#this section is so chaotic bc there's a whole bunch of sh*t going on at the same time but Pathaan crawling out of the car

[theinfinitedivides]

Rishi bestest boi 🥺😔

#film: pathaan #local gay watches pathaan (and loses their sh*t while doing so).txt #local gay watches bollywood.txt #this section is so chaotic bc there's a whole bunch of sh*t going on at the same time but Pathaan crawling out of the car #to head straight to Rishi and Raza having to pry him away bc it's literally about to explode does something to me #there's a desperation there—he keeps going back trying to get his hands on whatever he can trying to get Rishi out of there #he keeps telling Raza to let go and they are both telling him not to stay... there's a shot with his hand on Rishi's face #and then the hand is in his hand and he won't let go!!! he won't let go #this is the first major death for Pathaan in the film i think and he has this tendency from then on to shut down on the spot #whenever something like that happens before getting on with it and sort of lashing out #but you just know he is f*cking himself up over this when it is quiet and there is no one left to hear #reminds me of that one interview (or was it several that i am mixing up and putting all together?) #where Shah Rukh said he doesn't cope with loss very well bc he's a passionate person #and he brought up the point that he has to channel that elsewhere. so smoking cigarettes is a hairsbreadth away for him #from dipping tf off of this mortal plain and committing suicide #like he said he had wanted to do when his mother passed #i am having too many thoughts about this