#she can't understand my butch fiance so how will she ever understand how much being called a woman hurts me

[gay-gothic-ghoul]

Been dwelling on the fact that all the things I keep hidden from my family is a wishlist of what I dream my mother would understand. Y'know how it is ¯\_ (ツ)_/¯

#idk being closeted as nonbinary and polyamorous at 25 just kinda sucks tbh! there's a whole part of my life that my family just doesn't #know anything about because my mom wouldn't be able to handle it #i wish i could soft launch the poly thing but she can't even understand my fiance's nonbinary identity #how tf do i explain someone can be nonbinary and do hrt for gender affirming reasons that isn't perceived as killing womanhood by my mom #she can't understand my butch fiance so how will she ever understand how much being called a woman hurts me #there's a whole wonderful person in my life that i love that i have to call a friend when we talk #just a friend. #it feels like i am lying to protect myself and i wish i wasn't afraid to be who i am #i am 2000+ miles away and a full adult #and yet... the thought of disappointing my family is crushing #idk y'all. i just. don't know.