#so. yknow. i'm going to try to watch less movies this year or at least until i'm capable of watching them normally

[threenorth]

At the end of my work day I'm completly exhausted, to much brain focus not enough calories, and shit food is expensive....

Now I know we said future focused but, there's so much glimmer of you, it's really difficult to know exactly but none the less...

Ryan, Pink,

You make me feel like there is something worth living for a reason I slave at my desk everyday trying to get forward in a world that wasn't made for me and the reason why I still breathe but y'know mainly coming home to you would be something worth the suffering at my job (just over broke), my brain remembered but I think I said it but I gave you an anchor I told you, because you calmed my sea, not to weight me down.

Logan,pale pink.

I'm glad you feel better, I don't know what you went through but I'm always here, unless I'm battling myself... And we're just take turns... And if we're both up shit Creek at least we have each other, and...probably the same psychologist. Jokes a side, I hope you know that no matter what you say, nothing is going to make you sound,less or look less beautiful that you think you might be.

L, pale pink.

I think for me, was the day I was pushed down the hill at primary (elementary), that thing is vicious and I think it's awful to have it in a school ground even for kids under our 6th 'year 6' (10-11 yrs) to your '5th grade' our kindergarten is pre primary, and Secondary School is also called college as I went to Northcote college, but there are people and places like Westlake boys High-school. And then with tertiary our college is university...but either that or the good old toilet bowl, I believe it I recall you said.. You need to name your trumas, haven't had that talk yet but I think you said yours was and I'll take it, abe.

Aspen, green.

Yeah I too miss that but y'know if you want depending on your schedule on my Saturday the whole day we can hang I got 100gb of data monthly now, you can come to the supermarket... Or the gym... Or whatever.

Just as long as you keep me, posted or informed with if A) your tired. B) your mental health getting a little worse. C) what you need to do around the house as chores as we can multi task... Hopefully. IE you dust the kitchen or some shit, and I run on the treadmill.... Speaking of. Treadmill the respotiry instuite called today to say the specialist I was planning to see has quit, and my appointment was rescheduled for. December 11th, so I'm looking on our medical platform database to see what other people might be able to investigate and or to what equipment they have or possibly experience or if they can use my insurance provider...adhd meds wore out so... Hahaha.

Rowan, green.

Distance makes the heart glow? I don't know to me, distance makes it difficult but I don't know if you or I can afford it yet, maybe soon... Ish... We're talk about this in due course...but distance sucks, but at least now there's long distance ergh 'toys' they seem intersting...

Good old aunty Google (nz expression) says 'absence makes the heart grow fonder'(source)

It's a little depressing but we can try watch movies or TV shows via discord or something, we're find something to do until... Hopefully not too long... But there's a few balls. I'm trying to understand currently... Long tale. Called having mental health issues and trying to do work and a degree... Yeahhh f--king kill me. 😂

Keith, red.

My heart always wonders its way back to you.

Keith, purple.

Anytime.... Unless... Oh romance, I got a meeting in the office and I don't pick up but I might see it try hussle my way out, I'm often listening to music on my phone via headphones anyway but best time to get me is 12-1 and if I'm working at home but not wensday afternoon but if I'm at home I can have you on mute throughout some meetings...

Oh and maybe if I got my cynical psychologist... Next Tuesday 5th the whole day is awful hahahaha...Dentist, hygieninst, and othorodonist... 9-12. Then 3-4pm is my shrink.

Yknow what how about your Friday depending when you wake up and if you have the whole day off I'll get up early on my Saturday... But we need to take some turns about who's one either getting up early or staying up late...

Cooper, tan.

You don't need a sign when you know my thoughts or where to find my latest thinking about you.

Regarding a text message? I don't know if I'll ever find your number in my many files I have especially one I tried hiding from myself after the last time I used it, my us cell phone VoIP redirect I posted a couple days ago... Sooo maybe just use Skype? Instagram? Facebook?

😂 You know how to find me, contact me.

Cooper, purple.

You didn't really leave me, per say.

But I would of hoped you would of tried to reach out - non anonymous, I left my Skype open for a few months and I also never blocked you, just - slightly peacefully 'forcefully' removed you out from my life,but you still had message access, I think I didn't change my Kik till maybe 2015? As my phone reset? I can't recall but I remember we had two or. Maybe one Skype call, one when I got angry at you about the prayer flags, and the other I think when something bad happened and you asked me come online...I'm so sorry that's a bit of a blur for me the years since 2014.... Some of it rock soild, others quite vague..

[britomart]

okay for the hell of it i decided to list the movies i watched this *Last, i mean last year too :] (fortunately not as long as the book list but still kinda long so under the cut-!)

parasite (2019), in bruges (2008), sing street (2016), emma (1996), knives out (2019), she's all that (1999), 10 things i hate about you (1999), shaun of the dead (2004), this is where i leave you (2014), clouds of sils maria (2014), koyaanisqatsi (1982), clueless (1995), some like it hot (1959), the martian (2015), sherlock holmes (2009), exposed (2016), bill and ted's excellent adventure (1989), the punk singer (2013), a trip to the moon (1902), hiroshima mon amour (1959), lotr the two towers (2002), parsifal (1912), buffet froid (1979), submarine (201), brexit the uncivil war (2019), bridget jones's diary (2001), four weddings and a funeral (1994), mary and the witch's flower (2017), stop making sense (1984), much ado about nothing (1993), man with a movie camera (1929), sixteen candles (1984), the rocky horror picture show (1975), the spy who dumped me (2018), the beatles: eight days a week (2016), mysterious skin (2004), dying to survive (2018), princess cyd (2017), falsettos (2017), stroszek (1977), dreams (1990), wallace and gromit curse of the were-rabbit (2005), spider-man: into the spider-verse (2018), at eternity's gate (2018), promising young woman (2020), minari (2021), rocketman (2019), howl’s moving castle (2004), paddington (2014), emma (2020), whale rider (2002), moana (2016), paddington 2 (2017), howl's moving castle (2004), submarine (2010), the dig (2021), stop making sense (1984), the song remains the same (1976), k-on! the movie (2011), cold war (2018), kingsman the secret service (2014), minimalism (2015), lord of the rings the return of the king (2003), contagion (2011), the lake house (2006), lotr the fellowship of the ring (2001), little women (2019), spirited away (2001), ant-man (2015), iron man (2008), adventures of sherlock holmes (1939), game night (2018), enola holmes (2020), game night (2018), blade runner (1982), pride and prejudice (2005), watchmen (2009), the invisible man (2020), mamma mia (2008), harry potter series (2001–2011), carol (2015), star wars the force awakens (2015), sherlock jr (1924), maudie (2016), the age of innocence (1993), spellbound (1945), fox and his friends (1975), another round (2020), it must be heaven (2019), flickering lights (2000), basquiat (1996), dog day afternoon (1975), captain fantastic (2016), mean girls (2004), ready or not (2019), snow white (1937), my big gay italian wedding (2018), happiest season (2020), kiki's delivery service (1989), alphaville (1965), scott pilgrim vs the world (2010), reservoir dogs (1992), hot fuzz (2007), reservoir dogs (1992), the killing (1956), reservoir dogs (1992), reservoir dogs (1992), but i'm a cheerleader (1999), the umbrellas of cherbourg (1964), reservoir dogs (1992), ponyo (2008), howl's moving castle (2004), reservoir dogs (1992), gimme shelter (1970), american animals (2018), calm with horses (2019), romeo + juliet (1996), brooklyn (2015), lilting (2014), man up (2015), trainspotting (1996), withnail and i (1987), reservoir dogs (1992), bridesmaids (2011), lotr the fellowship of the ring (2001), music and lyrics (2007), 24 hour party people (2002), the nice guys (2016), run lola run (1998), the sum of us (1994), desperately seeking susan (1985), mikey and nicky (1976), reservoir dogs (1992), fargo (1996), black widow (2021), my beautiful laundrette (1985), paddington (2014), no country for old men (2007), days of being wild (1990), chungking express (1994), tommy (1975), guess who's coming to dinner (1967), romeo and juliet (2021), a silent voice (2016), tony takitani (2004), heathers (1989), the host (2006), in the mood for love (2000), zootopia (2016), the old man and the gun (2018), in the loop (2009), the death of stalin (2017), bad genius (2017), sleepless in seattle (1993), you've got mail (1998), sliding doors (1998), monty python and the holy grail (1975), lion (2016), reservoir dogs (1992), ferris bueller's day off (1986), back to the future (1985), yellow submarine (1968), rock n roll high school (1979), starshaped (1993), reservoir dogs (1992), hearts of darkness (1991), paddington 2 (2017), withnail and i (1987), mikey and nicky (1976), happy as lazzaro (2018), la haine (1995), battleship potemkin (1925), bringing up baby (1938), linda linda linda (2005), bringing up baby (1938), pulp (2014), the fifth element (1997), stop making sense (1984), mabo (2012), leon the professional (1994), dawn of the dead (1978), the x files (1998), birds of prey (2020), spider-man: far from home (2019), black panther (2018), tristan and isolde (1972), fire and sword (1982), prisoners (2013), inglourious basterds (2009), happy together (1997), pride (2014), a matter of life and death (1946), after life (1998), the x files (1998), memories of murder (2003), shaun of the dead (2004), hot fuzz (2007), the world's end (2013), booksmart (2019), knives out (2019), the red shoes (1948), whiplash (2014), whiplash (2014), whiplash (2014), whiplash (2014), death proof (2007), taxi driver (1976), the lair of the white worm (1988), the private life of sherlock holmes (1970), re-animator (1985), star wars (1977), star wars (1977), the empire strikes back (1980), much ado about nothing (2011), fireworks (1997), house (1977), submarine (2010), monterey pop (1968), four adventures of reinette and mirabelle (1987), the pianist (2002), t2 trainspotting (2017), velvet goldmine (1998), reservoir dogs (1992), swing time (1936), lancelot of the lake (1974), bringing up baby (1938), charade (1963), at eternity's gate (2018), brideshead revisited (2008), doctor who (1996), last night in soho (2021), no time to die (2021), the godfather (1972), the godfather (1972), withnail and i (1987), the long goodbye (1973), dune (2021), the matrix (1999), lupin iii: the castle of cagliostro (1979), carrie (1976), spider-man: no way home (2021), spider-man (2002), the florida project (2017), lotr the fellowship of the ring (2001), love actually (2003), the muppet christmas carol (1992), return of the jedi (1983), what we do in the shadows (2014), lesbian vampire killers (2009), the suicide squad (2021)

*some more favourite new watches bolded :)

#v.txt #i think i'd say about 60% are new watches maybe? #tough to tell bc i do rewatch movies.. rather a lot; okay maybe i should lower that to 50% #for the record i watched the paddington movies twice; submarine three times; howls moving castle three times; #fellowship of the ring three times; whiplash four times; and finally. reservoir dogs 11 times (10 of which were within the first 2 months) #so. yknow. i'm going to try to watch less movies this year or at least until i'm capable of watching them normally