#the worst part now is that since covid's vaguely calmed down that i too should be less pissy but no.

[kulliare]

maybe the most sad / annoying / petty thing is that i don't really feel like being close to one of my best friends anymore and i swear i would still want to be close to her if covid didn't happen

#the worst part now is that since covid's vaguely calmed down that i too should be less pissy but no. #someone told me yesterday that i'm really principled which is so annoying. it would be nice to not have a stick #up my ass 24/7 but here i am #stick in ass even after a few months or even a year #and she and the guy she's fucking and that I ALSO feel petty about keep sending messages to me #and im like. i really don't want to care about you again bestie #like i'm okay being acquaintance friends with her but i have no desire to talk to her like we used to #but since we're in the same circle of friends i have to be Friendly #the thing is that i can't even claim to be on my high horse w the plague bc im unmasked sometimes but like #yeah i don't know. other stuff happened too but it's just so minor that it's like. it shouldn't have #culminated into me being like ok. well idc abt u anymore xoxo