#otherwise mental health will decay so much it'll eat you alive

[sincerity--extreme]

It's almost 2am and I was sitting here think, it's so unfair that some people have like, 3 cars in their garage and spend an obscene amount of money every week in unnecessary things while others need to not eat 4, sometimes not even the main 3 meals a day in order to not run out of food and have to wait until the following month to get more, I see like a spoiled teenager throwing a huge tantrum because they wanted a 2 million car and got a 1 million one instead while I stand in front of my half empty pantry/fridge and think to myself how is it possible to have such different realities all over the world

And I'm in no way judging those teenagers btw, 90% of them just turned out like that because of how they're raised and hopefully they'll learn to be better eventually, besides every human being also gets upset over stupid things sometimes, sometimes I cry because I can't buy a thing I definitely don't need but really really wanted, a little treat at the supermarket, a little toy at the store, new hoodie, new boots... My point here is that some people have absolutely everything they want in the world handed to them in the blink of an eye regardless if they deserve those things or not and others suffer every single day to get the bare minimum and some don't even get the bare minimum at all

#and that's just my reality #there's a lot of people in even worse situations #actually starving people out there #of course I'm aware of that #but sometimes you can't fully comprehend some stuff unless it happens to you #it doesn't make you a bad person unless you judge or laugh at those in complicated situations #and that's what happened to me #never judged and always helped but didn't really understood difficulty cause my financial life while I was a kid was great #then it got bad #then worse #then it was ok #then it got really bad again and now we're in the bad phase again #and it's terrifying #we all need food access to helth and entertainment #but thats just a reality for a very small percentage of the world #I need to pick between having enough food for the month or getting to live a little for that month #most of the times you obviously got to choose to survive but getting to live is a necessity too #otherwise mental health will decay so much it'll eat you alive #and mine is only getting worse by the day #lack of access to therapy is really getting to me #but yeah that's enough rambling #sorry everyone