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ne-fe-li-bata · 3 years

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Aye yo CORPSE! ...

Dead ass;

You can't convince me that Corspe was/is/does ;

in no particular order..

• Deserve to be held ( I would smother him with my chest and hold him tighter than he has ever been held) & protected from this world

• Pyro! Mans loves🔥🔥🔥 - mostly his fav elemental (Leo is a fire sign); “WOOO... now that’s a fire!”

• Loves knives/weapons- has a collection (quite a nifty 1, ay thank-a-you) & even knows how to use butterfly knives/ tackle combat.

Has a collection of weapons (brass knuckle, daggers, swords, knives,etc.)

• Highly interested in combat/training. Most likely has training in some sort of combat. Loves any form of physical combat < UFC,MMA, Boxing, any type of martial arts>

• Absolute proper gentlemen / clearly has the utmost charm/cunning

I.e holds the door open & will slap yo ass on the way in, moves you away from street side when walking, pulls chairs, defends your honor, etc.

• Takes A . L . O . T to truly capture his attention- but once you have it ..%100

• With his person; protective/obsessives/ possessive/ sensual/ affectionate .

< mine is mine. me no share -like absolutely not at all>

“ You want the moon? Just say the word and I'll throw a lasso around it and pull it down for ya“

• RP'er on DeviantArt/chats had his own OC. (also prob had his fav person to RP with)

• Watched mostly nothing by anime/cartoons (nick/CN) as a kid & also mostly watched certain shows/movies as a kid well into his teens

(could recite quotes/scenes as second nature)

• Not a major musical theatre type of kid. But musical movies/shows was 1 of his favs- but still highly interested/ in love with theatre/musicals/preforming arts none the less.

-EYES DON’T LIE

•’staring problem’ he’d just stare at you -deep in his head (both good & bad) you’d have to bring him back to you ..”babe- eh, come *snap*back to me. What’s on your mind my love?’

• Genuinely a really warm person- but only to certain people, but comes across cold & distance

• Grew up in the internet & knows the way around the 'business' & 'faceless' YouTubers/celebrities

• His teens/ late adolescents consisted & grew up on YouTube O.G videos/ video game commentary/content;

Cry.. <Cry was a huge part of my life & still hold a special place in my heart. Corspe just like I was most likely devastated with the shit that went down>

Jack

Nova

Sp00n

Jontron

Smosh

Nigahiga

Shane

Jenna

Hanna Hart

Phil/Dan

KevJumba

Ray William Johnson

Pewds

Machinima

EMT

ERB

Wassabi Prod.

VlogBros,

-etc

• Has an oral fixating (lovebites indefinitely <like dead ass ya’ll be chillan/ out & he’d attack you> & just needs something in his mouth always)

• Fidgety af, always need to be playing with something in his hands/playing with

• Is a goddamn absolute certified freak--but also super soft bean boi. (can't stress how this boi needs& deserves to be protected)

• Constant hand/arm touching/stroking for comfort.

• Daddy{papi} / Mommy(mamá) . Master . Sir kink - hard control kinks- but highly sub.

hard(er) kinks

• Lovebites = M I N E

obvs fishnets/ crossbody straps/ lingerie

lace

collars/ restraints

toys

•RP

degrading/praising

sub/dom switch

showing/proving your actually/completely & utterly his/ he’s completely & utterly yours..

& of course you know it's go time when 1 - if not both of you has kitty ears on.

over stim

*no touchy/ don’t let me go*

“look at what I’ve done to you”

“you kno only I can do this to you”

“look how greedy you are for me”

“look at the mess you’ve made because of me’

“cum on my face”/’cum for me”

“who do you belong to” / “you belong to me & only me”

100% all black clothing 🖤

*that once we get home / I swear I’ll deal with you right here, right now* look

primal play “when you run from me, it only makes me want you more” “you know imma find you kitten”

pet names (beast< i feel like you call this man “ (a) beast”-he about to lose his absolute fucking mind> , “oh Corpse/______, you absolute fuckin’ beast- my God” kitten, babyboy/girl, baby(e), bae, my love, lover boy, my darling, slut, needy little bitch, cum slut, lil’ whore, master/mistress, king/queen”

“only yours” “just ______” “ no-one but _____” “only____” “only you”

‘I’ll keep you so no one can find you or bother us’

“that’s my girl” / “that's my boy”

“would you like to/ I saw----”

“look at me” “don’t look away from me”

GROWLING / talking through clenched jaw

not breaking eye contact

• his name & ‘Corspe’ being cried out

“cry out my name for me baby. know who you belong to”

video/sexing/teasing

breeding kink

voyeurism

abrasions

aftercare af

impact play

24/7

edging

accidental stim; “holy fuck- I’m so turned on by you rn”

rope bondage

begging

worships

• But also soft kinks;

MEME SENDING

head on lap/chest

naps

playing with hair

matching outfits

voice messages

always touching (somehow)

no space between bodies

picture taking together/ just of you

body rubs, head rubs

massages

competition

play fighting

“this reminded me of you”

“I remember you said” “I know you...”

“you know I love you”

“I can tell by your eyes”

“ugh- I swear to shit imma marry you 1 day”

“nothing really made sense until you”

“do you wanna watch”/ “WAIT!? YOU HAVEN’T SEEN?!”

“damn- you really do love/like me, eh?”/ “you are SO fucking mine”

“that’s my girl”/ “that's my boy”

pet names/ “MY_______” “YOURS”

long stares

dates- stay at home dates are his fav, as your attention/focus is just on him

choker/necklace/ jewelry (that 1 of you bought- NOT LIKE HIGH PRICE TAG, but like seen it & was like ‘omg ____ would so wear...’)

cuddles with movies /anime watching time

just being in the same room/on call- even in silence

* emojis*- just some sort of communication

inside jokes/ puns/dark humor

seeing 1 another with kids

future kink (family, travel, etc)

playing video games

dancing/ singing with 1 another

Sitting on the ground, wrapped around his leg when he streams/edits

Nerf gun fights

Watching him record (tracks/editing/streaming)

• Loves- loves surprises <like dead ass would set up a surprise date/ do a scavenger hunt for you/ surprise you with your fav thing>

• Loyalty is everything & his best attribute (& pride)

• The music that he make is from the soul/heart. He pit everything has has/what he has left into his art

• No one has seen the real him - a side he truly hides

• He's both book & street smart

Taught himself through YouTube/Reedit/online

• Fav actors; Jim Carrey/Robbin Williams/Will Smith (?)

• Man’s straight up dangerous. we only know like a quarter of him & people fall at his feet. ( h e . i s . n o t . t o . b e. F U C K E D . w i t h)

• Hates silence

( constantly needs background noise) <also can't fight me on this babyboi cuddles pillows/blankets for night-night time>

• People don't understand the pain he is in every day, unless they have fibromyalgia/GERD/high functioning (sever social)anxiety/depression/ agoraphobia

(my mom suffers with fibro/depression <I myself have GERD/ sever social amenity/depression>& I wouldn't wish those illness on my worse enemy...)

• Over all pain has changed him

• Has dealt with self harm since a young age- most likely 9- 11 yrs old. (as someone else who’s suffered with SH for years- when you become so numb it 1 of the only ways to feel some sort of anything/makes you feel like you’re alive)

• Addiction (drugs/people/things)

• Wrote & read a lot of fanfiction

(most likely his main source of reading in pre/teenage years)

• Is a hopeless romantic but has his guard way up

• Obsessed with Japan / Studio Ghibli

• Doesn't think he deserves any of the recognition/ fame he's gotten--but definitely deserves it all as he's creative & inspirational as fuck. Also he’s worked so hard for it & had put himself through so much

Contrary is highly appreciative of those that are supporting

• Doesn't do it for the fame but for the fact he know how he's gotten people through hard time (just like those on the internet got him through)

• Was a scene boy that vibe’d of myspace/ listens to a lot of ‘scene’ pop-punk, emo/ scene band shit (band?)

• Also is/was a major tumblr boy

• Would be a phenomenal father

• His love language: physical touch & words of affirmation

• He would flinch at touch movement but would melt in your hands

• Face caresses would trigger anxiety/ tears.. but once he’s calmed/comfortable would burry his face in your touch. neck & chest

• Still caught up in daydreams

• A part of him is still never satisfied even if it’s exactly to the pin point detail of what he wanted

• Has at least 40/50(ish) songs he hasn't released

• Mommy & daddy issues (not saying his home life was really- really fucked - but non the less- it certainly wasn't the best).. Also wants to protect/provide for his family (especially his sister) & was prob closer to a grandparent/aunt/uncle)

• Definitely prefers to be by himself, as every time people come around, it's like;‘"this is why I'm okay (ish)with being alone"

• lost an important person to him due to O.D/ suicided..

• Also most likely to of heard his "friends" shit talking 'Corpse' or something correlated with him

• His pride is his biggest sin (next to lust)

• Has single-handedly defined a huge part of 2020 ( in the best way)

• Went through a fighting stage where he was ready to fuck anyone up on a drop of a dime (middle/'high school'/street fights- possibly even under ground)

but also a stage where he cut absolutely everyone off for a solid couple years

• Most likely obsessed with 1 of 3 creatures; lion, dragon, wolf ( 5ish- possibly bear/fox)

• Dinosaur obsessed

• Internet & video games raised him

• He raised himself

Quick to adapt to surroundings/situations.

• Mighty Morphin Power Rangers was his shit ( I CAN SO SEE YOUNG BABYBOI RUNNIN AROUND THE HOUSE IN A POWER RANGER SUIT) "IT'S MORPHIN' TIME MOTHER FUCKER"

fav ranger- green

• Has up until next year planned out & is working on the next 'version of corpse' ( PR, vids, music, etc)

• Also med/high key this man was most likely in a physcward (more than once) ..

• This man deserves more than he'll ever give himself recognition for & knows in the back of his mind--people will hate just to hate

• Rose is his fav flower 🌹

•⛈️🌧️. >🌞. Loves storms/ rain & prefers them over sunny days

• Loves the moon/stars/space (?) < observatorium dates = fuckin mint>

• Pixar/Disney lover

• Fav Pixar movie.. either Wall.E or Toy Story

• Pixar > Disney

• But fav Disney movie- Beauty & the Beast (?)

• Most likely had a Jackass obsession's (doing dumb hoodshit)

• Fall is his fav season (?)

• Horror/ thriller movies/shows over everything (obvs)

• Had an escape place in town where he’d hide from the world- that absolutely no one knew about.

• Was really into graffiti/ street art

• Arested as a youth - but charges dropped- or was still considered a mirror (either fighting/ possession/ trespassing/ vandalisms)

• Arrested on heavier charges (also same as above - but not tried as an minor)

• also-ALSO ... thou he feels like he owes people something. HE DOESN’T OWE ANYTHING TO A N Y O N E . His mental & well being is the most important.

• On a side & major note. You can't deny that this man single handily is a (in my opinion) the 2nd biggest “C” that define 2020.

• Was most likely really into skateboarding/BMX

• Late night drives/impulsive road trips & playlist/ sitting at lookouts, just in silence & touching 1 another.

• Clingy af-.. but could also be distance & cold af- especially on high pain days. stormy brain days. PTSD episodes.

• Slow dancing/ dancing around the apartments. with or without music.

• Rocking out with each other- screaming lyrics in each other face.

• “hey baby- how you feelin”

*grunting* *shuffles over & lays on chest*

• Huge comforts for 1 another;

Especially when going out, being wrapped around him for comfort & reassurance. Even being at home alone together- panic attacks are shit, PTSD episodes are even more shit. helping each other with bathing & caring

When he’d be hiding from his reflection- or stares just a little too long. Going up behind him & worship him (vise versa)

• He’d be your biggest hypeman/ #1 fan (vise versa)

• Would LOVE you wearing his clothes/jewelry & would love to wear you things.

Was probably engaged to his ex (that's why he gets offt when people mention "corpse wife"

There'd be days where he'd be so distance & cold.. & tell you to leave but wouldn't let you.

He'd sit in the bathroom with you when you shower/have a bath.

As he doesn't sleep most night. He'd be up just watching you sleep & caressing you.

Lil spoon > big spoon.

I love you... genuinely . turly. madly. deeply.

#dear cropse #if youre seeing this #i kno youll be okay #im sorry for everything you've had to go through #plz kno #to me #you are my brightest star in a universe of supernovas #you make everything okay for me #till fate do us part #i kno 1 day we'll meet #the universe will bring me to you & you to me

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ulrichfoester · 5 years

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I’m So Anxious I Can’t Function

We are one seriously anxious nation. Anxiety disorders afflict over 40 million adult Americans every year, making it the most prevalent mental health disorder in the U.S. Going hand in hand with the high rates of anxiety is the rampant use of benzodiazepines, with 13.5 million adults in 2013 prescribed the highly addictive sedatives to help manage an anxiety disorder.

Ironically, if someone becomes chemically dependent on benzos, including such medications as Valium, Xanax, Klonopin, and Ativan, the anxiety symptoms can actually worsen. But when it feels like “I am so anxious I can’t function,” it is understandable that one would reflexively reach for these drugs to simply get through the day.

Life throws all of us regular curveballs that can result in excessive worry. However, a distinction must be made between occasional bouts of “the nerves,” those events or situations that might stoke intense feelings of fear or dread, and an actual anxiety disorder. It is an anxiety disorder when the resulting physical and psychological symptoms become life impairing.

What is Anxiety?

Although there are various forms of anxiety, assembled collectively under the anxiety disorders umbrella, in summary anxiety is a mental health condition that is characterized by excessive and persistent feelings of fear, apprehension, and worry. There are different situations or causes that can set up this fear response, which have led to the various designations. In general, when suffering from distress related to an anxiety disorder, it may become more difficult to function. Anxiety can impact relationships, work productivity, academic performance, and family responsibilities.

The causes of anxiety may include:

Genetics. Science has shown that genetics are a significant risk factor for developing an anxiety disorder. It appears that certain genetic factors can determine one’s susceptibility to anxiety. Some individuals may have difficulty regulating stress hormones, where others might possess resilient when confronted with a stressful situation. These tendencies tend to run in families.

Environmental. There are several examples of environmental factors that may contribute to anxiety, such as:

Children of parents who were overbearing and controlling may grow up to have anxiety.

Parents rejecting their child

Stressful life events in childhood

Children modeling parental expressions of anxious behaviors

Demographic factors, such as being a member of a minority group

Gender. Women are twice as likely to develop anxiety

Childhood neglect

Temperament. Personality traits, including resilience and coping skills, demeanor, shyness, and behavioral inhibition can contribute to the development of anxiety.

Lifestyle. Substance abuse, excessive caffeine use, and excessive tobacco use can increase anxiety. Regular exercise and a healthy diet can decrease anxiety.

Different Types of Anxiety Disorder

Anxiety is expressed in different ways. Feeling “so anxious I can’t function” may be the result of any of the following types of anxiety, but with one particular dominating feature. Any of the anxiety disorders can cause the severe symptoms that impair the ability to function at daily tasks. The types of anxiety that are included in, or closely aligned with, the anxiety disorder spectrum include:

Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD). GAD features extreme worry that is out of proportion to the situation at hand. The exaggerated and chronic worrying can result in an inability to function at basic daily tasks, as well as somatic symptoms, or physical ailments, such as headache, stomach problems, and muscle tension.

Panic Disorder. Panic disorder is characterized by unpredictable and intense physical symptoms similar to a heart attack, such as a racing heart, chest pain, nausea shallow breathing, heart palpitations, and dizziness. Because the attacks come on suddenly without warning, people begin to isolate themselves to avoid a panic attack, which could result in agoraphobia.

Agoraphobia. Agoraphobia involves intense fear that is triggered when the individual feels they are trapped, helpless, or may be embarrassed, such as on a bus, a plane, in an elevator, on a ship. This type of anxiety disorder may result after a series of panic attacks, and can lead to isolation.

Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). PTSD is related to the anxiety spectrum due to the intense feelings of anxiety that follow experiencing a trauma. An unresolved traumatic event, whether witness or experienced personally, leads to nightmares, hyper-arousal, and unwanted memories, which can lead to avoidance of any situations or people that might trigger the traumatic memories.

Social Anxiety Disorder. Social anxiety is characterized by sweating, trembling, shallow breathing, nausea, feeling faint or dizzy, and heart palpitations due to a deep fear of being harshly judged and humiliated publicly, which may lead the individual to avoid all types of social interaction and events. This can lead to isolation and loneliness, as well as negatively impacting career opportunities and relationships.

Specific Phobia. Phobias pertain to the intense and exaggerated fear of a person, place, or thing. The object of fear can lead to irrational and obsessive behaviors as the individual attempts to avoid encountering or triggering the extreme fear that it provokes, leading to avoiding any potential exposure to the specific phobia.

Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD). OCD is characterized by symptoms of intense anxiety related to an irrational fear. Examples are fear of germs or contamination, fear of angry or aggressive impulses, or an obsessive need for orderliness, cleanliness, or symmetry. In response to the fear, individuals adopt compulsive behaviors to help manage the anxiety that the irrational obsession induces.

Tips for Overcoming Severe Anxiety Symptoms in the Moment

Depending on the specific type of anxiety disorder, symptoms may emerge unexpectedly. This may happen right before a stress-inducing event, such as giving a speech or enduring a job interview, which can seriously impact performance. Having some helpful tools at the ready to access should feelings of distress become overwhelming is critical. These holistic activities are rooted in relaxation methods that help calm the mind and body simultaneously. They include:

Mindfulness. Training the mind to focus on the here and now, versus lurching into the fear-based anticipation of what might go wrong, is helpful when approaching a stressful situation. Using mindfulness, individuals will coach themselves to rein in all thought distractions, and to concentrate mindfully on the present moment. By purposefully directing the mind toward the present, taking into account all the sensory input, they then accept the present feelings without self-judgment and remind themselves that the feeling will soon pass. Focusing on the breathing rhythm, the in and out motion of the diaphragm, the individual can quickly reduce heart rate, decrease blood pressure, and calm the mind.

Deep breathing. One of the fastest methods to achieve relaxation is through a deep breathing exercise. Like mindfulness, deep breathing techniques can be practiced anywhere at any time. There are several variations, but a common deep breathing exercise is the 7-4-7. This involves slowly inhaling as much air as possible while counting to seven, holding the breath for a count of four, and then slowly releasing the breath through the mouth for a count of seven—pushing out as much air as possible. Do this consecutively, 4 or 5 times, to experience notably less tension in the body.

Smartphone apps. There is a wide variety of meditation applications available for download onto the smartphone. This allows the individual to go sit in their car or other quiet space and tune in to guided meditation or soothing spa music. These are handy tools that can be swiftly accessed when feelings of anxiety begin to increase.

Holistic products When the symptoms of distress begin to emerge, go on the offensive and fix a cup of chamomile tea to help relax. Avoid caffeinated beverages, as these will only increase the sense that you’re “so anxious I can’t function.” Vitamin B12 can reduce symptoms of anxiety. Also, keep some diluted stress-reducing essential oils handy that can be applied to the skin, such as tea tree oil, lavender, or orange oil.

Treatment for Anxiety Disorders

When anxiety symptoms have ratcheted up to the point where it impairs normal daily functioning it is appropriate to obtain help from a mental health professional. Anxiety treatment can be provided in an outpatient setting, such as by a private practice psychiatrist or psychotherapist. The usual course of treatment for anxiety disorders involves both medication and psychotherapy.

Medication: In many cases, the doctor or psychiatrist will prescribe a benzodiazepine to help manage sporadic anxiety events, as these sedatives work swiftly to reduce tension and bring about relaxation. There is a risk of addiction, however, as this class of drugs is prone to abuse. Other medications prescribed for anxiety disorder include antidepressants, mood stabilizers, and anti-psychotics.

Psychotherapy: The use of one-on-one talk therapy is central to anxiety disorder treatment. These therapy sessions allow the individual to explore potential triggers and then learn more effective ways to manage them. The most commonly used evidence-based therapies for anxiety treatment include cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT), dialectical behavior therapy (DBT), mindfulness-based cognitive therapy (MBCT), and prolonged exposure therapy.

Holistic activities: Activities that help induce relaxation are complementary to the core treatment plan, and might include yoga, massage therapy, acupuncture, regular exercise, and keeping a journal.

The Treatment Specialist Online Resource for Mental Health

The Treatment Specialist is a trusted team of mental health specialists who provide important information about mental health, addiction, and dual diagnosis disorders. When severe impairment leaves you feeling, “I’m so anxious I can’t function,” contact The Treatment Specialist for help determining the best treatment options for your particular type of anxiety disorder. Call our helpful team today at (866) 644-7911.

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ulrichfoester · 5 years

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I’m So Anxious I Can’t Function

What is Anxiety?

The causes of anxiety may include:

Environmental. There are several examples of environmental factors that may contribute to anxiety, such as:

Children of parents who were overbearing and controlling may grow up to have anxiety.

Parents rejecting their child

Stressful life events in childhood

Children modeling parental expressions of anxious behaviors

Demographic factors, such as being a member of a minority group

Gender. Women are twice as likely to develop anxiety

Childhood neglect

Temperament. Personality traits, including resilience and coping skills, demeanor, shyness, and behavioral inhibition can contribute to the development of anxiety.

Lifestyle. Substance abuse, excessive caffeine use, and excessive tobacco use can increase anxiety. Regular exercise and a healthy diet can decrease anxiety.

Different Types of Anxiety Disorder

Tips for Overcoming Severe Anxiety Symptoms in the Moment

Treatment for Anxiety Disorders

The Treatment Specialist Online Resource for Mental Health

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ulrichfoester · 5 years

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I’m So Anxious I Can’t Function

What is Anxiety?

The causes of anxiety may include:

Environmental. There are several examples of environmental factors that may contribute to anxiety, such as:

Children of parents who were overbearing and controlling may grow up to have anxiety.

Parents rejecting their child

Stressful life events in childhood

Children modeling parental expressions of anxious behaviors

Demographic factors, such as being a member of a minority group

Gender. Women are twice as likely to develop anxiety

Childhood neglect

Temperament. Personality traits, including resilience and coping skills, demeanor, shyness, and behavioral inhibition can contribute to the development of anxiety.

Lifestyle. Substance abuse, excessive caffeine use, and excessive tobacco use can increase anxiety. Regular exercise and a healthy diet can decrease anxiety.

Different Types of Anxiety Disorder

Tips for Overcoming Severe Anxiety Symptoms in the Moment

Treatment for Anxiety Disorders

The Treatment Specialist Online Resource for Mental Health

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