#sometimes I debate whether living is even worth it anymore as I'm obviously not happy in my life but

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I'm getting sick of yelling at thieves and crackheads who come in the store stealing petty shit just to feul their drug habits to get out of the store, or having to deal with incompetent or fucking stupid ass customers bitching about why they can exchange an item even though it's past our policy rate.

The job doesn't even pay well working as a manager at the job I work at doesn't even pay even well why is the job next door to me paying like 16 bucks an hour as a manager but a store that is likely part of a grocery store is only paying me 14.25 and to be a key holder 15 bucks ?? Bullshit

#not saying I'm not grateful to have said job but still bullshit.. #like they don't even want to hire security but then they bitch about people stealing and why the cells are low and when we explain to them #people are fucking stealing they blame us and cut our hours but then be bitching about oh my God why are we getting phone calls about angry #customers about long lines and how there's little to no help it's because you cut our hours dipshits!! #getting paid 15 bucks or even 16 bucks 3 years ago was the best thing ever and that was actually for managers but doing that now is nothing #that's something you should be paying people now the average person as jobs that pay up to 16 or 22 or the manager positions. #sometimes I debate whether living is even worth it anymore as I'm obviously not happy in my life but #but I always think about my family my boyfriend and friends and God and always think there's a reason why I'm on this Earth and that #in order to experience some form of life or lessons you have to go through something I mean bullshit but still #I mean 2023 has been a decent year for me pretty much one of the best years I can say much better than last year of the Year prior to that #but fuuuckkk 2024 better be the year where I finally earn money and work on getting my own place and not having to struggle or worry about #whether I will be eating lunch today or not or whether I should probably kill myself today or not