dad funeral that's when you're gonna be like time to not pay you any attention

[milo-is-rambling]

Yeah okay maybe I am still upset about one of my (dedicated to...)people ,,, I'm listening to the playlist I made for him when I sent him a penpal letter while sitting in the bottom of the bathtub staring at the ceiling and thinking about all the ways he hurt my feelings and why I should be okay with never talking to him again, and yet here I am missing him and thinking about his lips and his hands and I'm probably just starved of intimacy/physical affection and he was willing to fuck me + give me half assed attention but I am sad nonetheless

#he literally wouldn't get off his phone when I was at his house why do I still miss him he was such an asshole and a bad host when I was #visiting in person and somehow he still made me feel bad about the whole thing like sorry I called you out on being on your phone the whole #time I was there while I'm literally on a road trip to my dad funeral that's when you're gonna be like time to not pay you any attention #unless we're fucking #and not to mention he fucking retweeted something like 'thinking about you while I'm fucking him' right after we fucked #like bruh if ur gonna use me for sex or whatever that's fine but can you not fucking tweet that laying next to me while I'm falling asleep #like just say I'm annoying and loud and emotional and only good for sex #ugh fuck I got mad I got upset I gotta relax this is making me angry I want to rip all the skin off my body and shower seventeen timesinarow #also while I'm being mad I'll say this to him in the void #YOU DYED YOUR HAIR BLACK AFTER I LEFT AND IT LOOKS BAD YOU LOOK BETTER WITH NATURAL HAIR AND WE ALL KNOW IT!!!! #YOU WERE ANXIOUS ABOUT DYEING IT BLACK CAUSE YOU DIDNT THINK IT WOULD LOOK GOOD AND I WAS LIKE HMM IDK AND THEN BAM IT LOOKS BAD AND YOU #DONT LIKE IT SO HA I KNEW IT !!!!!! #okay evil petty moment over I am mostly saying that bc I complimented him on it and I didn't mean it and that small lie has been eating away #at me for like a month cause I didn't like it but I told him i did