#they're so. augh. “do it now Doctor”/“I can't Charley you're my friend and I love you”

[awkwardtuatara]

You know how the sound creature in Scherzo wants the Doctor and Charley to sacrifice themselves for it because that's the only concept of love it's ever had? And the reason for that is because it's only ever heard Charley and the Doctor talk about love - it was literally born from their resentment, their love, every single sound they made? And from their words it learned emotion and desire, and the Doctor's first sacrifice of sound put reason to that emotion far, far too quickly; it learned from "Of course I loved you, I killed myself for you!" but it didn't understand what that meant. (I mean, did the Doctor?) Charley and the Doctor idolize the idea of one another, and Scherzo is the point where that falls apart, where they have to face the aftermath of the grand gestures they made in Neverland and Zagreus and they realize that their broken reality and broken selves aren't quite what they thought. The sound creature's concept of love is based entirely around self-sacrifice for some grander idea because that's how Charley wants it to be, that's the only way the Doctor understands it. And it learned from them far too well, even as its accelerated maturity meant it didn't understand anything.

#scherzo #eighth doctor #doctor who #charley pollard #8th doctor #I am Not Normal about them #is this coherent? idk I hope so. I'm this close to writing an essay about this audio but it dissolves into incoherent screaming every time #they're so. augh. “do it now Doctor”/“I can't Charley you're my friend and I love you” #“kill me”/"I can't I love you” #“but I love you”/“do you think I want you here?” #I don't think that last one is exactly in the order the lines are spoken in Scherzo but. you get the idea #big finish #dweu