#selfies on my phone. we'd set our chairs together

[loveregrown]

I think about my middle school crush sometimes. Gabriella Jazmin... I truly adored her. Did she know, how much I loved her? Does she miss me? I never had a chance; it was doomed from the start. But goodness did my guts churn, back then. She probably didn't even know what she did to me—maybe she did.

#❀ #It creates a strange tug in my heart. I think she made my penchant for glasses worse #I am very happily married & this isn't romantic yearning or anything despite it having Been romantic. Tbc. I'm just reminiscing... #She was so patient with me. I followed her everywhere. I liked her little smile when I'd say something weird; I liked when she'd take #selfies on my phone. we'd set our chairs together #a left handed chair and a righthanded chair so itd make a sort of loveseat #I'd cling to her and hold her and she'd sit on my lap and I #d lay my head on her lap and she'd play with my hair... #she was good at math. I wasn't. #Her mother only barely tolerated me. #We walked home together every day. #she was an honors student. #I think everyone has that one friendship. I have two; but this one hit me worse #she loved ham&cheese empanadas #she was one of the most ''developed'' in our grade... so I'd chase boys away and hurt them for her #I was awfully awfully possessive and jealous. I didn't like how other girls ''tainted'' her. #I had the belief if she stayed with me; she'd stay the same.