#or that interview me but then reveal they already know they're doing an inside hire but gotta do so many outside interviews first

[izzy-b-hands]

sometimes u just gotta. randomly scrub most of ur bathroom on ur hands and knees . to feel useful

also, clean bathroom nice

#text post #mum was over for a lot of the day bc her bf was with his kids #and it started so nice!!! i got braver abt chinese food (lots of Textures I've been working on getting used to) since having some in CT #and tried a bunch of different new things today and liked most of it!!! #ate more in one sitting than i have in uh. long ass time lol #but then she ended it by asking why ppl aren't getting back to me re: my applications more and i should clean x & y like this instead of th #and on and on until she left and she didn't mean to be mean i know that #but im still struggling with the more phobic tasks and while it is clean in here it could always be better so she's right #im just. still working on it all and trying to be better no matter what #anyway the bathroom is one im hella phobic abt and i had to wash my hands five times after finishing up but #maybe she'll be happy #but i cant tell her i did it or she'll ignore it #i gotta hope she notices the next day she's here #fingers crossed she will!!! #also that one of the now 300+ overall resumes ive sent out since before i even quit the clinic will get back with something concrete #that isn't a scam and doesn't give a million red flags in the interview #or that interview me but then reveal they already know they're doing an inside hire but gotta do so many outside interviews first #or my fave: ur a good fit and qualified and they loved ur interview but my supervisor said no & idk why #been getting more of those again and like. what the fuck do i do with that lmao