#sometimes. i talk to my family. and i go 'ohhhhhhhhhhhh my deep-seated conviction that every good thing i get

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#family cw #sometimes. i talk to my family. and i go 'ohhhhhhhhhhhh my deep-seated conviction that every good thing i get #necessarily comes at the expense of someone else's pain and thus is something i should feel guilty about DOES have a source--' #it would have been really really nice to be excited about having $10000 less student debt for like. ONE minute.... #also idk idk it's crazy to see something and be like 'wow good news for once!' and then get slammed with complaining #both from my family angsting about the wide-reaching economic implications AND from ppl on twitter about how it's not enough toactually help #and like. yeah the ppl on twitter are right! and there's probably some truth in what my family said too they're generally smart people #even if their priorities are all out of wack! but it's also like. yeah well fuck me i guess! sorry i briefly got happy! #anyway. maybe having a bunch less debt will let me afford therapy :) #sigh i think it sucks that people that you really really love and respect and who generally did so much good for you can also hurt you :( #hm i'm remembering i haven't eaten lunch yet. gonna go do that so i'll start feeling emotions at normal levels again