#the way he'd meow and lead me to the sink so i could turn it on for him

[a-god-in-ruins-rises]

memory: warm summer days. me and my friends just got out of the swimming pool. we eat some watermelon and pb&j sandwiches. we’re still dripping wet. we grab our towels and lay out on the sidewalk so the sun can dry us off. the ice cream man drives by. we each get a popsicle. my popsicle slowly melts. i watch the ants drink up the drops. i go inside and take a nap. i wake up to the sound of wind chimes and dogs barking in the distance and the laughter of the neighborhood kids playing outside. i join them. i play video games with my friends. the smell of my mother’s cooking in the air. me and my friends stay up late watching anime on adult swim. we sneak out and do some ding, dong, ditching. we sneak into the abandoned military housing. we climb shit. we break shit. we explore storm drains. we go to arcades. we play laser tag. we play street football. digging holes at the beach. throwing water balloons. chatting with girls online. riding my bike in front of my crush’s house even though i live several blocks away. sneaking into movie theaters.

#i dunno man #life is good #i just want to hold onto these moments forever #and i never want to take any of it for granted #even the smallest moments #like mundane conversations with my father #or my dog staring at me expectantly for pets #i want to cling to those moments #and indulge in them for as long as i can #i don't want them to ever end #especially with the recent passing of my cat #i never realized how much i took him for granted #and how empty my life feels now without him #it's not ruining my life #but it's a very noticeable absence #just the little things #the way he'd meow and lead me to the sink so i could turn it on for him #because for some reason he loved drinking out of the sink #or the way he'd scratch at the door when i would get in the shower #and i just hate all the times when i would get annoyed with him #for being too needy #or too loud #i wish i could take all those moments back and re-do them